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10.
We're still very much together. But I told him I needed a break.
Just to calm my head and my heart from everything. It took him a while but he finally accepted it. He said as long as I come back to him. Of course I will, I always will. I realize I'm a slave to his love.
It's not even just because he threatened to kill himself, but also because a life without him is a life I don't want to live. I can't even grasp the thought of him not being here anymore. I've had him in my life for so long that I don't want to picture a life where he's not there.
Him wanting to kill himself served as a reminder of how much I need him.
I do however hate what he did to make me stay but the thought of him not being alive any more is scary enough for me to.
The couple of days that we've been apart had me thinking too much of course. Like about the fact
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