CHAPTER 2: Divorce?

“Busy? Seriously? What are we going to eat if I don’t work?! I’m looking for a way to give you time! Even though I’m very tired from work, I still cooked for you and Elizabeth. I’m still doing my responsibility as a mother and I am trying to be a good wife to you!”

“Well, do s*x matters to you a lot Daren?! Is married all about s*x for you? Do you want us to have s*x every day so that we can prove that we love each other? What is more important to you s*x or love... s*x or me?” I’m trying to calm down my voice because Elizabeth might hear me.

I don’t want her to know what kind of father she has!

“So, are you blaming me for everything? Are you saying I’m lazy? That I should work instead of you?!” he asks, raising his eyebrows at me.

“Yes! Because you are the man!! Every time I come home, you’re always playing video games! Aren’t you? You’re no longer a child for those things, Daren! The one who doesn’t have time is you, but I do try to understand you all the time. Didn’t you even think about our daughter before you did something like that?”

Didn’t you even think about me too?

“If you told me before that you didn’t love me, I wouldn’t force you! Remember that I’m not a dog who will follow you whenever you leave! I don’t care how many years we’ve been together and how many years we’ve loved each other. I don’t want to be stupid to someone like you!” I can’t stop myself from glaring at him.

“Then fine. Let’s get divorced! But I’ll take Elizabeth with me--“ I cut him off to speak because I immediately punched him in the cheek.

“Damn!”

“You?” I ask and smirk.

“You can’t keep an eye on her even if you’re just at home! Then you say you’ll take my daughter with you? I won’t allow you to take my child! You should kill me first before that happens.” I said coldly.

“She’s also my daughter Elyse!!”

Yeah, I know. I’m not stupid, dumb!

“I’ll let you visit Elizabeth. I’m going to stop you if you want to visit her, but you can’t take her away from me,” I muttered and wiped my tears on the cheek.

“Fine! I won’t force you!” he said, then started getting dressed. “And about the question you ask early. Yes! S*x is more important to me. I need it! A relationship won’t long last without having s*x with their partners, Elyse.”

“I’m not going to sleep here,” he murmurs before leaving.

That jerk! His face is thick! Those days when we’re not doing it... is he doing that to someone else? When did he start cheating on me!

“Then don’t! No one will be going to stop you jerk!”

We’ve known each other for 14 years,

we started being friends until he started courting me until I say yes to him.

We dreamed together, but then I got pregnant. I thought my life would just end up, that my life is already ruined because I got pregnant. But then I thought that the only thing that change is that I only got pregnant but it doesn’t mean I can’t keep going to school. That won’t stop me from graduating high school and college. Getting pregnant can’t stop me from achieving my dreams.

I achieved my dream to start my own company. But Daren gives up on his dreams and he chooses to stay at home and taking care of our child.

I was the only one who works instead of him.

I wiped away my tears and sighed. I suddenly remembered what my Mommy told me before.

‘A woman should never cry over a man. Because real man won’t make you cry, if that man loves you he won’t make you cry. If you’re going to cry, it’s not because he hurt you, it’s because he made you happy and that’s what they called tears of joy.’

For the first time, he made me cry, and he hurt me this much. He said he doesn’t love me anymore, then fine! I’m not going to waste my precious time on someone like him, he’s not worth it so, I shouldn’t be crying to that jerk... but I can’t help it, all those years that we’ve been together, I can’t just forget those memories because I want to. Brain can forget, but the heart doesn’t.

I just laughed when I remembered what he told to me before. He said that I’m the only girl he’ll love for the rest of his life. That he wouldn’t leave me, that he won’t ever cheat on me... but now ...all of that happens! He’s such a liar, f**king a jerk!

We’ve known each other for 14 years, we’ve been together for 12 years. I thought I already knew him very well, but I’m wrong. It doesn’t really matter how many years you’ve known each other or how many years you’ve been together with your partners. Because time comes that one of you will fall out of love.

Well, I don’t believe in forever... tsk, that’s a cap. The funniest word that I’ve ever heard. There’s no forever in this world. People die, plants die, animals die... even this world will end too.

You know, reality sucks. All you can do is enjoy your lives because I believe we only live once.

“Mommy? Are you crying?” I stop thinking and looked at my daughter.

“No, sweetheart. Mommy isn’t crying.”

I didn’t realize that tears were dripping from my eyes again, and she wiped them with her left thumb.

“Then, what’s this?” at the same time, she showed me her thumb.

“How was your school?” I ask, trying to change the topic.

“It was good, I got A+ again.” I smiled because of what she said. She’s a smart kid. She reminds me of myself before when I was still a kid like her. But unlike her, I don’t have toys. I can’t get what I want because my parents are poor.

“Very good, I’ll buy you a new toy tomorrow because you got A+.”

“I have so many toys already Mommy,” she said while her lips are pouting.

“What do you want me to buy then?”

She shrugged. “I don’t want you to buy anything. All I want is you, Mom.

Seeing you happy is enough for me...”

“Ha?”

“I just don’t want you to get hurt. If you don’t love Daddy anymore, then divorce him already. If you’re not happy, then leave him.” I was shocked by what she said.

Did she know anything? How?

“Elizabeth...”

“Yes, I am only 10 years old, Mom, to think like this already, but I’m smarter than you think. I understood everything that you’ve been through. I totally understand you.” My tears dripped even more because of what my daughter’s saying right now.

“Remember that you are not alone Mom, I’m always here, I won’t leave you.” She hugged me and wiped away my tears.

I’m lucky to have a daughter like her.

“I love you.” I kissed her on the cheek and just smiled as I stared at her face. I never regret that your daddy and I made love that day, you’re a gift from god.

“Are you hungry? Do you want to eat?” I ask and wiped my tears. She nods at me.

I cooked her favorite food, adobo.

“Eat a lot so you don’t lose weight,” I muttered and smiled at her.

“Mommy, I always eat a lot. You’re the one who should eat a lot because you’re working to make money.” I chuckled. My daughter looks so cute every time she acts like that.

I turned my gaze to Yaya. “Yaya, have you eaten yet?”

“Not yet, Ma’am Elyse.”

“Come on, join us Yaya.”

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I’m already in the bedroom and it’s 11 pm. I can’t sleep. I used to sleep next to someone, so I’m having a hard time now because Daren isn’t here.

He didn’t come home, that damn jerk! He didn’t even think of his daughter. It’s good that Elizabeth didn’t ask why her dad was not here.

I was surprised when there was a sudden knock on the door; I stood up and open it.

“Oh, it’s already late at night, sweetie. Why are you still awake?”

“Ahm--“

“Wait, are you hurt? Are you sick?” I checked her forehead if she’s hot or something.

“Mommy relax, I’m okay.” I took a deep breath.

Whenever my daughter gets sick, I am panicking. I’m just scared of losing her. She’s all I have...now.

“So, why are you here, then?”

“I can’t sleep, because I know you can’t sleep easily when you’re not next to someone.” I just smiled because of her behavior lately. She acts matured these days. Nobody would think that she’s just 10 years old to think and act like that.

“You want to sleep next to Mommy then?” I bend and kissed her all over the face. She chuckled.

“Yeah, I want to be with you now.” she entered the room and locked the door. She pulled my hand towards to the bed.

“Shouldn’t you go to bed early Mommy because you still have work tomorrow, right?”

Oh yeah, I have a meeting tomorrow morning around 10 am.

We both lay down on the bed. She hugged me tightly.” Good night, I love you, Mom.” She smiled adoringly at me. She kissed my cheek before closing her eyes.

Elizabeth deserves a happy and complete family, but now Daren and I don’t understand each other anymore, we’re planning to divorce... that’s okay Elyse! You can be a mother and father to her, you can do it! Just believe in yourself.

Before we’re just poor, but I am happy because I’m with my Mom and dad. I am their only daughter and they love me so much. I grow up with loving and caring parents. Sadly, they died when I was 18. It’s my exact birthday. We’re in the jeep together with my parents...

We got into an accident, I’m one of those lucky passengers who got survive. Unlucky, my parents don’t.