Chapter 5

PHOEBE knows that she blushed even more. She turned her back on him to hide the redness of her face. Why does he even need to smirk? It's really embarrassing.

"Go back to the living room," she while pouting.

When he didn't move from his position she faced him but that was probably her wrong decision. As she faced him their noses touched. His face was too close to her. They were both stunned, Phoebe can't move quickly especially Sawyer.

They're staring each other for a minute. No one wants to blink, no one wants to move as well. As Sawyer's face slowly come close Phoebe's eyes widened. As their lips were about to meet she suddenly woke up on his dreamland. Phoebe pushed him away and step back that make him growl.

Phoebe didn't know what to feel. Her whole face was red from what had happened. Why did she push him? That's so close! She could have tasted his lips.

Her eyes almost went out of the widened because of what she thought.

What the hell is she thinking? What the hell is she saying? Maybe she's crazy.

She shook her head and looked at him. She pointed the chair nervously, her hand still shaking.

“Ahmm, sit down first. It will cooked soon. Are you hungry already?” she asked and turned hee back on him again to continue cooking. Until now her heart still beating fast.

She was simply touch her chest because she was also feel nervous. She didn't know why she felt that way after that incident. She had no idea. Phoebe's forehead puckered when she saw Sawyer didn't even move from his position. He's like a statue there.

What's he doing? Does he have no plans to move? Why he doesn't seem to be affected by what happened? He seems like it's just normal for that to happen or maybe she's the only one really affected by it? They almost kiss! Agh! Why did she even push him? It's her chance to taste his lips.

Phoebe was inevitably pissed at the repeated question she had in her mind. What is she saying? She is really crazy. Phoebe sighed deeply. Why is she feel sad? She didn't really like what she was thinking.

Phoebe has a feeling that her life will be in trouble. She know, when she let Sawyer stay here at her house that was the beginning of the trouble of her life. Today, her heart was beating so fast and she don't like it, she's really sure that her life is in trouble? She just felt that, she wasn't sure thought.

“Do you need anything else? Are you really hungry? It will be cooked for a moment,” she said before simply glancing at him.

"Tsk!" Suddenly he came out at the kitchen and left her there shock.

Phoebe turned to his seat a while ago then scratched her head. What happened to him? Is he mad? She didn't do anything to irritate him. He's really snobbish. He just notice now, the man's face was also puffy. He's eyebrows are thick and always seem to meet.

“He's thankful that I'm still helping him. Can't he be kind to me for at least two hours?”

In a few minutes Phoebe finished her cooking. She set the table first before peeking out of the kitchen to call Sawyer.

"Sawyer, let's eat." He didn't answer her.

After waiting for a few seconds, she did not see or get an answer from Sawyer so she decided to just go for him. Maybe he's just hadn’t heard what she said.

"Sawyer?" Where is that man now.

Phoebe went straight to the living room but she didn't see Sawyer there. She was momentarily stunned. Has he left already? 

She sighed when she thought that the man might have left her house already. Maybe he got mad at her earlier so he left. Where could he go?

‘I wish I hadn’t carved him earlier in the kitchen.’ She sighed and dismissed the man in her mind. ‘Eh, what if he leave already? Then that’s good so I don’t have to suffer anymore.’ But he's not all good yet. She promised she would help him remember it.

Phoebe weakly walked towards her room. She has lost her appetite. She just sighed when she entered her room. Why she feel like this? Why does she seem to be hurting? Why does she seem to be weakening?

What did that man have to do to be affected like this? She doesn't know him yet so why does she feel this way? This is wrong, very wrong. Even she was already nervous to herself.

"He didn't even say goodbye to me." She looked sadly at her bed so that he could go to sleep but her eyes were widened when she saw a figure there.

"Sawyer Zane?" The man was lying on her bed. She thought he was gone.

"He's here."

Phoebe smiled when she saw the man sleeping on her bed. She come closer to him. Sawyer hugging her pillow, and he even buried his head there in the side.

His eyelashes was so slender, he really surpassed her eyelashes. Phoebe was shocked to see Sawyer's lips parted. She will not attracted to his parted lips. She's not like others. She is not quickly attracted to men.

"You suddenly fall asleep," she said weakly and stood up but stop with a warm grip on her wrist.

"Hmm." Phoebe's eyes widened as she looked at Sawyer who was now awake and staring hard at her.

She almost attacked in forebode when he gently pulled her closer to his body. She tried to pull her hand away from him.

Why does he seem to be voltaic? She feel that electricity from him. The warmth of her feeling, accompanied by the strong beating of her heart. She doesn't feel good anymore. She think she need to go to Tata Olly to find out why she feel weird. What if she is sick?

Phoebe shook her head. No. She's unlikely to get sick. She was too young to get sick.

“W-What? I-I was just going to call you to eat in case ... b-but you're deeply asleep,” she stammered because of how she were feeling.

Why is he suddenly pulling her hand? Why doesn't his hand pull it? Does it have no hands? He was always pulling her as if he like to cut it.

Phoebe was afraid that Sawyer might tighten his grip on her wrist again. Her skin is very sensitive, it's ruddier quickly even if you just touch it.

 She was begging him through her gaze then glanced at her wrist. She thinks it's already ruddier. His hand covering his wrist so she couldn't see if it was really ruddier.

Sawyer's eyes dropped at their hands. He quickly let go of her when he realize what he did. Tearfully she hid her hand behind her back before slowly backing away.

"I'm sorry!" Sawyer apologized but she just turned her back on him and went to her cabinet.

Sawyer was able to get up quickly from the girl's bed when he saw that Phoebe turn her back on him after he apologized.

He forgot that her skin ruddier quickly. He realized that when he touched it earlier in the cave. His grip was really tight. Is she mad at him? She can't be angry at him, he still needs her. He followed Phoebe to her cabinet.

Phoebe opened her cabinet and picked up the pink handkerchief, it's had a rabbit design and the name Jeon Jungkook written on its side. That was Phoebe's favorite handkerchief of all her belongings. Her late Mother gave it to her. As far as she can remember one of the Korean group was her Mom’s favorite, it's called BTS.

"Madee, I'm sorry!" she heard the Sawyer speak behind her.

Madee? Only two people call her that. Caldwell and his Dad. She could not deny that she felt even more lightened when Sawyer called her by that name.

He did followed her, she didn't feel he's presence and footsteps just like she did not feel him enter the kitchen earlier. Phoebe nodded and looked at him. She handed Sawyer the handkerchief which surprised him.

“Can you tie it on my wrist? Sorry, I didn't tell you that my skin is very sensitive.” She sighed and raised the wrist that Sawyer had held earlier. "Even if you just touch it, it turns ruddier right away," she said.

Sawyer stared at her. There was something in his gaze that she could not explain. Too deep and awkward. Sawyer finally took the handkerchief from her and carefully tied it to her wrist.

Then smiling Phoebe pulled him towards the kitchen. "Let's eat. I have no class this day until week. The children are still on vacation.”

Sawyer looked at her shocked. "You're a teacher?"

She happily nodded and looked at him too. She let him sit and served him. "Yes."

Sawyer never spoke again. He watched Phoebe put food on his plate. When she was finished, she also sat and began to eat. The food is so delicious so she start eating his food too.

Sawyer ate one after another as if in a hurry, afraid of running out of food. Phoebe winced as she stared at him.

"Take it easy, Sawyer."

But he ignored her. She would have put his plate a another food when she saw that it's was only a little amount of food on his plate but she didn't expect what would happen next. He cough hard. Phoebe's eyes widened as she looking at him, Sawyer trying to reach the pitcher in front of them.

“Ugh! F-Fuck! W*...W*ter!” He short-winded.

Phoebe lips parted. She panicked, she stood up and transfuse the water on his glass, she immediately handed it to him. Sawyer drink it quickly.

“Why are you in a hurry? You can have all of this food,” she said worriedly then gently stroked Sawyer's back.

You could heard the nervousness and worry on her face. When Sawyer was okay he leaned back in his chair, looking weak. He even grabbed his head, apparently his wound hurt because of the cough he made.

"Does it hurt?" She grabbed Sawyer's head.

He sighed and nodded. “I’m fine now. You can finish your food."

She followed him. She returned to her seat and finished eating even though she had lost her appetite. Occasionally she glanced at Sawyer to see what he is doing. But her heart pounded in her chest faster when she saw him also staring at her.

“There's a dirt on my face? Why are you staring at me like that?” she question.

She couldn’t explain why she felt this awkwardness. For the first time she felt nervous in another man.

"Nothing." The shook his head.

"Okay." She just shrugged.

She nodded and continued eating, she just ignored him. When she finished she wash the dishes. When she looked back at Sawyer's position she was surprised because the man was still there, his eyes following her.

“Go back to sleep, Sawyer. Tomorrow I will borrow Caldwell's clothes so you can wear something while you're here,” she said then turned her back again to continue washing the dishes.

“Caldwell? Your boyfriend? ” His cold voice echoed in her ear and that make her shiver.

Why is she always surprised when he's speaks? It's really strange. As long as she lives on the island she has never heard such a voice like that, he is very cold and doesn't care who is he talking to. Everyone here in Isla Berde were cheerful and not like him. She had just heard it for the first time and bederived at the very gorgeous man.

Phoebe nodded at him as a big smile was posted on her lips. Caldwell is not her boyfriend. They vague to be like that. Yes, she liked her childhood bestfriend but not to the point where she wanted him to be her boyfriend. She only admires him because of the respect he shows to the women and elders in their Island.

“No, he is my childhood bestfriend. Next time I will introduce you to him. ” There was still a smile on her lips as she said that.