Emily P.O.VI really adored Bryan, and after he even helped out with the twins here and there. I just knew he was the most incredible man yet. We spent the entire day together even after Cat and Keegan left with the twins, we stayed in bed most of the day and watched Netflix and ate take out. We talked and got to know each other a lot better. He made me feel comfortable especially after he got my best friends approval. Cat really liked him and I was grateful, I really wanted all of my friends to get along. When the evening rolled around he told me he had to head home since he had fur babies at home, and that even made the whole feeling inside of me worse. Because I was always taught a person who loves animals are a keeper, so I didn’t even have a second thought when he kissed me goodbye, once again my mind wandered towards Caleb and I really wanted to know what his kisses would feel like. This all on its own made me feel like an absolute terrible person, here I was with the most incr
Emily P.O.VThings were going great with me and Bryan, he couldn’t see each other every single day like I would’ve liked but overall every time we did see each other we were making out like teenagers. It’s just every time my mind would start to wander towards Caleb, I hated the idea it felt like I was being unfaithful. Me and Alexa met up for lunch and even though she isn’t the best friend I would love to share this with I knew she would never judge me. We sat looking at one another and I have to admit motherhood fitted her well. “So why do I get the honor of being the only one invited to lunch?” I sighed fuck how do I even start this “Okay so, I cannot discuss this with Cat, I mean she is our best friend but she is also black or white no in between and she is always the right way and all, and somehow I feel like I am betraying her in the process.” Alexa placed her order just like me and she started smiling “you know she’s the last person on earth that’s judgmental to right?” Aren’t
3years ago"You look beautiful sweetheart, this time it will be different I promise". I heard that so many times I have lost count luckily for me, I don't live with my mom anymore. I live on campus second year of college, I graduated highschool 2years earlier. So I don't have to go through all of this all over again. There is so many times I missed my twin sister she would have so much to say right now. So here we go again, I take one last look in the mirror my natural white blond hair frames my face. I left it the way it is, it's long and curly. One of the many features all 8 my girlfriends love to rave about. I have to admit I adore my hair, it's long and goes down just underneath my waist. I never wore makeup unless I went out, which is why I could hardly recognize myself. My pink and purple colored eyes were framed with my extra long eyelashes. I were the only person in the world with pink and purple colored eyes and to mom it made me special and unique. In the eyes of the world i
Present"Look whose here" Alexandria calls over my shoulder. The music is extremely loud, and with the bright lights I can barely hear or see anything. But I turned around and yes there he is. Keegan, it's funny how he just always happen to be around. Its strange really,but then again this is his club so I shouldn't be that suprised. He looked sexy as hell as always, not much have changed in that category. Women just lined up, I mean he is sort of the whole package deal right. Intellegent, attractive, wealthy,bad boy exterior. Two women on either side of him just drinking his usual whiskey. But he is staring right at me, eyes dark and as he tilts up the glass taking a sip without taking his eyes off of me. I sort of wonder what is going through his mind right now. It's always been like this, his eyes follow me everywhere wherever I go. I always feel like the prey, and him the tiger. Why not a lion? well the male lion never do the hunting the female does. And once again the reason I
Deep breath in, deep breath out. I tried like hell to calm myself, I have been shaking non stop since I left the club. I couldn't breathe, just breathe. I cried all the way home. I can't believe what I just did, why do I keep doing this to myself. Why do I keep getting myself in situations like these. I struggled to sleep throughout the night, I suffered from insomnia I barely slept and when I did I had severe night terrors. Waking up screaming, crying. So I would stay up and write some songs, or busy myself with art.I walked around my apartment, I love my place. It might be small, but it's always filled with laughter. I learned quite early in life that it's not the size of the house it's the friends,family, smiles and laughter that makes it a home. And my 2bedroom apartment have a lot of memories branded within these walls. I took a moment to just breathe it all in, all the times we shared and all the trouble me and my friends love to get into. I guess we each have something in commo
I barely made it home after dinner that night, when my phone started it's familiar ringtone. " Just checking in" And everybody started calling out their names, one after the other. I love my group of crazy friends they always knew how to make me feel good. Each one would say their names and started talking about their day,it was our thing. Until they all turned their attention to me."So how was your day Cat? Oh, and how was dinner with your fam?" Everbody went silent waiting for my reply, should I tell? " My reply tipped everybody off, it's what happens if you know each other for as long as we did. "It went great, jip my day was great, dinner was great. Everything went just great" Thats the moment they knew something was up. "Was Keegan there?" Of course Alexa would ask that." Jip" My voice started to shake as memories of the night started to flood back. "And? how is he?" And just like that I couldn't keep it to myself any longer and I just started telling them everything. The line we
A year ago"Come here your whore" Jason yelled at me. He loved to call me that when we went out and some of his friends were looking at me. I got severly punished if another man looked at me, which caused me to completely change my style. I never wore revealing clothing anymore,and never did my makeup. Yet, I always got punished, I was never allowed to talk to another guy. And whenever we were around his friends, I had to look down talking to him. It weren't always like this, in the start of or relationship he was respectful, loving and caring. He always opened up the car door for me, and I fell inlove he always reminded me of how lucky I am to have a guy like him. And at first I believed him, he worked hard and I was so invested in us. I wanted to make him happpy in all the ways he made me happy. I made him my entire life, at first he didn't want me to go out with my girlfriends. Scared I might get hurt, and it made me feel like he truly cared about my well being. So my girlfriends w
For the next week me and Keegan texted nonstop, All trying to figure out exactly where we both might be heading to,trying our best to compromise and meet each other half way, he wanted a relationship. An all exclusive relationship, with the extremely big possibility of marriage and a family. I tried to negotiate for something a little more lighthearted. Since I am a poor negotiator trying to negotiate with a business man I decided it just weren't the effort. So instead I came up with the idea of rules, we called it the rules of engagement. And these were my terms and conditions. 1. I struggle with trust, every single man me or my mom dated cheated. So I have to know that, that's off the table. I have full access to you whenever I want or need you. 2. No working late, if you're not at the office where you are suppose to be. 3. Girlsnight is a very big deal for me, you are allowed to tag along. But I do not want to see you or hear you unless, you're there to protect me. It's an exclusiv