When Time Stands Still

Elena's POV

"Elena... It's time." Kathryn said to me. I look at her dressed in all black like she was getting ready for a funeral, I don't think I can handle all of this right now. I refuse to believe that Jonathan is not coming back, I mean I would have felt it, I would know if he was really gone. We are mates, I wish for a minute that they could just listen to me and understand where I am coming from. Jonathan is the love of my life, we had only but just begun our lives together, it can't be over. Not now.

"I'm not coming..." I said and went back to the Grimoire that I was reading. It has been very hard living without Jonathan, I don't even think that I could ever move from my bed, not until what I want and what I want is my husband. 

"Elena we spoke about this, this has to be done. " Kathryn said looking at the coffin where my husband's lifeless body was lying. I have been keeping him in there because I believe that I can bring him back. I have been studying the spell I did on him and Edward. I linked them together, as long as Edward stays alive, so will Jonathan. I don't understand why he hasn't woken up yet. I keep on going over everything in my head and nothing about this makes sense. I don't know how or what I did wrong, all I know is that I can't accept what they are trying to do here.

"No you agreed about this upon yourselves, Jonathan is my husband and he is also Alpha of this pack, I will not hold a memorial service for my husband, not when I know for sure that he is going to come back, he has to..." I said.

"Elena this is not healthy, it's not helping you either, you don't eat, you don't come out, you don't even sleep, all you do is read through old Grimoire's and cry yourself to sleep. You are right, Jonathan is the Alpha of this pack and you are his Mate, his Beta, which means that in his absence, you have to be there, you have to finish off where he left off. The pack needs you." Kathryn said. 

She was right, I was born into this pack, born to one day lead the pack but how am I supposed to do that when I feel like such a failure? I only had to do one thing, that was to protect my husband. My mother told me that I was going to lose him, she said that I can't stop his death, that it was written in the books, that it was destiny, I didn't believe it then and I sure as hell am not going to believe it now. I know that the pack needs me right now but I can't do this, I can't lead them.

Right now nothing makes sense for me, my heart is shattered into a thousand pieces, no one ever told me that it would hurt this much to love someone, we have only but mated, I can't imagine why it would feel like if we had imprinted on each other. The night is cold and dark but that's pretty much how my days are these days. Without Jonathan, there's no colour anymore, everything is just so bland.

For the first since I discovered my powers, I hated having them, I hated being this powerful witch that everyone thinks that I am because these powers have brought me nothing but trouble, the kind that took my love away from me, it is because of that love that I am trying so hard to get my husband back, knowing that Jonathan loves me is what gives me strength, I know that if the roles were reversed, he would do the same for me. He would do everything in his power to bring me back.

"Kathryn I appreciate what you are trying to do but I can't do it, I can't move on..." I said and walked to the open casket. He was not breathing, he was so still, he might not seem like he is alive but I feel so much power around him. I can feel his life force and as long as I can feel it, I am not going to stop fighting for him to come back.

"Elena you might not have a choice but to move on, what do you think Jonathan would do if he saw you right now?" Kathryn said.

"Jonathan would want me to fight for him, he would want me to bring him back and I am not going to rest until I do that. " I said and gently ran my hands through his face. 

"What about the pack Elena? What about everyone else who is depending on you to lead them? Then there's the Edward issue..." She said.

"What Edward issue?" I asked Kathryn, as far as I am concerned, Edward is no issue, infact he might as well be dead. 

"Elena you won't tell anyone where you hid him, the pack is afraid, word had spread about his power, he killed Jonathan! There strongest werewolve to ever walk this earth, Elena the people need answers, they need reassurance that everything is going to be okay." Kathryn said.

"You can go and tell them not to worry about Edward, he is not going anywhere, I don't care how strong the witches in whatever is left of his Coven are because they are never going to find him." I said.

After I hit Jonathan with a slumber spell, I made sure to hide him where no one could find him, at first I took him to the wolf waters, then I remembered that the secret place was not a secret anymore, I had to make sure that no one could ever find him. I am definitely sure that he is dying to be free and as long as I am alive, he is never going to come back. I can't believe that I almost fell for that man, he is and will always be a monster. I saw how he killed my husband, drinking every drop of his blood. 

When the witch activated his powers, he became what he was truly meant to be, a monster. I can't have someone like that around, he is a predator and right now he is at the top of the food chain. As for Cole, I know that he is not dead but I also know that it won't be long now. He managed to escape but not before I put a witch's hex on him. 

Another spell that I found in my mother's Grimoire. He has been walking around like a God, like he was untouchable because he was the first vampire, I think that he had forgotten how weak the human body could be. I didn't take away his vampire powers, I just made sure that he would never heal, every wound that he gets will be a constant reminder that pain is real and that he can't escape from what I did to him.

" So what am I supposed to tell the pack? Everyone is ready to say their goodbyes Elena, we all want to say goodbye, I know that you believe that you can bring him back from the dead but every Grimoire we have read has told us that it was impossible and dangerous, every single one of them." She said.

Since I gave Kathryn back her powers, she has been more than helpful in helping me with magic, she has also been helping me with the research. She was right, the Grimoire's we had didn't have that kind of knowledge and the ones that did made sure to leave out the part on how to do it, all the spells we got for a spell like that we incomplete, in all of them there was one element missing.

"Tell them that what you told them last week, tell them that there will be no memorial service. We are going to have a blood moon soon, the celestial God's will show me the way." I said.

"What do you mean by that? We are not meant to have that for atleast a couple of hundreds of years from now."  Kathryn said. She was right about that and at first I thought that I was wrong, that desparation was getting the better of me but I had a vision. In my vision I saw Jonathan, he was in the wolf waters as the red moon shined upon him. 

"I don't know how and I don't even know how to explain it but the truth of the matter is this, Jonathan was born on a blood moon, on that night alk witches and werewolves will have power like never before, I am going to harness that power and hold on to it, I am going to use it to bring him back, 

I know that it doesn't make sense right now but Kathryn... He can't be dead, he just can't be." I said.

"What do you mean by that?" She asked me.

"Look, I just need you to trust and believe that I know what I am doing, Jonathan will wake up, that is a promise, I just need to find out what went wrong." I said.

I didn't have the heart to tell her that I had linked his life force to Edward's and that when he wakes up, he won't be the man we all knew. Edward was dangerous, he has been craving Jonathan blood from the first time he saw him. I really thought that he could keep it together, that he would resist any urge to falter, he promised me that he would stay away from Jonathan.  He could have fought harder to resist Jonathan but his nature was too strong.

"Fine, can you atleast have a shower and a proper meal, I'll go and tell the pack that you are still working on a way to bring back their Alpha, Jonathan would be so proud of you right now. " She said.

"I'll do all that later, I'm still busy here." I said.

"Elena there's something else that we need to discuss." Kathryn said.

"What is it?" I asked her. I didn't think that we had anything else to discuss so I  have all sorts of conclusions running through my mind.

"We have to discuss the possibility of Cole coming back for the Grimoire, when we were busy fighting, he was searching our minds trying to get it, I had a vision Elena..." Kathryn said in a worried voice.

"What is it?" I asked you.

" I saw you with a lot of blood in your hands, Elena you had fangs." Kathryn said.

"Fangs? I'm not a vampire and I don't think that I can be turned into one, I was born a witch-wolve, I cannot be turned, you know that." I said to her reminding her that I am more than just a werewolf.

"Well I don't know, it all felt so real... I also saw something else." She said.

"What?" I asked her.

"I also saw Jonathan and he too had fangs just like you." She said.

"Well that's also impossible." I said. 

"Elena you know better than to take visions lightly, you are a witch.... I have a bad feeling Elena, a feeling that something is coming, something more dangerous than Cole." She said.

"What do you mean?" I asked her. Cole was the most dangerous being I have ever come across, I never even thought that anyone else might be like that. How many Cole's does this earth have? Such evil should not be part of this world.

"Right now Cole is out there somewhere planning his revenge against us, we have taken everything away from him and now he has nothing to lose, Elena we have everything to lose, I know that you don't want to hear any of this but I am not sure if Jonathan is ever going to come back but if he does, he has to come back to his home, his village and his people... 

What I saw in my vision was as clear as daylight, whatever it that is coming is not from our world, there's death everywhere it goes." Kathryn said.

She was busy telling me what she saw and yet she blocked her mind from me, this could only mean one thing, I don't think that I like it, this means that she might be hiding something from me. I thought that we trusted each other fully, that we shared everything, I am beginning to think that I might have been wrong, this would afterall be the first time that someone I care for betrayed me and I am sick of it.

I took a witch in because I trusted her, I thought that she was here to help me but what did she do? She stabbed me with a Phoenix blade and stole from me, even then I once again opened up my heart and home to someone else who betrayed me, he broke my heart, he shattered me into a thousand pieces, he killed my mate. I was helped Edward get rid of the dark magic inside him, I helped him because I thought that I could save him from himself.

It was at that moment that I had an epiphany, they all betrayed me because they thought that I was too nice, that I was too trusting and I am woman enough to admit that I might have been, the truth is that even as a strong witch, I have been weak, my father left this village for me to lead, I have always been brought up to be a leader. Kathryn was right, Jonathan wouldn't want to come back to this weak version of me. I have to do better. It's like I have been sleep walking ever since my husband was taken from me, it's time for me to wake up. 

"Kathryn would I be wrong to think that you might be hiding something from me? And before you answer me, I want you to think very carefully... " I said.

"I don't know what you are talking about." She said.

"Tesellisa Esfelliza..." I said and she froze. She didn't teach me this spell, I might have spent a whole month looking for a way to get my husband back but fact is that I have also learned a lot of things. The Grimoires have given me a lot of information. I have learned a lot of ancient spell. This spell has immobilized her, she can't even speak.

"Elena what are you doing?" She said to me telepathically. 

"Oh so now you want to open your mind to me? I don't like secrets, secrets killed my husband, I knew that Edward was on the edge and I didn't tell anyone, he also knew that he was on the edge and kept it a secret, I get that and I understand it but I thought that you and I had a different relationship, I thought that we were beyond keeping secrets but I guess I was wrong.

I want to make one thing very clear today, I want you and everyone else to know that the old Elena is gone, no more asking for things, whatever I want, I will take and right now I want to know what you are hiding from me." I said and walked closer to where she stood motionless. I took my hand and put them on her head. 

"Show me what you are hiding." I said and tilted my head back. I felt power flowing through me. I closed my mind and searched her mind. She fought hard to keep me out but I fought harder to get in, I saw myself in her vision but I was nothing like the person I am today, I had an evil look in my eyes as I destroyed everything in my path, I saw myself destroying everything I have fought so hard to protect, I saw countless bodies that lay in my path, I saw my village on fire but that was not the end of it, I saw Jonathan who was so happy to see me.

He smiled when he saw my face, he opened his arms and ran towards me, when he reached me, I put my hand in his chest and took out his heart, the heart was still pumping in my hands, blood flowed and spilled on the floor. There was no emotions on my face, there was no love at all, it was as if I was possessed, with the beating heart in hand I saw myself walking to a man. I took the heart and offered it to him, it was then that I saw his face, that man was Cole. I quickly took off my hands from her head and breaking the spell.

"What was that?" I said in shock. What I saw was enough for me to realise the reason why Kathryn kept this from me. 

"A vision I had, the one with blood in your hands, you are going be the end of us." She said. I have been with Kathryn for almost a year and every vision she had was right.

"No, I won't allow that to happen... I won't destroy my village, it's not possible for me to kill my mate ." I said.

"The vision was as clear as daylight Elena, you might be able to bring back Jonathan but when you do, you are going to kill him. Can you live with yourself then? " She asked me.

"No... I won't let it happen, visions are open to interpretation, it could mean something else, we can still change the course of this whole thing." I said.

"The only way you can do that is for Jonathan to lay in that box and never wake up." She said. I don't even know why she would even suggest something like that.

"No! Jonathan is coming." I said and walked away from her.