03
"Decision"
I watch the people dancing on the dance floor. I usually dance if I go to a bar, but today is different. Today, I'm drinking and keep thinking about what I did.
I feel guilty for sleeping with a married man, but as much as I want to stay away, I can't because I want him for myself. He's the one who's responsible for what he did because when I slept with him, I didn't know that he was married, but I also didn't confirm that with him.
I wonder why men can do that, no, not just men but anyone. How can anyone cheat? What can make a person unfaithful to someone they love? Do they love their partner, or are their love shallow to make that decision easily?
I want someone who will love me like my father loves my mother. He treasures her, and I can see it in their eyes that they care for each other even though years have passed.
When mom told me their love story, I immediately knew I wanted a romantic love story like theirs. I want a partner who can be faithful to me but being tangled with a married man makes me want to cry because I know when I'll be in the wife position, I'll lose my mind, and I might not be able to keep going.
What would my parents think of me? Mom will never speak to me again, and dad will be angry. It's a big mistake, and even though I hid my hoe side of them, I think they can take that but being a mistress? I don't think so. It would not be suitable for our family, and when people find out about this, it might affect how people think of our family and our business.
"You're drunk." Someone grab my glass away from me.
"Why do you care?" My eyes widened when I saw that it was Arthur.
"Are you here to become a hoe again?" He smirks and sits beside me.
"That's none of your business." I rolled my eyes and grabbed my glass, but he held it with a force that it didn't even budge.
"I thought you'll make me yours? Then why are you drinking here rather than finding a way to get me."
I scoff as I look at him. How can he be so cruel? How can he do that to his wife? As much as I want him, I also don't like being a mistress because I want more than that.
But I lost it--myself, my dignity the moment that he kissed me passionately. I'm lost in his kisses that I don't realize that I kiss him back and even pull him closer to me.
I moan when he scoops me into his lap and makes me feel the bulge growing below.
"Let's get out of here." He whispered, and before I could answer, he carried me in that position, and I didn't do anything and lay my head on his beating chest.
I groan as I wake up but immediately cover my mouth when I realize that someone is sleeping beside me and my eyes widen as I learn who that person is… Arthur. His hands are on the top of my boobs, and he's hugging me while he sleeps soundly. I can feel his chest close to my body, and I can't help but bite my lips. I stop to admire how good he looks, but I shake my head and look away.
How did I end up in the bed with him again? Really Emily? After finding out that he's married, the next thing you did was sleep with him again?
I slowly put his hands away and slid off the bed. I sighed in relief when he didn't move and still sleeping that he didn't realize that I was not on his side. It took me a moment before I gathered my clothes on the floor as I was admiring him in the bed, with a blanket hiding what was below him.
I put on my clothes without hesitation and sneakily went to the side of the bed to get my bag, but Arthur's hand stopped and held my wrist before I could do it.
"You're leaving?" He sounded mad.
"Of course I am. You left me the first night."
"Are you trying to get back at me?"
"No, I want to leave because I have no reason to stay." He was shocked, and I took that moment to get my bag and walk fast before he could stop me.
He must be having fun playing between women, but I'm not. I was not too fond that I was the other woman.
I went to work late, and I got scolded for it. It's annoying to get scolded, but it's my fault for being late. But good thing dad isn't the one who scolded me. I think he's busy as he has no time to check in on me.
"Let's talk." I was seriously working as I had a deadline to finish, but here's Arthur, now holding my hands and drawing attention to my workmates.
"What are you doing?" I consciously look at the people around us.
"We need to talk."
"I don't. I have work, and please be professional. You aren't acting like one." He was taken aback by what I said.
I hate to do this, but I don't want to create rumors around our workplace. I just got here, and I want to show my parents that I am cable and I'm worth something, and I can't do that if Arthur is doing this to me.
I was serious when I said that I would make him mine, but that won't happen or occur here in our workplace, and most significantly, I said that when I had no idea that he is married, and now I'm having second thoughts about it although I spend the night with him.
I walked out on him, and when I saw him following me, I walked fast and bumped into someone, and my eyes grew wider when I realized who it was.
"Oh, sorry." She said with her elegant voice. Very different from what I saw yesterday. She was desperate but seeing her in front of me at that moment. I suddenly wanted to bury myself in the grown.
She's a well-mannered and well-spoken woman. All I can say is she's elegant, very opposite of what I am.
"Sorry, I was in a hurry." I can't even look her straight in the eyes. After what happened, I can't. I'm ashamed.
"It's okay." She smiled and went on her way. I look back and look at her head to foot. Even when she walks, you can tell that she's elegant. From the way she dresses and looks, she's a gentle person.
I look at my clothes which are limited edition. I bit my lips, feeling unconfident about how I looked. If I examined myself through other people's eyes, I would tell that I am spoiled. I wear limited edition clothes, and I spend my money quickly without thinking.
I should go back to work, and I hope I won't see Arthur when I get there, but dad called while going to my office.
"Dad?" I answer my phone.
"Emily, where have you been? Come to my office. I want you to meet someone."
"Huh?"
"Just come up. It will be quick, and I know you're busy." Before I could complain he put the phone down and I didn't have a choice but to come.
I open the door of my dad's office, but I stop mid-way when I see who's inside. It's Arthur and his wife, who are not even looking at each other.
"Emily, come in!" Dad said.
I bite my tongue and walk all the way. They're sitting on the sofa, and I sit beside near dad. My heart is beating so fast, and I'm scared. I don't want dad to find out, but I think this is different from the look on his face.
"I want you to meet Flora Johnson. She's an architect. I just found out that she's a student of someone you idolize when you still want to become an architect, and I think you would be please to meet her."
I want to curse because how can she be so perfect? She's an architect and a student of someone I like. I suddenly feel small and look at Arthur, examining my reaction.
Wait, Why is her last name Johnson? I thought she was married to Arthur, then why didn't she has his last name? I'm full of the question right now, and my mind is puzzled.
I look at Flora and smile. "It's nice to meet you. I'm Emily." We shake our hands.
"She's a daughter of one of our clients, their family is known for their famous resort and hotels, and I'm courting her to join our company and maybe become your mentor."
When dad said, I wanted to leave because I couldn't take it any longer. I would be happy if I were not so guilty right now. I smile a little as I can't force myself to do more than that.
I don't know why Arthur is here, but he's silent and is looking at me, but dad unconsciously answered that when he said they had a meeting earlier and called me to meet Flora.
"I'm hesitating. Someone is stopping me, and I want to focus on our business, but I would be happy to mentor Emily." She smiles. "I don't want to say no to you as you are important to our family."
Is someone stopping her? Arthur seems annoyed, and I'm assuming that it's him who's stopping her.
"I would be happy. Emily needs someone she can learn from, and I can't think of anyone else but you."
"I would gladly, but I have things to finish, but I promise to be back next month." She answers.
Dad likes her kind of girl. I bet he wants me to act like someone like Flora, mature, professional, and elegant. I'm nothing like her, and I'm far from being her.
When dad announced that I could go back to my office, I celebrated as I didn't want to spend more time inside that office with Arthur and his wife. I bet he didn't know he's married, but it's better to be safe, so I won't say anything about knowing or being close to Arthur.
But when I enter the elevator, Arthur and Flora enter too. I'm in the back corner, and they're both in the front.
I couldn't breathe, and when Arthur looked back at me, I wanted to hide. Flora didn't bulge, but I bet she noticed it but didn't say anything, or is it just me?
It's so awkward and silent, and when Flora gets off the elevator, I almost sigh in relief, but when the elevator door is about to close, she stops it.
She looks at Arthur and smiles sweetly. "It's nice to see you, Arthur." She said and walked out, and Arthur only coughed.
My mouth opens, and I look down at my shoes. My breathing became uneven, and I was shocked that Arthur aggressively pinned me to the wall and started to kiss me.
"Arthur!" I complained, but it only sounded like a moan.
"I want to be yours." The whisper between our kisses made me lost.
"You're forbidden."
"No. You are." He answers.
I didn't answer, which made him kiss me more, and my hands unconsciously wandered around his body. I didn't even mind if his dress shirt would be creased, and I didn't care that my hair was messy as his hands stroked it.
We both stop and get off each other when the elevator opens, and a person gets in. He coughs like he knows what is happening. I bit my lips and fixed myself.
I can't believe I'm eating all my words, and I hate to say that we both know what's between us, and we won't talk about it. Arthur knows that I know. Does this mean I'm accepting the fact that I'm a mistress? I'm his mistress. His mistress.
04I sigh when I woke up and realize that Arthur is sleeping beside me. It makes me so guilty that I know he’s married but still be tempted. I just can’t resist him and it scares me but at the same time I like it because finally he’s with me.I pick up my clothes and left Arthur sleeping, just like what we always do. Yeah, no commitment just accidental fuck and it happen again and again.I went to work feeling preoccupied and hoping that Arthur wouldn’t bother me at work, I don’t want to create drama in my workplace and although I’m far from that the moment that I slept with Arthur, I still want to create a comfortable space to work, I have my goals and I want to make my parents proud.“Hey!” My eyebrow creased when a unfamiliar face approach me, he laugh when he notice my reaction. “I’m Arthur’s friend, Nathan.” He extend his arms, and I shake it.“I didn’t know he has friends.” I said.“That’s harsh.” He laugh, and I chuckle.Nathan is the opposite of Arthur, he’s funny, approachabl
05 I love you."Hi!” He jumped when he saw me. I smile widely at his reaction. “What the hell?” He raised his eyebrows at me. “You’re going home?” I replied, not minding his angry face. “Obviously, what do you want?” He asked, annoyed. He knows who am I, good thing he remembers me, huh? “Care to give me a ride?” I held his arms like he’s mine. “No, and can you please let go of me?” that hurt me, but I didn’t let him see that. “No, I like holding you. If you clearly remember?” I smirked. “I don’t care.” He holds my hands and forces them to stop holding him. “What’s wrong?” “You are holding me is what’s wrong, so get lost while I’m being nice.” He went in on his car and left me there standing. I look at his car until it’s out of my sight. He’s rude. That’s what he is. After a steamy night, he showered me with beautiful words, and now he’s spitting shit to my face. I can’t say I hate him for that, but that pissed me off. No one ever did that to me! He’s the only one who di,d
06Arthur?“Blooming as ever, Miss Emily.” Miss Rina, my workmate, said.I smiled at them and put my bag on my table. My dad just called for me in his office. I have to go there first, knowing his schedule, he'll be busy later.I felt someone standing next to me while waiting for the elevator to open. I was shocked when I saw that Arthur was standing tall. I raised an eyebrow at him, but he just looked straight ahead. I just looked away and ignored it; although his presence is intimidating, this is nothing since I'm used to an intimidating aura.When the elevator door opened, I entered first before him. I immediately hit the right button on the right floor and quietly stood on the side. I can see his broad back, but I try not to look at it so much because I'll know he'll notice.I was surprised when the elevator finally closed, and he started kissing me. My eyes widened, but soon I was drowning in his deep kisses. I feel like my dress will tear because of his touch. Although the dress
07 AgreementI’m better off without him. That’s what I keep repeating in my head. After what happen last night I want to make him feel like he’s not worth of my time even though I hate the fact that he backed out last minute.“Your Dad called and he wants you ASAP in the conference room.” Miss Rina said. I sigh and put my things on my table.I don’t know why dad keeps calling me when I’m working. He knows I’m busy but he keeps on doing it again and again and I seriously need to talk to him in that matter.“Dad! Good morning.” My eyes widen when I saw some of the board members and Arthur. I cough and smile to them as I sit beside dad. Well, that’s embarrassing.I pouted and notice that someone on dad’s side is looking at me and smirking. I raised my brows to him but he only smile being friendly with me. I look away and focus on the meeting instead, but caught Arthur looking at me. Huh! Now he’s looking at me after what happen last night?The meeting ended with me so lost why am I nee
08 It begins Now TW: Sex (R18) Days had passed and I still don’t know what I’m doing. Arthur and I haven’t seen each other because the next day when the agreement happen he didn’t show up at work and I had to ask Nathan where he is. He then said. “You didn’t know? He flew out of the country last minute to avoid you.” That made me want to smack him. “Joke, he’s there because of a conference. He’ll be back in a week.” And that is today, he’ll come home today and I don’t know what I would do or how would I react. I just know that we have many things to tackle about this agreement because when we made this deal it wasn’t clear because my emotions were pouring and I wasn’t thinking straight. Today is lunch break and I was thinking of heading to my OB for a check up and to get some pills. This would be an essential because I don’t want to get pregnant in a young age especially if the father is married to someone else. That would be fucked up and my parents are surely gonna kill me. “H
09 Almost The days has been light after making the agreement with Arthur. I know I cried and almost regret in agreeing with that but I’m happy and I’m enjoying my time with him although I know it wouldn’t last long. We’ve been following our rules and to stay professional at work and he hasn’t been visiting me in my department and I also don’t ask him question that relates with the past because I hate it when he lost his mood and it’s too much to handle when he gets angry, and I don’t want that to happen. My co-workers has been curious what is my relationship with Arthur but I would answer them that we know each other through my father and he’s the best employee and his department so my father is really proud of him. I also haven’t seen Nathan in a while after what happen in Arthur’s condo but I don’t know what to do if I’ll see him after what happen so this is better. “Dad?” “Hey.” He hugged me and nodded to the employees that greeted him. “Why are you here?” I asked. “I want
10Abroad I ran as fast as I could when I saw what time it was. I pouted when I saw Nathan and Arthur so early in the airport, looking irritated at me as I walked toward them.Arthur didn’t say anything as I arrived, but Nathan gave me a deadly loo; II rolled my eyes at him and stood next to Arthur. He didn’t even look at me nor greet me. I pouted; he’s partly why I’m late today; maybe that’s why he didn’t scold me as he should.I look at Arthur as we walk towards our plane; I suddenly want to hold his arms, but I stop myself; he might be irritated even though I badly want to do it.We took a business class seat, and I’m seated beside Arthur. Nathan gave us a warning look because he’s just in the corner, but I gave him a teasing look that made him roll his eyes; he’s sassy for a guy; I can’t help but chuckle.“What are you laughing at?” Arthur asked.“Nathan is funny,” I said that made him look at me dangerously.“What?’ I nervously asked.“Don’t say that.” He said.We were silent th
11BoyfriendI wouldn't say I like this. The more this happens, the more I keep rethinking my decision. We shouldn’t do this; we have to go by the rules. Fuck and leave.And here I am again, watching him peacefully sleeping in my bed. He’s the most precious person to me when I watch him sleep; he’s so peaceful and not like he’s angry.I cough and try to shake all of my thoughts. My parents called last night while we were in the middle of our sex, and I love my parents, but I hated that they called me at a perfect time.They miss me and want to visit me here in my condo to see how I’m doing, and Arthur knows that, but I don’t know what got to him and why he slept here.I sigh, it’s still early anyway, and mom and dad are going at lunch. I’m beginning to clean my living room and kitchen and do my laundry because it has been sitting there for days.Arthur woke up while I was in the middle of my cleaning, and he looked amazed that I knew how to clean. He left long after because I forced h