PROLOGUE: THE BEGINNING.

Chapter: 1

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“Steven!"

"Steven!!"

"My goodness, where is that boy?" The woman paused, pushing a stay lock of hair behind her ear. "Steven!"

"Yes! What is it, mother?"

"What! Don't tell me you've been in there all this time and I've been shouting on top of my lungs." Mrs. Mebel scolded.

"I'm sorry mum, I was lost in my own thoughts."

"What is bothering you son? You're not the type to look dead and mostly to be lost in thoughts. Something's changed in you and I want to know what that is. What is it, son? You know you can tell me anything."

"Yes mother I know, but I'm not so sure about this one. I don't want to share it with anyone."

I might even die with it, gladly die with it.

"That's nonsense son, you've to share it with me. They say a problem shared is a problem half solved. If you don't tell me or anyone else, it keeps hurting you." Mrs. Mebel tried talking her son into telling her.

"Mum."

"Yes, what is it? Trust your mother and tell her."

"OK mum, but maybe later we could talk about this, right now I need me time."

"Very well then, as you wish. Let me know when you're ready to talk."

"I will mother," Steven answered as he watched his mother leaving his room, closing the door behind her. He fell back on his bed, hands desperately wiping at his eyes, he didn't want to cry. But he just couldn't help it. This was wrong, so very wrong. What has happened? What went wrong?.

Hold yourself together Steven, you can do this. You don't have to cry, you did the right thing.

The right thing? I don't think so. I had it all in control, where had it all gone wrong? He wondered. Suddenly his heart went cold and for some reason, he thought he couldn't breathe, he froze and couldn't move a muscle.

"This is too much for me, dear Lord, please help me. I need your help to overcome this, I need to be me again."

This is stronger than my poor heart could take, even I want to go insane. I'm going to die if this continues, I'm going to lose my mind, I think I'm going to be sick.

This all started the day his best friend David invited him over to his house when he got back from his honeymoon and Steven had traveled to London when David had gotten married, so he wasn't there at David's wedding and to make up for that, Steven had to visit him and his wife. But now, that was a journey he wished he'd never embarked upon.