"Meet me at the parking lot, four pm sharp. Don't be late."
That's all she remembers from her absurd and the most awkward confession of hers to the guy, she's never really spoken before. Gracie was tangled in the strings of her own thoughts as she walked towards the sports room, where she will definitely find Niall.
Regret slowly makes its own way towards Gracie as she lets the abrupt decision of hers lead her mind. She really should have thought it through. Before stepping forward. But now, it's too late.
However, she kind of liked the thrill. She had never realized or even given a thought to how powerful Jason's aura was. Maybe she was overthinking, or maybe she really enjoyed being overpowered by his sudden surprising and composed phase. Although, he was just a virgin himself, and wouldn't judge her.
She certainly found it surprising or rather shocking how Jason did not reject the idea of sleeping with her. "I knew it, he is just as desperate to lose his virginity as I am." Grace smirks at her last thought before calling out for Niall.
"Hey Niall!" She cheers smilingly. Niall, who had just finished up his warm ups, as instructed by the coach, ran towards Gracie, as his serious expressions immediately got replaced with a soft smile.
"Sup? Gracie" he greets as he puts his right palm on his chest and says, dramatically, "Oh my days! I at least thought you would bring me some drink." Indirectly offering himself a treat from her, an old habit. Gracie rolls her eyes and asks him to sit at the nearby bench.
"You still owe me from keeping a secret from your girlfriend." She says, folding her arms in front of her chest, meanwhile crossing her legs as she sat beside him.
"Yeah sure, all I asked you was to keep my birthday surprise for her, a secret." Niall spoke emphasizing the word 'birthday surprise'.
Gracie knew Niall since they were born in Sacramento and hence; studied in similar schools. Niall wasn't this confident before. Even though he had this charming and sporty personality, he was still bullied for literally anything. Just because he never argues back. But deep inside, he felt too weak to go against his bullies.
And then, one day, our Gracie, the most confident girl, like really confident. Sprinkled with some sass of being the Cali girl, decided to stand up for her childhood buddy. Sixteen years old. Niall remembers it, like it was yesterday, how some arrogant seniors were commenting on the way he looked when one of the guys said, "God! You're so ugly, dude."
"Well, your girlfriend doesn't think so." Said a stern female voice from Niall's behind.
Everyone in the hall stopped, knowing this was the first time someone had spoken against their seniors.
The curly haired girl came in front of Niall, and gasped dramatically, "Really Niall! How many times have I told you not to wear your glasses when you are in the hallway? You see, people can see their reflection on it."
She turns towards the mean guy and proceeds, "and starts calling you names."
The hallway gets filled with a wave of laughter at the extreme sarcasm of the young girl. But the group is particularly glaring at Gracie now.
"Here comes an ugly bitch, trying to look cute." The guy spoke again, with just his group laughing at the mocking comment.
"Oh my gosh! So nice of you to notice. I put extra effort in today." She said, letting out a sassy giggle.
And walks away, dragging Niall with her.
"Niall, learn to speak for yourself. Before I chop those fingers of yours and make sure you never play basketball again." Gracie muttered out while dragging her friend towards their classroom.
This was the first time the two had interacted and ever since became close to each other. Even though Gracie wasn't allowed to befriend a guy, she kept him like a secret.
Undoubtedly, Gracie was the link between Niall and Sira. She still remembers how head over heels Sira was when she saw Niall for the first time. Although, Gracie still brags about how Niall liked her more than Sira at that time. Since, she has been his first crush.
"I'm here, to ask you about something." Gracie said, coming straight to the point.
"Alright, if it ain't important can it wait till you treat me to an ice cream during the break?" He smiles widely, as she shakes her head as a no to the male beside her. "Okay, what do you want?" He gives in as he grabs his water bottle. She smiles widely.
"So how did it feel when you knocked my friend down?"
He choked on the liquids as he googled his eyes towards her immediately, "Wait! What?" He coughed.
"You heard me loud and clear. " Gracie grins. "Did it hurt? I mean I know it is going to hurt the first time. But to what extent? None of the textbooks really provide much." She rambles out.
"Are you implying how Sira felt? Because I clearly don't have a vagina. And if you're asking me, me and my dick both had a great time." Niall still decides to answer. "Why would you come to me for this? When you can clearly ask Sira about this?"
He had a point. Even if he shared his experience, they were both biologically different. "Right" She agreed. Seeing Niall, so amused by her sudden outburst, Gracie felt hesitant but she still managed to keep a straight face.
However, Niall couldn't. His pit of laughter was cued the second later, she decided to act serious. "Gracie baby, why did you come to me for this?"
"Niall! Stop with your teasing." She at last whines out, dropping her serious aura.
"Oh yeah!" He rolls his eyes. "Bitch! You better get an appointment at the mental hospital ASAP. I cannot handle you. I can't believe you came here to ask me this."
"Okay! next question." Gracie proceeds excitedly, ignoring her guy friend's words.
"There's more?"
"You were Sira's first boyfriend... " She continues. "Yeah and first ex boyfriend and future husband too." He adds jokingly.
"How did you treat her for the first time? This is all just for research purposes." She promised. Although she knew Niall didn't believe her.
"Erm.. I was gentle of course but ermm.. at the same time I wasn't. We just got a little carried away-" Niall answered, scraping the back of his neck with one hand.
"You hurt my Sira!?" Gracie interrupted, her voice coming out as a yell. "You men are trash! You said Sira was hurting! It was her first time, you could have at least tried to be soft, but you couldn't even control your-"
"Wait, I never said that!" He quickly defends. "I was gentle at first but then when she got used to it, we got a little rou- Why am I telling you this? I promise she loved it!" Niall said, almost whining in the last part. "I would never hurt her, I promise. I only got rougher on the second round."
Gracie raises an eyebrow in suspicion. "You can ask her!" He adds.
Smirking, she clears her throat, "I think she liked it since she couldn't stop rambling about how amazing you were." Gracie rolls her eyes, but Niall still needed the warning from her, as she likes to believe, how he should always treat her best friend right. First time or not.
He grins in return, "Amazing huh?" Gracie was sure his man ego was boosting.
"Idiot.As if you were really nice and took good care of her." She lied, although Sira had told everything in detail to her, including the rated information. But he doesn't need to know, of course. "I'mma go, bye!"
"Sit your ass down!" He drags her back to sit and asks seriously this time, "What happened? Did a guy hurt you? Tell me. I'm going to kill that bastard." He urges knowing how protective he was towards her.
Knowing Niall would be displeased with her irrational idea, Gracie decided to lie. "Well I met this guy. And we like each other. So I'm scared for the first time." Practically, the last half of it was true.
"Oh well, then you don't need to worry. Just make sure you are ready, and he treats you well. I'm always there, if you need any help." He genuinely smiles.
Gracie smiles back in return, but an uneasiness and nervousness clouding her mind, partially. Then she remembers, "Oh and Sira will try to prank you saying I'm hitting off with that transferred boy, Jason. Do not believe her! You know she wants to get back to you after your previous prank on her." She lied, knowing Sira will certainly come running to him, to convince her not to take this step.
"Oh my god! Thank you Gracie, I will definitely not let her win." He speaks, determined, raising a thumbs up at Gracie as she laughs at his adorable eyes that sparkled like a child at the information she just decoded.
"Good luck Sira, convincing him to ruin my night." Gracie thinks as she proceeds to exit from the sports room, smiling like a Cheshire cat.
Four pm. At the Parking Lot.
Gracie taps her feet, waiting for the gray haired guy to arrive. Although, she doubts anything bad can happen.
"All you are gonna do tonight is have sex! Yes, you can do it Gracie, " She mumbles to herself.
Her mother would probably get a myocardial infarction if she heard her young daughter's thoughts. But for now, her mind was too scrambled to even let other possible thoughts trespass her mind.
"Gracie."
Then she heard it. The voice made her hear, picking up a dangerous pace of pumping. She, for some reason, felt the weird need to breathe. Was she not breathing before this? Probably? Never mind.
What is she doing here? This isn't her. This is probably not what she wanted. But then again, the persona she shows her mother is also not her. Then, who is she? What does she really want?
She, at last, gathers her courage and looks back. There he was. Standing straight, posturing in a mannered way. His silver hair was sleek and pushed back with an attractive undercut. His palms were hidden inside his pockets and the frame around his eyes gave him an extra clean look.
"Was I blind?" Gracie thought. "Just because he is quiet and wears glasses, doesn't mean he was an ugly nerd who had no sense of style."
He was oozing with visuals and an attractive demeanor. His fitting T-shirt was shaping his muscular features. His biceps were thick enough to make it look like it can rip anybody's skin off. Her eyes traveled down when she saw how his trousers also have a definition of his thick thighs.
"Good grace, he was actually built as fucking Greek god." Gracie thought, not noticing how the guy in front of her made her curse for the first time. Although it's all in her head, yet!
"Done checking me out?" Her eyes snapped, when she heard his eyes. His mouth was curved into a smirk.
"No, idiot! Don't disturb me again." Was what she actually wanted to say but when she spoke, her voice came out as stuttering, "Er.. I.. "
"It's okay. Get in the car." He cuts her off, not letting her embarrassment take the best of her. She quietly obliges as he says.
"The hell? Weren't I the one supposed to order him around and use him?" Gracie mumbles under her breath. "Gosh! this sounds too wrong."
She wouldn't have liked it, if a guy had used her in such a way, then why is she doing this? Every time the angelic side of her head tries to moralize her action, the evil side of her head replays the laughter of her friends.
"Where are we going?" She asks, voice barely coming out of her throat. He's a stranger to her after all. He may be a virgin, but still a stranger. She keeps telling herself.
"My Aunt's home."
"Are we doing it... there?"
He scoffs. "You were bold enough to ask me to sleep with you, but not bold enough to say the actual word. It?"
"I-"
"You will find out what we are going to do when we get to my aunt's house." He cuts her once again.
Why on earth does this man keep cutting me off?
At last, after a thirty minute ride which felt like hours to Gracie, he parked his car in front of a house. She steps out when he does the same. She silently follows his footsteps, which were headed towards the door, as a thought strucks Gracie's mind "Is he going to complain about me to his aunt? And what if his aunt is someone from the trustees? Oh my god! Is it too late to run?" She thought.
She saw him pressing the door bell, the time within the door opened, the sexual tension between her and him slowly began to grow. Or something that only she felt? She found her cheeks and entire body heating up as she eyed him once in a while.
His side view was so promising as she found herself gawking the clicked jaw of his. He looked heavenly and delicious. She couldn't believe how much she wanted to climb his body at that instant.
However, she didn't know if he was feeling the same. Her thoughts weren't proper and God, this wasn't what her mother had taught her.
Good grace, what is happening to me? I should probably run!
Well, it was too late to escape as the door opened in front of them and out, came a lady, dressed neatly, holding a handbag. As if she was waiting for Jason to come, so that she could go out for whatever party she had to attend, which she was!
"Oh Jason, you're here." His aunt said, welcoming him with a warm hug. "As usual, I prepared the milk for Joe already, you only need to warm it up. And he is basically sleeping right now, so you can do your homework in the meantime." The lady said as she started walking towards the car that was parked before Jason's.
"And your girlfriend's really beautiful." His aunt yelled before sitting in the car and drove off.
"Don't mind her. She just says whatever without thinking." Jason spoke, scratching the back of his neck as he looked at Gracie who was, red like a tomato, at this point.
Her heart at this point could burst out of her body. And she was pretty sure that he would've heard the shameless sound her heart was generating.
Gracie followed him towards the living room, without any word. She concluded mentally, if this is what casual hook ups were, she was good without doing it. She also realized that Jason probably won't even speak, while taking her virginity, seeing him barely utter any words now. Also, the fact that they had to stay quiet as she figured out, Jason was here to babysit a baby.
"Stay here. I'm going to change and then we can talk about whatever issue you are having."
My issue? He is talking like I'm his patient visiting him with an illness. Slowly slight irritation was making its way in Gracie's head, towards the previous lust induced thoughts.
"Why are you gonna change if those clothes will come off anyway while we are doing it?"
"It? Babygirl, we ain't doing anything today, if that's what you're worrying about. I will explain once I come." He strictly speaks.
If Gracie, wasn't feeling stupid all this time, she definitely was feeling all of it now. How dare he talk to her like that?
"Jason!" She burst. She ain't having it. "How dare you speak to me like that?! What am I to you? Do not disrespect me like I'm some sort of illiterate peasant."
He raised his brow quick enough after she burst. He observes her angrily huffing. He just chuckled in a dark manner before approaching her, "First of all, keep it low because if my cousin woke up, I don't think your ear would work well without an ear machine. And secondly, I am treating you with disrespect? Please, as if you did not have the thoughts of using me and disrespecting me once you accomplished your so-called mission- lose- virginity!" He accuses.
Although, his accusation was said in a calm manner. If Gracie concluded one thing from that, she would say, this young man has good control over what he utters and what he does.
She knew he was right, and suddenly her anger dissipated in thin air, replaced by shameful guilt. He was right, Gracie called Ellen hypocrite, then what is it that she was doing? She was also playing her so-called Woman card to be saved from humiliation. This wasn't right, this wasn't her.
She sighs and apologizes, "You are right. I am sorry. I was also using you in a way. I'm sorry for my behavior." She speaks genuinely, accepting her mistake. Although, her mother always asked her to never accept her mistakes because her family reputation was known to be very proper and perfect, making no mistake. Yet, she did not want to follow their footsteps because she was also human.
Jason definitely found himself feeling off guard. He did not have anything to say but to be surprised at her quick apology. Usually, the girls he met were definitely not like this.
"This is a bad idea, thank you for considering my offer. Sorry if I bothered you." Humiliation was eating her alive. She wanted to pick her backpack and run to her dorm.
But Jason had a different idea, "Wait, it's okay, don't worry about it. But just to let you know... I.. "
For the first time, the whole day she found him stuttering. A blush crept through her round face at the way he stared at her.
"I'm still considering your offer." He states. "I wouldn't mind helping you."
Gracie certainly didn't like the way people treated her virginity as a problem. Then again, she also treated it as something in which she needed the help of a man.
"But I have a condition." Jason states.
She was about to speak but paused when she heard.
"I'm going to give you two weeks of getting to know me."
"Huh? Like a date?" She swore she wanted this to be a quick thing, but couldn't help and found herself blushing at the handsome man's offer.
"Well, not really. I'm not what you think, Gracie. And what you need is time to think if you want to have sex with me."
There she goes, same old crap. "Listen! I can ask someone else if you drag this too long. Just say you don't want it. There's nothing for me to think about!" She exclaimed annoyingly. "I don't want to think for God's sake."
"Gracie"
"Jason!" She speaks back.
"Sheesh!" Jason reminds her to keep it low, by keeping an index finger on his lips and shushing her.
"No. I want to break free from my mom's rule. I don't want to think about anything." She spoke under her gritted teeth, feeling too frustrated to think. She didn't want to tell Jason anything, but she ended up anyway.
Jason thinks something absentmindedly, for a while. For some reason, he felt the urge to show her what she really wants and what she should be having from a guy. And most importantly, he wanted that guy to be himself. If she wants to break free from her chains, then he will help her. But, in his own way.
"I will help you. But in my own way. And in this two weeks I want to show you some other things that you are missing, not just your damn sex life." Jason speaks as he steps forward with a cunning smile. She gulps and unconsciously steps backward with each step.
"You're okay with it? Right?"
And there goes her heart, beating abnormally. She, surely, knew this wasn't normal. But Jason's offer made her greedy.
"O-Okay" She agreed, while he was getting closer to her. She felt some weird heat enveloping in between her thighs. "I will give you your two weeks." She spoke.
"No darling, I, will give you two weeks."Jason whispers. "And your time starts now, today is your day one." He comes closer and puts a lingering kiss on her red cheeks followed by a swift wink.
"I'm going to teach you everything you need, baby girl. Everything." He challenges.
Gracie wanted to push him away and jump on him. Tell him to screw his two weeks and take right her there and then. But then again, he was too good of a face reader, therefore she had to blanket her expression so he wouldn't figure out her naughty thoughts.
"What are we doing on day one?" She asks, not sure how her voice is still coming out.
"Let's make it simple, I will tell you more about myself." Jason speaks making her nod, as she liked the idea thinking about Sira's monologue how she should apparently know the guy before doing anything.
"And for starters, I ain't a virgin, princess."Jason smirks as he leans closer at her.
