We sat there in silence.
No one spoke. No one tried to. No one dared to talk.
I can almost hear my own breathing. I can feel my heart beating.
I can also feel him. I can feel his presence. He's beside me but somehow I feel like I couldn't touch him.
He feel so near yet so far. It was like an almost but not quite.
"What are you thinking?" I asked him to break the silence.
One question that could get him closer because as much as I don't want to, my heart keeps telling me that I need to.
I like him. I want him. I need him.
I'm scared that I might lose someone again. I'm afraid that I will be left alone again.
"You," he answered.
He's thinking about me. I wonder if he think of me the way I think of him.
Like how I wish thin
"What a beautiful day!" sabi ko saka nag inat. It's been three days since Fauve and I are officially together. Simula noong naging kami, halos hindi na kami mapaghiwalay na dalawa. I also noticed that I've been distancing myself with Jungle these days. Mas nabibigay ko na ang lahat na atensyon ko kau Fauve. Kahit na nagbabasa lang naman ako ng libro, siya talaga kasama ko. Bumangon ako at ginawa ang mga dapat kong gawin bago lumabas. "Good morning, Milady," bati niya sa akin pagkalabas na pagkalabas ko palang. He's standing outside the door of my cabin. As usual, he's wearing his all black outfit that made him look hotter. He smiled at me when he noticed that I am checking him out. What a good start of a day."Good morning," bati ko din sa kanya saka naglakad palapit sa kanya at niyakap siya. "You smell so good in the morning," he whispered while burying his face on my shoulder. He also smell good in the morning. Wala namang bago. I may sound like I am so obsessed with him bu
"Bull's-eye!" sigaw nilang lahat. I wiped my sweat and look at them. Napatawa lang ako sa kalagayan nila ngayon dahil lahat sila ay parang namamangha parin. Lahat kami ay nagsasanay para mapaghandaan ang paglalakbay namin sa Caribbean Sea. Tunog ng alon, hangin, espada, at pana ang naririnig ko. Everyone is sweaty, everyone is busy. Well except for the Captain who is sitting there and watching us, pr should I say, watching me. I can see in Fauve's eyes that he's not surprised that I am good in archery. He looked so proud. I mastered archery. Hind ko alam kung sa genes ba iyon o sa skill talaga. Each day, we're getting nearer and nearer the sea where the Hellers are. Kailangan ko na ring sanayin ang sarili kong makipaglaban hindi na aasa lang ako lagi sa mga kasama ko. "Pahinga ka muna, Binibini." sabi ni Alex sa akin. Salitan sila ni Xander sa pagturo sa akin dahil mas gamay nila ang larangang ito. I sat beside Fauve who's watching me all the time and drank in his cup of water.
Mahimbing ang tulog ko dahil katabi ko si Fauve buong gabi. Maaga din akong nagising dahil hindi ako mapakali at para bang may bumabagabag sa akin. I get up and do my usual routine before going out. As usual, mga crew agad ang bumubungad sa akin pagkalabas na pagkalabas ko, pero ngayon, parang balisa sila na ewan. I looked at the surroundings, the sky was still gray, the ocean was still. Hindi din mahangin at parang strange 'yung feeling ko sa lugar na ito. Caribbean Sea was the first thing that comes up into my mind. Ito na ba iyon?I thought it's only in the movies to see the dark sky and to feel a strange feeling in this place."Magandang umaga, Binibini. Pinapatawag ka na po ni Kapitan sa hapag." sabi ni Jungle sa akin. Nagulat ako dahil ng pormal niya, pero sumunod nalang din ako. His boots are the only thing that is creating a spund as we head to the dining room. Pagkadating ko doon ay natahimik silang lahat. Binaba din ni Fauve ang librong binabasa niya at ngumiti sa akin
Aruba. So this is it. I never thought that this place would look like a paradise. The people are waving at us. Junger blow the large horn as a symbol of our arrival. Some of them looked confused as they see me in the front deck with their leader.Umihip ang malamig na hangin. They rays of the setting sun is kissing my face, giving me a warm feeling. It feels surreal. Hindi ko akalaing makakapunta ako sa isang lugar na kagaya nito."Welcome to Aruba, Stimacion." Fauve whispered. Nilahad niya ang kamay niya saka tinulungan akong makababa sa barko."Bon Bini," bati ng mga tao sa amin.Tumatango naman sa Fauve sa kanila samantalang ako, hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin. "Bon Bini, means welcome. They are welcoming you, love." sabi sa akin ni Fauve habang nakangiti. Kung gayon, ako pala ang sinasabihan nila? I suddenly feel the awkwardness kasi nakakahiya na nakayuko lang alo while they're welcoming me. "Love, you do not have to be shy. This is my territory, you are very welcome her
Naglahad siya ng kamay para tulungan akong makababa sa kalesa. We were silent until we reached to the door of my room. He opened the door for me and looked at me for a minute before he finally opened his mouth to say something."What do you want do tomorrow?" he asked me."Will you be busy tomorrow?" I asked him. I want to be with him, but I don't to bother him if he's busy."I'm going to examine the books tomorrow after breakfast." he told me."I'm going with you." I told him. Wala naman kasi akong gagawin. I am a stranger to this place. Well actually only known as Fauve's lover or something like that."Sure you can," sabi niya sa akin.We cuddled until I felt sleepy."I saw how baddass you were while fighting them. That was hot." He whispered while he's caressing my hair to make me feel more sleepy. Alam na alam niya kung paano ako paantukin."Oh yeah? I never ever thought I could survive that." I chuckled a bit."You were so protective. I feel so honored." He said."I just can't a
"Are they there already?" Fauve asked Gina."Benjamin and his wife were already there Sir. 'Yung iba naman po ay papunta na." sabi ni Gina.I'm still finding something to wear, and it's taking me so long because I want to wear them all. This is the worst part of the day everytime I want to go out."You ready, love? They're waiting." Fauve asked me for the nth time. Nasa labas lang din siya ng kwarto ko."Not yet. Wait." I told him that for the nth time already."What's taking you so long? Mind if I come in?" He asked me."Of course." sabi ko sa kanya.And with that, he opened the door and saw my stressed face, the bikinis in the bed, and the scattering dresses everywhere."Wow." sabi niya. He just stood there, probably processinng everything."Yeah. I know. It's a mess. I do not know what to wear." I told him while standing beside the bed with my hands on my hips looking so stressed."Red if bikini, and white dress." sabi niya sa akin nang matapos niyang i-scan ang mga damit sa kama k
"Happy Birthday, my love!" bati sa akin ni Fauve pagkalabas na pagkalabas ko sa aking kwarto."Thank you, love." I hugged him.Halos hindi pa ako nagigising ng tuluyan, bumabati na ang mga tao sa loob ng bahay sa akin.Birthday ko pala ngayon? That was the least thing that I was expecting to start my day with. Kay tagal na din pala. Isang taon na din pala. Parang kailan lang."Sabaw pa ang mahal ko, hayaan niyo na muna." sabi ni Fauve sa kanila nang nakita niyang natutulala ako.Hindi pa din kasi ako naliligo. Sabi ko kasi kakain na muna sana ako bago ako maligo, pero parang mali ata ang daan na tinahak ko."We have a celebration here later. Is that fine with you?" tanong sa akin ni Fauve noong nakaupo na kami sa lamesa para kumain ng umagahan."Of course, love. Bakit naman hindi?" tanong ko sa kanya pabalik. "Baka mas gugustuhin mo kasi na simple celebration lang. I invited all the people in the island." he looked at me like he is observing my supposed to be expression."You what?"
Hindi ko na namalayan ang oras. Lumubog na ng tuluyan ang araw pero parang ayoko parin bumalik sa palasyo. I am tired of socializing. Susunduin naman ata ako ni Fuave dito kapag naramdaman niya na matagal na akong nawala. I just want to be alone for a while, but I know that I have to go back to Fauve's house. I know that I have no choice but to go back there. There's still an after party, I know people would ask for my presence. Naghintay ako ng ilang oras, pero walang Fauve na dumating. "Baka nagsisiyahan na silang lahat dun." sabi ko sa sarili ko. Were they that happy for him to forget that I am gone? Few more minutes, I decided to get up and go back. Nang medyo malapit na ako sa palasyo, naririnig ko na ang mga tawanan ng mga tao sa loob. They are happy celebrating. I plastered a smile on my face before opening the back door and greeted the handmaidens there. There are busy pacing back and forth. Umakyat na muna ako sa kwarto ko para ilagay doon ang gitara ni Fauve. Pumas