Chapter 4.1

He glanced over my lips because I bit my lip inadvertently.He stared at me for a few seconds. When he registered in his mind what had happened and our awkward position, he put his hand on the floor to keep his face away from me.

At that time, my work with Madam Anastasia was on my mind. I need to seduce him. And I promised myself that I would do everything. Even if I give myself to him.I need to seduce him. Gillian, You need to seduce him.

I know that if I don't succeed in making Sir Zachary a real man, we will be miserable, and I don't want our lives to get to that point. I don’t want to see my siblings suffer anymore.

A million is a lot of money. Big money is hard to find, especially when I don’t have a permanent job and I’m the only one working for our family.

If I don't make the person in front of me now a man, I know that my dad will know that the money used in my brother Zaji's operation was from this job that I accepted from Madam Anastasia. He wilI know the reason. I don't want Dad to blame himself again. I don’t want to see him blame himself.

I haven't thought about it yet. I pulled his neck tie closer to me, to bring him closer again. I saw the shock on his face again.

"Secretary Gillian! What the hell are you doing?-- shit! " He was a little cheap when I pulled him closer to me, our noses almost touching.

I looked at his lips. When I kiss him now, this will be my first kiss. I shifted my gaze to his eyes when I saw that he was also staring at my lips.

I don't know, but at that moment, something seemed to be wrong. He doesn't appear to be the one who spoke in a gay tone earlier.I felt nervous.

I want to belittle myself. Gillian, he's just as handsome, but he's gay! He's gay, and you can see his actions! What are you thinking!

He looked back into my eyes, so I avoided looking. I slowly removed my hand from his neck tie. Because of what I did, he caught a glimpse of it.

For a few seconds, he was slowly sitting on the floor, while I was still lying on the floor, because the coat I was wearing was not buttoned up, and I could see my stomach and my upper boobs. I was ashamed of what I did.

"Are you insane? Hah! You're not the first one my mother sent to seduce me. There are so many of them! Tell her, I'll keep what I want. I'm gay!! Her son is gay!" Napapikit ako. Have I been spotted already? I bit my lip.

I quickly stood up while he was still sitting on the floor.

I swallowed. "I-I'm not... your mom didn't send me to seduce you," I said while feeling nervous. He looked up at me.

"You think I believe you?" he said, and was accompanied by laughter. "Then what was that? Explain!" He stood up and returned to his seat. I was blown away when I saw her feminine posture when sitting. Painted fingers rested on his knees.

"I did that because." Think, Gillian! He looked at me, and didn't even blink. It was as if he was looking at my face for the answer.

"What, secretary Gillian?" He raised his eyebrows. I closed my eyes and spoke. Whatever!

"I have a crush on you!" I closed my eyes. He didn't speak, so I opened one eye to see his expression.

"Are you ki---?" I cut him off.

"I've been crushing you before. I see you in magazines. I'm one of those women who can't accept that you're gay! So I did that because I wanted to test you if there's any hope for you to be a man. " The redness on my face is too much.

I have never had a boyfriend. There are people who flirt with me, but I don't want to be in a relationship, so I quickly reject them. And I'm so embarrassed now because I'm the one who says that.

Yes, and there is no truth to that, but the question of what he was thinking never left my mind. Does he think I'm desperate? Does he think I'm creepy because I'm still saying that?

I'm going crazy!