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"Look whose here" Alexandria calls over my shoulder. The music is extremely loud, and with the bright lights I can barely hear or see anything. But I turned around and yes there he is. Keegan, it's funny how he just always happen to be around. Its strange really,but then again this is his club so I shouldn't be that suprised. He looked sexy as hell as always, not much have changed in that category.Women just lined up, I mean he is sort of the whole package deal right. Intellegent, attractive, wealthy,bad boy exterior. Two women on either side of him just drinking his usual whiskey. But he is staring right at me, eyes dark and as he tilts up the glass taking a sip without taking his eyes off of me. I sort of wonder what is going through his mind right now. It's always been like this, his eyes follow me everywhere wherever I go.I always feel like the prey, and him the tiger. Why not a lion? well the male lion never do the hunting the female does. And once again the reason I do not fathom the reason why men shoulf do the hunting these days."He still can't take his eyes off of you." Alexa smirks, hell she looks smoking hot as always. All eight my girls are here tonight the one looking hotter than the other. Our group started when I was only 5years old. It consisted of me and Mikayla, my twin sister. We couldn't be more different though, she had a severe speaking disorder named selective mutism. Which basically means she only spoke to me and through me. Which gave me no choice but to adapt, me myself have an extremely huge IQ which makes communication difficult for me. But since we had no other choice I had to adjust.We met Alexa first she is gorgeous, she's a lot taller and build like a supermodel. I truelly admire her beauty, with beautiful green eyes. She is probably the only red head without freckels and just owns her inner feisty and fierce persona. We always have arguments since she just loved to speak her mind. She studied business and since she's the only heir to her fathers company, she will take over as CEO without a doubt."What is up with that? He is always around a group of women, just waiting to say the word. Yet, he keeps making me feel uncomfortable?" He was still staring at me, and boy it was giving me the chills."Maybe he just loves to look at you, or you know what? You should stare him down see who breaks first""I've tried that remember, it ended up with me being all turned on.""So you do admit that he turns you on"And just like that the conversation was over, no way I was admitting to that part. I took a last sip of my whiskey and tailed out of there to the dance floor still seeing her laugh.I hated how she does that, all of them had a way of just getting the truth right out of me. I started moving my body slowly to the rythm of the music, and just giving up control. I have always loved dancing it's such a big part of who I am.As I swayed from side to side I felt big hands wrap around me, I knew exactly who it was without even checking. I smelled that familiar cologne and felt the spark of electricity ran through me. I didn't have to check,I just knew so I kept moving. I started grinding up against him, hell why do I feel so damn safe right now, in his arms with him so darn close. He pulled me closer, flush up against him. I could feel his shaft harden against my back, and I knew he was turned on. I rolled my head back against his chest and felt his breath against my neck as he started flowering me with small kisses. His hands following a trail of heat all over me where ever he touched. And when his thumb softly brushed over my breast leaving fire in it's wake trailing heat straight down to my core i couldn't stiffle the moan that escaped my lips.What the fuck am I doing, hell what are we doing. I can't be the only one to blame for this. He turned me around slowly, his feather like touch as if I could break at any moment. Keegan, I knew it his eyes dark with desire. He leaned in and kissed me soft and slow. Taking his time with his one hand gently on my lower back and the other softly tilting my head up to give him better access.I gasped on impact as our lips touched, as he deepend the kiss. Our tongues entwined and my legs started to feel weak. He only broke away for us to catch a breath, his eyes still half wooded and filled with lust. I have never felt so turned on by just one kiss, my core was pulsing I wanted more,needed more."Keegan? Baby can we go home now?"And just like that the spell was broken, I felt like a ice cold water just showered me. And I immediately stepped out of his embrace, his touch. As if I just got burned, men will never change. I felt my cheeks burn up as a blush crept on my face realizing I just kissed my stepbrother. And was caught kissing somebody elses lover, my eyes connected with a gorgeous woman. Feeling embarassed I turned around and tried to make it through the crowd to get to my car, and to my home so that no one can see me cry. I heard him screaming my name, but just tried to battle my way through. Without stopping, and without looking back.Keegan P.O.VI can't take my fucking eyes off of her. I have tried over the years to get her out of my damn mind. Tried fucking everything that moved, tried choosing blonde women. But it's no use, my cousins wanted to get out tonight and since I knew Catalya would be here there was no stopping me. I almost flew out of that damn place as if my ass were on fire, I knew every single move she made. I had security trailing her where ever she went. I couldn't control it any longer, I have been waiting for years. I had to see her go through the worst things imaginable and couldn't take the pain away. Touch her or hold her, she stayed away from me as if I were a corrupt criminal. Everytime we had family dinners she wouldn't even look my way.I compeletly lost it when she started dating one asshole after another, men who weren't worthy of her. Parading her around as if she was just pretty arm candy, no one saw her like I did. No one knew her like I didHer open hand, always giving. Volunteering at orphanges, Navy SEAL and Marine centre, Centres for abused woman and children, animal shelters even old age homes. She has the biggest heart, and loved to give. She would order more food and give it to the homeless, and hate to be seen. They never saw it, maybe that is why I have been losing my shit. She continously went for the wrong men, hiding behind that beautiful smile and carefree laughter. While I were stuck hearing the lies of falling down the stairs or seeing the bruises that covered her. Making excuses, for her behavior continously apologizing for no reason.But tonight I had enough, my cousin came all the way from Italy for a visit. I haven't seen them in years, so I decided to bring her to one of my clubs. I knew it was Catalyas favourite one, there were loads of security. And she felt save here, I could see her from a mile away. And always she had every single mans attention, that outfit though left next to nothing for the imagination. And those fuck me heels were branded into my mind, she wore a low halter black dress that came belowe the navel. Her belly ring glistening everytime the light turned, the dress were midthigh and I knew her back would be fully exposed. Her hair up into a sleek back high ponytail, and fuck she were laughing. And as always she just lit up the whole damn room. The whole night I just sat there staring, not hearing a single word they all said. Just looking at her, our eyes connected like they have been all night and everytime I felt like being burned alive.After she and her girlfriend Alexa exchanged some words she swallowed her whiskey, and licked off her lips. Fuck it made me hot every damn thing she did played over and over in my mind. I followed her to the dance floor, she swayed her body from side to side and I couldn't help myself as I started following her lead.She started grinding up against me, it took every single grain of self control not to drag her sexy little ass out of here, into my car, and to my place to make endless damn love to her. To show her how it's done by a real fucking man, how a woman like her should be treated. Make her feel good, putting her needs infront of his own. Worshipping her body for hours, my hands wonderd her body slowly. She reminded me of those collectable dolls my grandma had, made out of porcelein. Easy to break and compeletly fragile, i started kissing her neck and as my finger brushed against her breast I heard her moan. Fuck! That was the most incredible sound I have ever heard, it was soft just like her. I swear there is nothing I would not do for this woman. I turned her around and staired into those big gorgeous eyes. They were clouded by desire and lust, I were sure they marred my own. I leaned closer and softly kissed her, I were sure she was going to slap me. But instead she mealted into my arms, fireworks exploded, my body heating to a thousand degrees. Sparks of electricity ignited all over me, I couldn't control the shiver running up and down my spine of pure pleasure and bliss. The woman that I craved,desired,adored finally tasting her lips against my own. Her scent of vanilla and strawberries surrounding me, her taste like whiskey and chocolate. My new favourite taste, I broke the kiss just to catch my breath."Keegan baby can we go home now?"My cousin asked, something in my little Kittens eyes changed. Her cheeks flushed even through the lights I could see it, her lips still swollen from my kisses. And then she ran, through the crowd. I started chasing after her, but to no avail. I called her but she didn't even look back. I felt empty the moment she stepped out of my embrace,the moment she left. I need her back.After I took my cousins back home the events of the night kept replying in my mind. Everything from start to finish, questions arouse that I needed answers to. I kept calling and texting but her phone was switched off, and I were sent straight to voicemail. I couldn't sleep, I lost track of how many damn times I jerked off to her that night. Imaging her, touching her, hearing her moans feeling her withering underneath me. I imagined her eyes half hooded and mouth agaped as I bring her to climax over and over again.After spending the whole fucking night in a cold shower, it hit me. Stacy called me baby. Did my little Kitten think I was seeing someone? That I would kiss her while dating someone else, it would make sense how everything changed. Plus Stacy asked if I wanted to go home, home. She must've thought I were seeing Stacy and then. Fuck! I need to see her. She needs to hear me out, and this time after tasting her there's no turning back. I am coming for her, I want her no more running. No more hiding. I won't stop until she's all mine and she knows it.Deep breath in, deep breath out. I tried like hell to calm myself, I have been shaking non stop since I left the club. I couldn't breathe, just breathe. I cried all the way home. I can't believe what I just did, why do I keep doing this to myself. Why do I keep getting myself in situations like these. I struggled to sleep throughout the night, I suffered from insomnia I barely slept and when I did I had severe night terrors. Waking up screaming, crying. So I would stay up and write some songs, or busy myself with art.I walked around my apartment, I love my place. It might be small, but it's always filled with laughter. I learned quite early in life that it's not the size of the house it's the friends,family, smiles and laughter that makes it a home. And my 2bedroom apartment have a lot of memories branded within these walls. I took a moment to just breathe it all in, all the times we shared and all the trouble me and my friends love to get into. I guess we each have something in commo
I barely made it home after dinner that night, when my phone started it's familiar ringtone. " Just checking in" And everybody started calling out their names, one after the other. I love my group of crazy friends they always knew how to make me feel good. Each one would say their names and started talking about their day,it was our thing. Until they all turned their attention to me."So how was your day Cat? Oh, and how was dinner with your fam?" Everbody went silent waiting for my reply, should I tell? " My reply tipped everybody off, it's what happens if you know each other for as long as we did. "It went great, jip my day was great, dinner was great. Everything went just great" Thats the moment they knew something was up. "Was Keegan there?" Of course Alexa would ask that." Jip" My voice started to shake as memories of the night started to flood back. "And? how is he?" And just like that I couldn't keep it to myself any longer and I just started telling them everything. The line we
A year ago"Come here your whore" Jason yelled at me. He loved to call me that when we went out and some of his friends were looking at me. I got severly punished if another man looked at me, which caused me to completely change my style. I never wore revealing clothing anymore,and never did my makeup. Yet, I always got punished, I was never allowed to talk to another guy. And whenever we were around his friends, I had to look down talking to him. It weren't always like this, in the start of or relationship he was respectful, loving and caring. He always opened up the car door for me, and I fell inlove he always reminded me of how lucky I am to have a guy like him. And at first I believed him, he worked hard and I was so invested in us. I wanted to make him happpy in all the ways he made me happy. I made him my entire life, at first he didn't want me to go out with my girlfriends. Scared I might get hurt, and it made me feel like he truly cared about my well being. So my girlfriends w
For the next week me and Keegan texted nonstop, All trying to figure out exactly where we both might be heading to,trying our best to compromise and meet each other half way, he wanted a relationship. An all exclusive relationship, with the extremely big possibility of marriage and a family. I tried to negotiate for something a little more lighthearted. Since I am a poor negotiator trying to negotiate with a business man I decided it just weren't the effort. So instead I came up with the idea of rules, we called it the rules of engagement. And these were my terms and conditions. 1. I struggle with trust, every single man me or my mom dated cheated. So I have to know that, that's off the table. I have full access to you whenever I want or need you. 2. No working late, if you're not at the office where you are suppose to be. 3. Girlsnight is a very big deal for me, you are allowed to tag along. But I do not want to see you or hear you unless, you're there to protect me. It's an exclusiv
For the next couple of weeks things were going great between me and Keegan, we hung out every single weekend and after work he would either come over to my place or I would go over to his. I would cook us dinner and we would ask how each others days went. He gave me a run through about his days in the Navy and how it were some of the best days of his life. I would tell him all about my time in college and how much fun me and the gils had. I told him more about my sister who passed away in the car accident when we were 14years old and just exactly how badly I took it. How depressed I felt most days, and how I am still on PTSD medicine to help carry me through each and everyday. I didn't tell him all of it, I knew he would run as soon as he knew the whole truth about my past.7 years agoPlease stop, please I begged my stepfather for the millionth time,I knew it would all be useledd he never listened anyway. As he had me in a strong grip, he ripped of my shirt and I knew to never scream
We have been exclusively dating now for about a month, and I wanted to do something special for Keegan. So I laid rose petals all the way from the door to the bedroom, I made small little snacks for dinner and lit candles everywhere. I even dressed up for the occasion, I wore a sexy red number with a garterbelt. I skipped makeup and wore my hair lose. But when he got home, he didn't notice all of this at first. Since Richard came home with him, and I heard their argument. It was about him refusing to date anyone else, how he was inlove and would not be forced into anything he did not want to do. This was about the time I stood there akwardly trying my best to cover up. But even if I tried to sneak out they would see me, it was a useless plan. So where were I suppose to go, they both turned my way and froze in an instant. I could feel my cheeks heat up to a thousand degrees as Keegan smile started to widen. Hell I loved it when he smiled, he had this trimmed beard thing going on that j
As time went on, I could feel myself falling deeper for Keegan, his smile and laughter was the most beautiful music. His touch made me feel save and every time I would get nightmares, he would chase the monsters away. The times we spent together were some of the best times of my life. He loved volunteering with me, and never did he try to change who I was. He just accepted me for who I was no questions asked.“Girls Night”’ all of us called out as we shared our very first drink. It’s Thursday and we all needed this, Keegan flew for a business trip last night . And he made it clear that he didn’t want to go, that much was obvious not that he had much of a choice. So we spend most of the day together trying to pack, but each and every time we would end up making love instead. So, tonight is the first time without him really, and I had to get out of the house. It was suffocating me since Keegan wasn’t there. He wanted me to go with him but I wanted this to be a trust test. A time we coul
For a second, I felt relief this was my dad, I haven’t seen him since I was 4years old. I wanted to cry, but then I took in my appearance. I was completely paralyzed and not in fear, but from something else. Why was my legs and arms so heavy? I couldn’t move, “Daddy, I can’t move. Why can’t I move” I called out to him but he just stared at me, this isn’t the man I remembered this isn’t the man that played hide and seek wit me and Mikayla. He turned his back on me and took a seat on the edge of the bed. He stared in front of him as if he was extremely deep in thought. “You never came back” I looked at him, but I could barely see him in the position I was lying in. “I wasn’t allowed to” He turned his head slowly, “She told you didn’t she, and where’s Kayla?” I had no idea what he was talking about, who told me what? But giving him the news about Micky would be insanely difficult “I don’t know who told me what daddy? And Micky passed away in a car crash when we were 14 years old togethe