I don't know what good things I did to the world, why all the pain I felt suddenly faded, and replaced it into sheer bliss. Hindi ko rin alam kung ano ang ginawa ko kay Rico why he suddenly texted me last night. Matutulog na nga sana ako, but I got a notification on my phone.
Not that I hate to admit it, but I think I really feel hard for him.
I know I'm taking a serious risk of the things I am doing, especially liking Rico. But, he's so different from others. There was something on him I wanted to fight for.
He's also making me feel too many emotions, and can't explain what it really is. At isa pa, parang nagiging ibang tao ako kapag kasama ko si Rico. Nagiging soft ako, which I am not in reality? I mean with others, I'm not that soft.
"Hey, hey, hey, pretty boy!" Alex blocked my way. She's wearing a see-through beach suit with her pricey sunglasses.
"Kael, nakaready na ba lahat ng gamit mo? Sa'yo Josh?""Yes, sir! Nakaready na po!" Josh jokingly salutes to Mark while facing his phone."Sa'yo Kael?" tanong ulit ni Mark. I just replied to him with a slight nod, and continued looking for a shirt to wear later."Ano ba hinahanap mo, Kael?" Lumapit si Mark sa'kin, at kinuha ang damit na nilabas ko." Obviously, a t-shirt." I never took a single glance at him, and focused on what I am doing."Okay naman 'yang damit mo, eh."I shook my head, " Ito na lang siguro. "I looked at the navy t-shirt and pairs it with a beach short. Kahit paulit-ulit na tinatanong ako ni Mark kung bakit parang ang busy ko. I just ignored him and talked to him, until I'm done."Saan ba?" he asked again.I raised my eyes on him, and sighed. I'm no
Nang makauwi kami, agad kong ginawa ay tumawag kay Rico. Ilang beses akong tumawag at nagtext sa kanya, but he's not responding. Kaya, I decided to call him the next day–assuming he may be so busy sa work niya."Kael, ready na ang food sa baba. Sabay na tayong kumain." ate knocked at the door, and slowly opened it."Okay, ate. Susunod lang ako.""Kael, stpp using your phone muna. Kain na tayo," Umupo siya sa gilid ko at kunwaring sumilip sa phone ko."Mauna ka na lang, ate."I saw the side of my eyes how she pouted and looked at me-dejected."Hindi mo na yata ako mahal, Kael." unti-unti kong inangat ang paningin ko, at umupo ng maayos." Ito naman si ate nagtatampo agad." I chuckled and rest my head on her side."Ano ba naman kasi ang pinag-aabalahan mo? You're so focused
"Isaac, please. I'm begging you to stop bothering us." I grabbed Rico's hand on our urge to run, when we both stopped by Isaac's sarcastic chuckle. "I can't promise you that, Kael. Lalo na ngayon na nakahanap ka agad ng pampalit sa akin. Or maybe, your just trying to make me jealous? " Napapigil hininga ako nang pansin ang malalim na pag buntong-hininga ni Rico. "Huwag mo na lang siya pansinin, let's go." I whispered to him. " Saglit lang, " he faced me, then took my hand on his arm. "Sir, mawalang galang na po. Respetuhin na lang natin ang desisyon ni Kael, kaysa pinipilit nyo pa ang sarili mo sa kanya. " Inabot ko ang kamay niRico, pinipilit siyang hilain palayo kay Isaac nang makita ang masamang tingin nito. "Don't you ever talk to me like that. You're just like a
I rushed back home from what Alexa told us. She also texted me, explaining what actually happened.Kanina, Isaac called dad and told him that I am having a relationship with someone. Obviously, dad got alarmed for sure. Even if he'll believe it or not, I need to tell him what's on my side.Alam ko, this is Isaac's plan to make our relationship get complicated.Pagkapasok ko sa loob ng bahay, I acted calm and unbothered immediately when I saw Dad and Isaac at the living room, sitting face-to-face."Dad, what's wrong? Why is Isaac here?"I gazed to Isaac who's side lips are rising. Nakapatong ang siko nya sa tuhod niya habang si Dad ay nasandal sa upuan na may hawak na baso na may kalahating laman na beer."If this guy is not your boyfriend, then who? I've warned you before Kael. Stop this shit of yours. You're not supposed to
From the time I woke up until now, my lips can't stop smiling. Inayos ko ang uniform kong puti na blouse at slacks. I stared myself at the mirror, and put on my ID. Huminga ako ng malalim bago inalis ang tingin sa salamin, at kinuha ang bag ko para makaalis na ako."Your boyfriend is waiting for you outside." Ate winked at me before I could grab a toast on the table."Naiinggit ka na, ate?" I chuckled.Her reaction changed into a stern look, and arms crossed to each other."Stop talking na lang, Kael." She faced me with her palm and gestured for me to go.Lumapit muna ako sa kanya, at hinalikan muan sa pisngi bago lumabas ng bahay. Pagkahakbang ko pa lang sa labas ng bahay, agad tumalon ang puso ko nang makita ang lalaking walang damit pang-itaas habang pinupunasan ang kotse. Every move of his arm, it stretches his right biceps that makes me gulped multiple times.&n
"Don't make me embarrassed by this noble family, Kael." Nilakihan ako ni dad ng mata, and his voice is so low, preventing the people near us to hear what he is saying.Nakatitig lang ako sa mata ni dad, at pinipilit na huwag siyang sumbatan o masigawan. Never in my life shouted dad in front of anyone. Kung nagagalit man ako sa kanya, nilalabas ko lang ito sa iba."But Dad, I don't want to marry her!" I gazed at the woman who's smiling at me, and his father who's in a serious look."You need to, Kael. It is the better solution for you and for us. We can use their name for us to grow. "Napapikit na ang ako sa mata ko nang tinapik ni Dad ang balikat ko bago binalik ang atensyon sa kanila.Kahit labag sa kalooban ko, umupo na rin ako sa kanila and pretending like I am listening to them."So, siya na pala ang susunod sa'yo?
I've been thinking how naughty I am wanting me and Rico to do it. I regret doing it.Ang sakit kasi, eh.But, everything replaces the pain into pleasure and love realizing that I did it with Rico.Ilang araw kong hindi pinapansin si Rico dahil hindi nawawala sa isipan ko ang mga sinasabi ko noong isang araw. Hindi ko ma proseso sa utak ko na nangyari iyon. And I am not dreaming. Nakakahiya lang dahil parang uhaw na uhaw talaga ako.Nasa garden ako at inaabala ang sarili na magtanim ng mga kung ano-ano. Wala naman kaming klase ngayon dahil holiday, at imbes na mag-aral ako, mas inuna ko muna ito to distract and clear my mind.Pinagmasdan ko ang sarili kong kamay na may suot na gloves puno na ng mga putik, at ramdam na ang matinding lagkit sa buong katawan dahil sa mga pawis na tumatagaktak sa noo ko.Hindi naman masyado tirik
"Doc, wala ba talagang sakit ang kapatid ko? Palagi na lang siyang nahihimatay. I'm super worried sa health niya. "I am sitting to the hospital bed, while listening to ate’s concern. Nakaupo lang din si Rico sa tabi ng kama, at hinawakan ang kamay ko."Miss Rodriguez, walang problema sa kapatid mo. Based on the results we took, walang makitang mali sa kapatid mo. He's healthy and no need to worry. "I nodded to the doctor, but laughed inside my head seeing how ate rolled her eyes hearing what the doctor told us."Kung mauulit pa ’to. Mapipilitan kaming mapapatingin sa albularyo. " I heard she whispered before the doctor went out the room.Sumandal ako sa unan na nasa ulohan ko, at napatingin sa kisame.Hindi pa rin nawawala sa isipan ko ang babaeng nakita ko. It's so creepy, and it gives me too much nightma