"behind my smile is a broken heart,
behind my laugh I'm falling apart.
behind my eyes are tears at night,
behind my body is a soul trying to
fight"
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My cursed fate began from the day my dad got married to a woman named Polly, a woman who was already married before and got divorced just like my dad; somehow my dad thought me and my brother Rylan needed a so called mother to look after us cause he alone was not being able to look after us. It was a joke people were laughing behind our back cause my so called dad was getting married again but what I did not know was from this day onwards my life was going to take whole 90 degree angle change; from this day onward my life was going to turn into hell and complete nightmare; from this day onwards my cursed fate would began; this was the day everything in our lives changed and it was nothing what we went through; this was the very sa
"True evil people don't justHurt others. They take pride in thePain they cause and Then try to blame Their victims"******************************This quote "true evil people don't just hurt others. They take pride in the pain they cause and then try to blame their victims" so resembles this evil vile woman Polly; the second wife of my father. She was the exact kind of person who was truly evil; taking pride in hurting people and breaking family was her favourite game.Since the day she got married to my father our family was in chaos, ever
"Broken and Abused Wasleft to suffer;Cried and Begged to Be Loved and Cared for"Ashma Rauniyar*******************************I was broken; I was abused; I was left to suffer on my own; I kept on crying and begging to be loved; to be cared but no one heard my plea of songs. I was left alone to fight; alone to survive; alone to fight with my worst nightmares; left alone to fight the depression. I was left alone by my own family to die.How more a young girl like me can go through more difficulty than i already had; how more can i take the cruelty of my fate; how more can i be broken than i a
"Strength isn't aboutHow much youCan handlebefore you can break.its about how muchyou can endureafter you'vebeen broken"***********************************This song "Things are Never Gonna be the same" by Jessica Mauboy is my personal favourite; somewhere down the road I felt the same. I was never the same person I was. Once I was "good girl" and now "Good Girl has Gone Bad".*****************************************************************************Though my grandfather warned my step-mothe
"When you're broken you need to be reborn. Do not fight thePain; embrace it. Accept it. Live it.Don't rush the process, you need to swim in the deep end for a while to build you muscles.Learn. Keep swimming.You will be stronger for it."- Caitlin Cooper************************************The line from this quote "when you're broken you need to be reborn" resembles me so much. I was broken to the extent that I was not even seeing the positive light in my life. I did not know how to save myself from the damage that was done to me; I could not even see the shore to survive or land; I was too into the depth of the water to be saved. The only person that can keep myself from going insane was only me; Only. Me. I. was the only one now who can rescue myself from the detriment I was going to foist upon myself.
"You just do it. You forceyourself to get up. You forceyourself to put one footBefore the other, and Goddamn it, you refuse to let itget to you. You fight. You cry.You curse. Then you goabout your business of living. That's how I've done it.There's no other way."- Elizabeth Taylor*************************************After the death joke I was adamant on changing myself; I became the girl I never ever thought would be in my life. The meek girl once my family knew turned into a rebellious girl; a bolshie and everyone was surprised to see a big change in me.With new obstinacy I started my war against the family and I was persistence to win. I stood up with a strong force of will power and determination; a determin
"You Are my Oasis To QuenchImmesurable Love. My Breath Of Fresh Air In ThoseInsurmountable MomentsOf Life".****************************In-between all this chaos happening in my life something or rather I say someone came into my life like a blossom of flower and swept me away from my feet.I never thought that someone so gentle person would take a liking on a crippled girl like me; I was so flabbergasted knowing this. At this point I was so confused and I thought my friends were joking with me cause I never thought something good would happen to me since I was only in anguish so it was really freaking hard to believe this new turn of event in my life.It was a summer night time and I was standing in the window and looking at the street people walking
"You Were the First BoyWho Made me FeelLoved and Visible. YouAre my First Love... And IWant More than Anything for You to beMy Last."**********************************He came into my life like a breath of fresh air! Like a flower that blossom in the spring time; like a light that shines in the darkness.He was the oxygen that I needed in my envenom life; he was the fresh air that I needed in my life to breath; he was the light that I needed to come out of the darkness in my life. He was the path that I needed to take on the right direction. He was the happiness that I needed in my life and he was the love and care that I needed in my tragic life.He was the person that I never expected to infiltrate in my life. He was like a dream to me; the kind of dream a beautiful dream from
"I never thought anyone Would ever make me smile,Laugh, and captureMy heart as fast as You have."************************************* He walked up the stairs like he was some kind of angel who has come down from heaven to capture every women's heart in earth. I was so shocked to see him walking towards us in the restaurant my mouth opened and closed like a fish and my jaw was slacked opened. I was so locked and froze upon seeing him; not a single word came out of my mouth; my throat dried like a Sahara desert. At that time all I was thinking how can a man or boy be so angelic, poised, glassy and composed. I thought I was dreaming a beautiful dream that I never wanted to end or wake up from so I asked my friends to pinch me and they all laughed together seeing my confused state. I kept asking them if I was dreaming but sudde