For the next week me and Keegan texted nonstop, All trying to figure out exactly where we both might be heading to,trying our best to compromise and meet each other half way, he wanted a relationship. An all exclusive relationship, with the extremely big possibility of marriage and a family. I tried to negotiate for something a little more lighthearted. Since I am a poor negotiator trying to negotiate with a business man I decided it just weren't the effort. So instead I came up with the idea of rules, we called it the rules of engagement. And these were my terms and conditions. 1. I struggle with trust, every single man me or my mom dated cheated. So I have to know that, that's off the table. I have full access to you whenever I want or need you. 2. No working late, if you're not at the office where you are suppose to be. 3. Girlsnight is a very big deal for me, you are allowed to tag along. But I do not want to see you or hear you unless, you're there to protect me. It's an exclusiv
For the next couple of weeks things were going great between me and Keegan, we hung out every single weekend and after work he would either come over to my place or I would go over to his. I would cook us dinner and we would ask how each others days went. He gave me a run through about his days in the Navy and how it were some of the best days of his life. I would tell him all about my time in college and how much fun me and the gils had. I told him more about my sister who passed away in the car accident when we were 14years old and just exactly how badly I took it. How depressed I felt most days, and how I am still on PTSD medicine to help carry me through each and everyday. I didn't tell him all of it, I knew he would run as soon as he knew the whole truth about my past.7 years agoPlease stop, please I begged my stepfather for the millionth time,I knew it would all be useledd he never listened anyway. As he had me in a strong grip, he ripped of my shirt and I knew to never scream
We have been exclusively dating now for about a month, and I wanted to do something special for Keegan. So I laid rose petals all the way from the door to the bedroom, I made small little snacks for dinner and lit candles everywhere. I even dressed up for the occasion, I wore a sexy red number with a garterbelt. I skipped makeup and wore my hair lose. But when he got home, he didn't notice all of this at first. Since Richard came home with him, and I heard their argument. It was about him refusing to date anyone else, how he was inlove and would not be forced into anything he did not want to do. This was about the time I stood there akwardly trying my best to cover up. But even if I tried to sneak out they would see me, it was a useless plan. So where were I suppose to go, they both turned my way and froze in an instant. I could feel my cheeks heat up to a thousand degrees as Keegan smile started to widen. Hell I loved it when he smiled, he had this trimmed beard thing going on that j
As time went on, I could feel myself falling deeper for Keegan, his smile and laughter was the most beautiful music. His touch made me feel save and every time I would get nightmares, he would chase the monsters away. The times we spent together were some of the best times of my life. He loved volunteering with me, and never did he try to change who I was. He just accepted me for who I was no questions asked.“Girls Night”’ all of us called out as we shared our very first drink. It’s Thursday and we all needed this, Keegan flew for a business trip last night . And he made it clear that he didn’t want to go, that much was obvious not that he had much of a choice. So we spend most of the day together trying to pack, but each and every time we would end up making love instead. So, tonight is the first time without him really, and I had to get out of the house. It was suffocating me since Keegan wasn’t there. He wanted me to go with him but I wanted this to be a trust test. A time we coul
For a second, I felt relief this was my dad, I haven’t seen him since I was 4years old. I wanted to cry, but then I took in my appearance. I was completely paralyzed and not in fear, but from something else. Why was my legs and arms so heavy? I couldn’t move, “Daddy, I can’t move. Why can’t I move” I called out to him but he just stared at me, this isn’t the man I remembered this isn’t the man that played hide and seek wit me and Mikayla. He turned his back on me and took a seat on the edge of the bed. He stared in front of him as if he was extremely deep in thought. “You never came back” I looked at him, but I could barely see him in the position I was lying in. “I wasn’t allowed to” He turned his head slowly, “She told you didn’t she, and where’s Kayla?” I had no idea what he was talking about, who told me what? But giving him the news about Micky would be insanely difficult “I don’t know who told me what daddy? And Micky passed away in a car crash when we were 14 years old togethe
Sometimes in life we come to a crossroad, a choice. This was mine. I laid there one evening and my mind started to wander back, I never truly gave myself time to mourn the family and friends I lost. I have been running for such a long time, never standing in the moment to just embrace. To just feel, to remember and mourn the loss of my innocence or to give myself the time to process all that happened so I did. I cried, I let it all out. Every time I felt unsafe, violated, fear, anger, sadness. I just let the emotions run through me, the memories. I took time, to forgive every single person who have ever hurt me, my uncle always said that forgiveness isn’t for the person who hurt you. It's for yourself, because unforgiveness is like a cancer it feeds on you and drains you. The other person will continue on with their lives, it’s yours that doesn’t continue who comes to a complete stop. So I let my world stand still for a moment and found forgiveness that wasn’t the hard part. The hard
Keegan’s P.O.VEverything around me froze when I heard that gunshot, I swear as if everything went in slow motion. The guys started running as past me, screaming her name as they started pulling their guns. Except for me, fear gripped me. And where adrenaline would normally spike nothing did. Time stood still, until Kade grabbed me “she needs you, she needs us. Concentrate on her” And then it all knocked me in the gut and I started up. Like no one’s business, I ran and saw the body first. It wasn’t hers though it was a man, then I saw her. She didn’t have any blood on her she was safe, but then I turned. And saw the person who pulled the trigger. “You have to go, get out of here.” She turned and looked at me with tears in her eyes. “No, I know exactly what I did.” But Catalya spoke up,” give it to me, I was kidnapped. It was self-defense I would love to see them prove otherwise.” But she didn’t want to leave so Catalya stepped forward and whispered something to her, that made her hand
After a couple of weeks, our parents invited us over for dinner at the same place we always went for dinner. I dressed up, for the occasion. Keegan as always couldn’t take his eyes off of me. “You look so beautiful Kitten” I couldn’t help it. I loved him I loved the way he looked at me as if I was the only woman in the room, as if I was the only thing his entire life revolved around and he still hasn’t left. My mom told me she had to come clean and tell him everything. And he still came for me, he still looked at me as if I was the best thing in the entire world. At first, he didn’t want to make love to me so I left him no choice when I dressed up into a sexy little outfit waiting for him in bed after I left a note against the door warning him that if someone was with him, they had to turn around and go home. I loved the way how he already started undressing the moment he came into the room. He made love to me endlessly that night, I had no idea what was going on with me but I just co