VANCE'S POV
"LETS Date-"
"I have a date later-" I interrupted what I was saying when I could keep up with what Steven was saying, "so I won't be able to eat with you," I continued in surprise.
My voice weakened at the last thing I said, I felt like I wanted to retract what I said.
I was devastated when I seemed to catch a glimpse of the pain in his eyes when I said that.
I was staring at where I was standing as he stepped closer to me.
We were only one step closer when he stopped. I could see his chest lift.
"I want to take you out co'z I want you," he stared into my eyes. "For now, lets date first," he whispered and hoarsely.
I prayed that he would take back what he said and say it that he was just joking.
Go on say it!
It was as if I could be deafened by the force of my heartbeat.
"You heard me?" he insisted, "I want you."
I shook my head and averted my eyes.
I took a deep breath.What is happening to me? What kind of impersonation is he doing? Why am I paying so much?
My mind and heart argued.
My heart wants to believe but my mind says that maybe it's just a fraud to catch me or to destroy me.
I acted laughing.
He took a deep breath, blinking briefly to calm himself, "I felt like I'm going to explode everytime you are near at me."
Try it harder!
I like what he says but that's not a reason for me to give up. For me to expose to him what I really am. I kept it from many for four years and i want to kept it again!
"I want to touch you. I want to feel you-"
"That's bullshit Dude!" I cut him off, my tone was rude as if I am ready to hit him again if he still speak. "Do you see me wearing a floral dress right now? Fuck, what are you saying?! We're both men!"
I was surprised by his reaction. Instead of being serious, he showed a frugal smile.
"Well, your eyes and gestures can't shout what you're saying. How you look and breathe in front of me. I feel like we both feel the same way."
Now, I don’t know what else to react. I don’t know what to say as if I’m dumbfounded at the moment.
Shit! am I obvious?
I remember he was good at acting in front of Wena earlier and I'm sure he's doing the same to me now.
I smiled.
I can also act in front of him to end this. So, that I can save myself from falling and exposing my self to him. He obviously has a hint of what I am now.
But how did he know?
"You're thinking about me is wrong," I denied what he was thinking.
He grinned even more as he bit his lip.
Oh shit! He is confusing my mind! Why won't he give in to me?I stepped closer to him. Very close. My heart is still beating faster. I felt that I also hear his heartbeat or is it really just my dream that he feels the same way?
I also want to be close to him. So, I can smell his scent. Even now.
My eyes dropped to his lips.
Shit! that seems tempting...
"If you're not a man maybe I can allow you to satisfy your desire in me," I said softly.
"You don't want women-"
"Even if I like men. What you think won't happen because I don't like you."
I'm going to die of a heart attack if you are!
I try my best to lie.
I followed his gaze as he spat on his lips.
I felt the warmth of both my cheeks in embarrassment when he caught my eyes watching it.
I backed away, "Just find someone else-"
He gave me a strong blow to the jaw before I could finish what I was saying.
I was shaking. I also fell to the floor.
Ouch! I want to scream and cry like a little pretty girl!
He approached me then squatting in front of me.
I was surprised when he touched my chin and brought my face to his.
I saw the bitterness and sadness in his eyes.
I held my breath when his eyes fell on my lips and he wiped it with his big finger.
I was shocked but I felt it and then he let me go.
"Now, where even," he said bringing his thumb to his lips.
I was stunned.
He grinned before finally leaving me fainting. I couldn't stand so I just lay down on the grass.
I stared at the clouds.
"Vance! Are you okay?" Wena and Davion approached me.
Am I okay?
I just nodded and closed my eyes. I felt the throbbing and speed of my heart.
I took a deep breath when I open my eyes. I no longer pay attention to what they say."Can you guys, step aside?" that was all I could say.
Because their faces are blocking the clouds.
"The clouds is so beautiful," I said.
"What?" they said together.
Haha! I think Im going crazy!
I AM a working student but I can't go to work now because of my bruises and wounds. When the manager saw how I looked, he immediately told me not to go in until the wound and bruise on my face had healed.
I work at a fast food chain and sometimes a freelance writer. I regret that I should have been paid at times when I could not go to work. But even so I can't get angry and blame Steven because I'm actually happy that I met him today.
I live alone and I am the only one supporting for my college education expenses. My family who lives in the province and I don't get along well now. That's why the family I am consider now are my friends.
Wena, Calvin and Davion and I are now together in the apartment where I am staying while we wait for Braxton to come. We will have a dinner together tonight.
Calvin and Davion looked on, obviously not believing what I was saying. We are now talking about what happened to Steven and me earlier.
"That's what happened, I think I insulted him because I offered him money as damages so he punched me," I insisted.
"Is that all really?"
I was nervous at Davion's question.
"Didn't he threaten you?" Calvin added.
"No!" I answer immediately.We stopped talking for a moment when Wena arrived with a tray of food. The two helped set the table as I remembered what Steven had said earlier.
"I want to take you out co'z i want you. For now, lets date first."
I decided not to tell them about that. I'm still under shock. I am still stunned every time I think of what Steven told me.
My world actually shook when he answered my question of what he wanted to happen.
"Take you out."
Those words are so simple to hear that it means he just invites me to eat out. But why do I feel there is a deeper meaning to what he said?
It was as if Steven had given me a signal to expose my true identity. That what I could love and dream of was also a man like him.
I smiled as I remembered again how Steven said he wanted me.
I felt the pleasure of my feelings about what he said because the first time I saw him I liked him already. But I don't want to expect what he told me is true.
So I decided to keep it to myself. I think it's better to pretend that it didn't happen than to keep hoping that he really likes me.
I don't want to think that's possible even if we first met.
I also don’t let go of my suspicion that he’s possibly just playing me to destroy or disturb my silent world.
But why? Is it for revenge? Is he the brother or a boyfriend of the woman I hurt emotionally because I don’t like them?
"Ouch!" I suddenly cried when I felt the pain in the wound and bruise on my lips.
The newcomer Braxton pressed my hand there.
"I thought you were enjoying Steven's punch to you so I pressed your wound," he sat in front of me, "you look so happy."
Braxton sat in the middle of Calvin and Davion while Wena sat next to me.
The others laughed.
I looked like a sulking girl. I can only do it in front of them.
"Im not!" my defense.
Moments later, we all focused on food first.
"Why didn't anyone tell me right away about the trouble that happened earlier?" Braxton opens the conversation after we eat.
Braxton looked at us one by one. I drank water again.
Why did his tone sound like a huge commotion had happened?
"It's just a misunderstanding," I replied.
"Don't the troubles begin with misunderstanding?" Braxton asked again.
Calvin shrugged, "I just found out what happened to Anne."
Anne was his co-officer on the student council.
I raised an eyebrow as I imagined the distance of Anne's course to the people who had been there before. It means the distance of its department is far to know that immediately.
"How did she find out? Is she hanging out on another course?"
“Nah! she just knows the rumors and gossip on campus,” Calvin replied immediately.
"What? Rumor has it on campus what happened to Steven and me? Did the news spread immediately?" I asked in surprise.
VANCE'S POV "What? Rumor has it on campus what happened to Steven and me? Did the news spread immediately?" I asked in surprise. They all turned to me, wondering why I didn't know that. "I'm sorry, I don't know because after what happened I went home right away. My cellphone broke earlier so I can't update what's going on that I should know." Earlier when Steven punched me and I fell to the ground, my cellphone broke because it was inserted in the back pocket of my pants. They nodded. I turned to Wena, one of the writers of our Publication on campus. "Well, that's one of the things we're talking about right now on our freedom wall on campus and on social media. Because a lot of people are worried about Steven," Wena glanced at me for a moment, "and of course you too. Those guys who's reacting are people who likes you. But more of them likes Steven and his frat members are angry because of the false news they received ab
VANCE'S POV I can’t say that I never thought I would want to taste their body.Wena asked me, what if there was a man who knows that Im a gay and like me then seduce me and undress in front of me as well? What will I do? My only answer. I will walk out of course! I will stand by my position as a man because I am not yet ready to reveal who I am. I didn't hesitate to answer like that because I honestly haven't been able to figure out the man who will do that. But now that I think Steven will undress in front of me just so I can give up? I was swallowed. I felt my face turn red and I felt warm. I close my eyes and feel my chest. I remember Steven applying his hand there earlier. There was some heat in me. I was slowly shivering in my seat when I was suddenly awakened by the heat of the milk that spilled on me when I drank it. I suddenly woke up to the present. I slapped myself. How far was it when I t
VANCE'S POV RESULT: 1. It could possibly be the beginning of a fraternity war between the fraternity involving Steven and Braxton. "What?" Im shocked and stood up.It just sinks into me why Delsie is presenting this as a representative of Braxton's fraternity. Because Braxton's fraternity was involved now in the incident yesterday. "How did that happen and why?" I asked Delsie. "Well, the first went out and talked about is the scenario one with a picture of Steven with bruises and bloody lips. Then there was the picture of you still happily drinking wine in a bar. Scene two only came out when Braxton's fraternity talk about." I don't feel good about what's going on as if it happened on purpose. I wasn't from the bar last night, I was just at home. I also have bruises and wounds but not as bad as Steven. I don’t know if he just punched weakly or he held back strength when he punched me. I hadn’t even moved on to the l
VANCE'S POVAS I approached the door I couldn’t help but smile. I'm serious when I get in. The wind blew me away when I noticed Steven was no longer following me. I sat down when I saw that Calvin and Braxton were already here. Calvin happily talks to Kedrick and Dashei in a corner. He has two co-officers on the student council. They are included in the meeting to mediate. Kedrick is a representative while Dashie is secretary to take note for student councils records. While Braxton was talking to Karson. Karson was also one of the officers of Braxton's fraternity. Braxton's jaw clenched when his ex-girlfriend Clodeth arrived with her boyfriend Arlo. Arlo is one of Steven's fraternity officers while Clodeth is a sorority officer. I was guilty. I know Braxton avoids seeing and meeting the two because he hasn’t been able to move on yet but now he has to face them because of Steven and I’s issue. That's sad.
VANCE'S POV I drank it. I calmed myself down and kept it from blowing while listening to what Steven was saying. "Vance and I were schoolmates in high school-" "Enough," Braxton groaned. "we don't care." But Steven continued, "I'm sure Vance doesn't remember me anymore but I can't forget him. Vance is known to-"Steven's words were cut short when Braxton approached him and grabbed him by the collar, "I said shut your fucking mouth!" Suddenly there was a commotion. "Braxton!" Arlo shouted then stepped to meet Steven but Davion stopped him. "What are you doing Braxton?!" Ryker shouted as he stepped towards the two but Karson blocked him. Kedrick mediates with Arlo and Davion. While Wena mediates with Ryker and Karson. Calvin and I rushed to Braxton and Steven to appease them. "Why don't you listen? I have reasons. Why don't you listen to me first before we fight?" said Steven proudly but obviously his h
VANCE'S POVI was not doing anything wrong.Being gay is not a crime.I didn’t beg to Kuya Dernico to stop. I didn’t fight either. I accepted his blows, if that was the only thing that would make them feel better and be the way for me to be accepted.I was bleeding and my clothes were torn when Kuya Dernico stopped because of the people who came. I was surprised to see Brywin carrying by two bodyguards. He was crying and had bruises on his face.Fear enveloped my whole body. I was not prepared for what our love would cause.Kuya Dernico dropped me to approach Brywin. I clung to his leg and stopped him from what he was planning but he just stepped on me.I forced myself to stand up and block Kuya Dernico when he pulled out the gun of one of Daddy's bodyguards and aimed it at Brywin."Kuya, don't!" I knelt down to him. "Please... dont hurt him! Hurt me instead! Don't hurt the man I love-"I almost l
VANCE'S POVMY Mommy gave me a large amount of money for my expenses for a year. She said they could only give me one year to allow me to live what I want. After a year and I have not returned to them as a real man, they will cut my allowance.So I saved and kept that money.I thought I would have to work to earn money that I would add to my savings and also to provide for my daily needs. Besides on that, I want to entertain myself. I want to exhaust my body so I don’t have time to think about what had happened before. I want to forget the past and heal the wounds in my heart.A month later I heard that Brywin and his Aunt were dead. It was reportedly killed by riding in tandem.That happened after the truth came out that Brywin and his Aunt were paid-people by Daddy's political opponent and the incident about us was just fabricated by them.No one knows who plotted their deaths. There were suspicions about who but that didn't matter a
VANCE'S POVWHILE in the last line of what Wena was saying I stepped closer to Clodeth but Quenie preceded me to approach there.Quenie confronted Clodeth and gave her a loud slap.We were all surprised.Oh no, these women are really robbing me of the scene. Come on girls! It's my time to shine!“I’m a lesbian,” Queenie said. "Ten percent of our members in the sorority are lesbians. As our leader, is that what you would say? Is that what we hear from you? How can you lead us well if you hate those like us?""Queenie-""I know Arlo," Queenie turned to Arlo then to Ryker. "I will accept the punishment that will be meted out to me for doing this but as a person I think I have to do it. As a member and one of the custodians of the fraternity and sorority I need to remind Clodeth of ways to stop her barbaric mouth and awaken her conscience."Then Quenie and Arlo stared."Apology accepted," Ryker said after t