I stayed outside for an extra twenty minutes last night after Funny left, just processing everything. When I got back to Steph’s suite, I laid in bed wide awake with anxiety, I want to talk to Steph about all of this but I wouldn't dare wake her from her deep, snoring state, she'd kill me if I darkened those circles under her eyes for a second night in a row.…After I wake up from an awful quality of slumber, I join Steph and Mia in the kitchen grabbing myself a cup of cold brew coffee. I don't waste another second before diving into my questions.“Hey guys, did you know that X came back early?”They both look at each other confused. “What do you mean? And how would you know?” Steph asks.“Well…I went outside last night and that guy Funny was outside too and somehow it was brought up.” I say cautiously.They look at each other once more like they’re trying to figure out what question to tackle first.“Who’s Funny?” Mia asks with furrowed eyebrows.Oh yeah, I forgot she wasn’t here la
It’s now Wednesday and last night has left me confused. I feel like I made some sort of connection with Funny.Unfortunately, our common ground was having fucked up fathers.I felt as if we were getting into something deep, whether that be physical or emotional until it abruptly ended. I don’t know when I will see him again but maybe us not having a plan to meet again is a good thing. I need to keep my distance at arm’s length from everyone in this house despite whether I like them or not. I have a fresh start in just 32 days and I can’t be getting myself into any trouble with rocky friendships. I need to keep my head straight and keep focused.Mia has been in and out of the suite today like a chicken with its head cut off planning for this party tonight, the one I regrettably offered to go to with Steph.“X is going to be there tonight and everything needs to go perfect!” Mia frantically says to know one in particular.Ugh X. I’m so nervous that it’s making my stomach hurt. I need to
The gates of hell are opened for us by Stone and we all walk in together. The scenery is the same as Saturday night, blaring music, dark but lit up with LED lights in some areas, changing colors with the music, and of course topless women everywhere.Alina and Ellie previously told us that they’ll be hanging out with us for the first hour and then they need to go off to work.I’m trying to be more open-minded this time around and have fun for the sake of my best friend.Ellie leads us to a table in the same area that Steph, Mia, and I were a few days ago.For it being a Wednesday night, it’s packed in here, more so than Saturday night.Alina and Ellie offer to grab us some drinks at the bar while Steph and I sit down.My eyes guide me over to the VIP area to see if I can spot X on my own but no one catches my eye that I haven’t already seen.Julian is sitting on a black leather couch looking fine as aged wine, tattoos showing, that are accentuating his muscles. I can definitely see wh
Once I make it outside, I look around to make sure no one is out here with me, crouch down, let the warm night air enter my lungs, and quietly scream “What the fuck” with an exhale.I stay like this for a minute and stand back up. I cross my arms over my chest feeling a shiver come over me and just stand there with my thoughts for the next several minutes.I turn around to go back inside and right there in the flesh is the man I have been trying to avoid since I laid eyes on him tonight. He's standing fifteen feet away from me with his hands in his pockets looking at me.“Millie…” Funny or X, whatever the fuck his name is today, says.Whatever he was about to continue with is interrupted by the back door opening revealing Ghost, Adria, Penelope (who finally has a shirt on), that guy Slim I think his name is, and a couple of others I haven’t seen before coming outside and walking towards X to stand next to him.I get a quizzical look from about half of them. Penelope goes up to X and s
X’s last words leave me stunned more than finding out who he really is. The only girl I wanted sitting on my lap tonight was you. It replays in my head over and over making me blush more each time I think of it. He left my heart racing and it hasn’t stopped since he left twenty minutes ago. I’m unpacking my bags and although I’m feeling on cloud nine, I’m also very frustrated at the same time for allowing myself to feel that way. I don’t want to get involved with him, and although he says he and Adria are not a thing, she’s got a very tight hold on him. I don’t want to play with fire because I will get burned, it’s not an if but when in this particular situation. I try my best to shrug off everything that happened tonight and once I’m done unpacking I change out of my dress and climb into bed. I keep my thoughts at bay and drift to sleep.…I wake up at eight and Steph is not in bed. I start to panic and grab my phone to text her.Me: Hey Steph where are you?Steph: Hey babe'll be do
It’s now Friday and I’ve gotten the first week officially over with. I’m completely defeated by the bullshit every day has brought on.Today is the day I meet up with Chase. It’ll be nice to see a familiar face and to leave this god-forsaken place for a few hours.This morning was spent being lectured on my nonexistent relationship with X, not only by Steph, but by Mia too. They went over their spiel about how dangerous he could be and to avoid him blah blah blah, they wasted their breaths on the topic because I have no desire whatsoever to talk to him again.Last night has left me in a weird depressive state but I conceal my feelings about it to my current roommates. I kept the whole revelation of last night to myself.…It’s now late afternoon and I need to start getting ready for my hang-out with Chase. I get into the shower and hear Steph enter the bathroom.“How are you feeling about tonight Mills?” she asks.“I don’t know, a little nervous I haven’t seen him since we broke up bu
I make it back upstairs trying to ignore the pointless argument I just had moments ago.I change into more comfortable clothing and lay in bed tossing and turning trying to get comfortable.Steph and Mia are still out and probably still will be for the next few hours. I grab my phone and see a text from Chase saying he had a nice time, I text him back that I did too.I get out of bed, grab my laptop, and pour myself a much-needed drink. I sit at the table and sip at the brown liquor.I open my laptop and browse through some cheap furniture for my new apartment. I find some things I like and save them.I send Mr. Daniels a Facebook message telling him that I miss him and Isabella even though it’s only been a week, and to give my favorite little girl a hug for me. I hear my phone ding again and go to retrieve it. It’s a text from an unknown number.“It’s X, come back down.”How did he get my number? I’m not doing this right now. I power my phone off and after I finish my drink I go to b
POVXI’m in the penthouse with Julian shootin' the shit and gradually getting ready for tonight, even though it’s the last thing I feel like doing.I drank way too much last and stupidly fucked Adria for probably forty-five minutes unable to come, that is until I started imagining it was her.I haven’t been able to get Millie out of my head for the past week. I don’t know what it is about her but I feel like a teenage boy with a crush.This isn’t like me and I hate it. As much as I want this girl to stay in my house, I want her out just as much for the sole purpose of fucking with my mind unintentionally.I woke up with a massive hangover this morning so I slept most of the day but that won’t stop me from drinking just as much tonight, I’m so overworked right now and I need an escape.I walk out on my balcony and sit on one of the chairs. I grab my joint and light it up, I need a mental escape.I’m not escaped though, because within just minutes of sitting out here, I’m reminded of M