My life went back to its normal state again even after what my parents did to me back at their office. Because life should go on anyway. I was just really glad that I did not hear any rumors about me and my family anymore. Medyo naging okay na ulit ako at balik na nga sa dati. Nilinis na naman siguro ng mga magulang ko ang mga pangalan nila. Nilinis na rin nila ang kagagahang ginawa ko sa party dahil ayaw nila ng kahihiyan.
Funny how they cleaned up their mess through their dirty ways.
My routine is to go to school, hang out with friends and go home with Ivory on school days. During weekends, I will go to the grocery store to shop for necessary household items and foods to store in Ivory's fridge in her unit. We also both continue learning how to cook and bake while trying different recipes. It became one of our hobbies and way of bonding, too.
Talking to Ethan on the phone every day and night became pa
I thought everything is already going better just like how I wanted. I haven't done anything to fix it but at least, I've found the peace I wanted. My parents didn't bother my life... for now. Although I haven't talked to my sister for a while now, I am still feeling happy to see her photos on the internet and I enjoy watching her on the TV show she's in.But... no. Lahat na lang ng konting kasiyahan ko sa buhay napapalitan ng matinding kalungkutan.My best friend for more than ten years let me go. He cut ties with me and..."He flew to Canada right away, Erin." Jake's mom said when I called her.It's been days since he hasn't contacted me and I never saw him in school, too. Even Axi and Ivory don't have any idea if where he went. He did not even left any message for the three of us. He just disappeared and went overseas."N-no..." My voice cracked and my knees were shaking.
I ran out of words. I didn't know what to say after hearing all the gossips and reading the articles online. Everything that happened to me these past few days has always made me speechless. Parang natutulala na lang ako dahil sa mga pangyayari, eh.Umuwi kaagad kami pagkatapos kong mabasa ang mga artikulo sa internet. Nakakalat na sa kung saan-saang platform ang balitang may affair ang mommy ko. People keep on talking about her. They keep on spamming every tweet and post with hate comments. They even created hashtags.'What a whore. Hindi na nakuntento sa asawa niya. She has everything she needs and wants but still cheated on her husband. #FarrahLandi''Gusto niya talagang mas sumikat at yumaman pa kaya pinatulan ang CEO na sobrang yaman! Pero girl, may asawa rin siya! #FarrahWhore''Flirt old woman. Lmao. #FarrahLandi #FarrahWhore'I turned my phone off after reading those few
I'm at a loss for words after hearing Ethan's unexpected confession in front of the entire class. I was so embarrassed by his careless behavior! Nainis na rin ako kasi hindi niya man lang pinag-isipan 'yon. I've never had a boyfriend, and I don't even entertain previous suitors. And that's because I don't intend to have one. Tapos malalaman ng mga kaklase ko na pumayag akong ligawan ng isang transferee?! That's just... too much to process. People will undoubtedly start talking about him and... me. Ethan came from a wealthy family.At ang alam nila ay galing ako sa middle class family. Which is hard for them to digest dahil paano raw ako nakakapag-aral sa school na 'to kung hindi ako anak-mayaman. The hypocrisy is on another level. If it's not because of my looks, they won't treat me nicely. That's for sure. Ayokong maging pulutan na lang ng chismisan nila palagi. If they got nothing to do rather than talking shit about other people'
I was waiting for Axi and Ivory to come back from the lavatory. I was so hungry that I didn't mind going there with them. Besides, I have a feeling that I am already starting to hate going to lavatories, rest rooms or comfort rooms because of Ethan and Wry. So, I just minded my own business and ate lunch since I am really hungry. As in, for real nagugutom na talaga ako. Ang dami ko ngang biniling pagkain, eh! I don't eat a lot but whenever I'm stressed out, I would unintentionally eat a little bit more. I already had two cups of rice and two pieces of fried chicken. I felt so full but still had a can of a carbonated drink. I also am planning on buying hash browns. "I know you're here." A familiar voice spoke that I almost spit out my drink. What the heck?! I had a sudden mix of emotions inside and I hated it. I don't want to be in my whirlpool of thoughts and become vulnerable again. Hindi na ako magiging marupok, I promised that to myself. And I will protect
"Hey, I'll just buy something downstairs." I told Ivory who's now busy with the report that she had to do as the president of the student council. "You sure you're okay to go out alone?" She asked. "I'm a hundred percent sure." "Okay." She replied with a nod. Her eyes didn't leave the screen of her computer. "Wala kang ipapabili?" Tanong ko. "Nothing. Just be safe. Diyan ka lang sa baba, ah." I nodded and made my to the convenience store. When I was inside the elevator, I had a hard time composing myself. Ang daming tao sa loob, siksikan pa. I almost couldn't breath, not only because it was crowded inside but because I was triggered by that traumatic memory I had in Cebu when I went out alone.This is so tiresome. Lagi na lang ganito nararamdaman ko every time I try to do my usual routine alone. I am already breathing heavily and was about to get back to the unit dahil sa takot kong baka maulit na naman '
"Hey, you can do this." Ethan told me as he gently hold my hand. We were in front of my parents' house and I am feeling a little nervous to get inside. Actually, halo halo ang emosyon ko ngayon. A part of me hated the fact that my parents were not really caring and nice to me ever since. They were blinded by their fame. They enjoyed their spot under the limelight. They caused me both emotional and mental damages. I could feel anger boiling up in my heart again just by thinking every cruel thing my parents put me in, so I tried to execute the breathing exercises for me to calm down. I can't be like this right now. I needed to get things done. I needed to fight against my own monsters. "Masama ba ang pakiramdam mo? Let's just go back when you're ready to face them again, Erin. You need to compose yourself first, okay? Please don't push yourself too hard. May nakalaang oras para sa lahat ng bagay. There's no need to rush." Ethan tried to make me feel better with all tho
"Are you feeling better now?" Ethan asked me, but I didn't look at him. Namamanhid ang labi ko nang dahil sa kanya! "Hey. I'm sorry. I was just tempted to kiss you." I groaned. "Ugh. Can you please just shut up? Masyado ka nang nakadagdag sa problema ko sa buhay." "I'm sorry, okay? I just wanted you to feel better through my kisses." Tingnan mo nga 'to at binibiro na naman ako! "Tumahimik ka na lang, please. Tama na kaka-mention tungkol sa kiss na 'yan!" Naiirita kong sambit. At tawang tawa naman si gago. Ang sarap talaga nitong suntukin, eh. Hindi ko na ulit pa pinakinggan ang mga pinagsasabi niyang hindi magandang pakinggan para sa 'kin. Mahawaan pa ako sa kaharutan niya. "Hoy. Kung gusto mo talaga ako, samahan mo nga ako sa loob ng house nila mommy." Paghahamon ko sa kanya. I thought he was going to say no but he immediately offered his hand to me. "Take my hand and hold on to it tightly. I'll always be by your side, no matter what happens." I rolled my eyes after hearing
"Love-" I was about to say something to Ethan but stopped when I realized what I just said. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang lumingon si Ethan sa 'kin. And his eyes widened as well. Of course, we're both shocked! He obviously heard what I just called him. Magkatabi lang naman kaming dalawa. Umawang ang labi nito at nagtatanong ang mga mata. "Did... did you just call me 'love'?" He asked, amused. I bit my lower lip. I didn't know what to say again! Pasmado talaga ang bibig ko at kung anu ano na lang ang lumalabas mula dito! Palaging nadudulas, eh. "I mean-" Umiwas ako ng tingin nang mapansing sumeryoso ang mukha nito. I'm never ready to talk about 'this' yet. Para akong kakapusan ng hininga kapag pag-uusapan namin ang relasyon namin or whatever. Kasi alam ko na kung saan 'to patungo, eh! As I said, I don't want to commit myself to Ethan for now. And I don't to disappoint or hurt him in any way. "Alam mo bang ilang beses ko nang pinangarap na tawagin mo rin ako ng ganoon, Zephyrine?"