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37 Days The aftermath
POV XI slowly wake up confused and with wetness on my skin. Sweat? “X?” I hear someone ask. “Baby? Is that you?” I ask maybe out loud or maybe in my mind, I can’t tell. “No, it’s Evelyn, I’m here with Dr. Adams, do you know where you are?” A girl says. “Millie?” I ask out. “No X, it’s Evelyn, I need you to try to wake up a little more and focus on my questions the best you can okay?” I think Millie asks. “Okay baby,” I say. I hear talking but can’t make anything out, I fall back into comfortable sleep but I get slapped. “What the fuck” I groggily say. “X, man it’s me Julian, wake up man, stay with us,” I hear Julian say but it’s hard to stay awake I just want to sleep. “Xavier, I’m Dr. Adams, do you know what happened?” Some annoying man says too loudly. My head is pounding and I just want to go back to sleep but people keeping talking to me. “Go away” I manage to get out of my mouth. “Millie come here,” I say. “Who is Millie?” The girl asks. “You baby” I say. “Mill
37 Days The longest minute
POVJulian He woke up. He woke up confused as hell though, he thought Evelyn was Millie and it was fucking sad to watch. I knew X was hurting but I didn’t know the extent of it. The room is a disaster, alcohol is still covering the table and the pills have disintegrated from the liquid. X is covered in his own vomit and sweating profusely. The white note still lies there as the corners have now become wet and transparent. What does it say? I pick it up as Evelyn and Dr. Adams try to get X to talk more. X, if something happens to me, just know I love you. This must be from Millie. Poor girl doesn’t even know what’s happening to the guy she loves right now but it’s for her own good. X keeps going in and out of consciousness and it’s freakin me out. I don’t know why I do it but I slap him to snap him out of it. He wakes up a little more but only for a short time until he falls back into it and gains another slap. Dr. Adams lets us all know that his vitals are okay and to let
37 Days The strong one?
POV Stephanie As soon as Millie leaves for the day I rush out the door to go back to the mansion. She’s completely clueless about what went down last night in the penthouse. Julian had been texting me all night and into the early hours of the morning with god-awful updates. I hardly got any sleep with the information I was receiving. If Millie knew that they lost X for a minute she would be beside herself, honestly, I kind of am but I keep that to myself, I need to be strong for everyone around me. I type in the entrance gate code and park Mia’s car in her usual spot. I practically run to the elevator to get to Julian and X. When I reach the black penthouse door I knock impatiently dying to see them. Julian opens the door and I run into his arms embracing him in a long comforting hug. “I’m so sorry Julian,” I say while stroking the back of his head. “I’m just happy you’re finally here babe, I really need you,” he says and it breaks my heart that I couldn’t be there for him
37 Days The reason you left
POV Millie I arrive at the office just after nine, I stopped at a resale shop on my way in. It was a weird morning, I feel like Steph has been avoiding me. Women though, we do weird things when we’re PMSing. I brought in some small green plants, some landscape photos for the wall, and some cute pen holders. This should make the office look a little less…sad. I set up some of the things, already significantly better in here. My phone dings on the dark wood desk. I retrieve it and it’s Nick. How’s the decorating going? Everything pink already? I chuckle at the message. Me: Ha. Ha. No, I reconsidered last minute. Nick: Thank you god Me: How’s the document signing going? Nick: It’s so much fun, equivalent to pink. I laugh out loud. Me: I’m really missing out then huh?Nick: For sure. Would’ve been black coffee to me if you were here. Oh shit..what do I even say to that? Me: Sure..Nick: Guess we’ll never know will we? Me: I guess not Ugh, why does this feel so wrong? I me
37 Days Not the hero
POV Millie I get back to the hotel around 5 pm after meeting up with Chase. I was hoping to get things off my mind but it backfired on me. I’m happy for Chase, I’m happy that he and Jessie have been seeing each other but it makes me feel envious at the same time. I couldn’t care less that Chase is seeing someone else, I care that everyone else in the world seems to be having a thriving relationship with someone and then there’s me. I need my girls to get me out of this rut I’m in. Ten minutes later Steph comes walking through the door looking exhausted. “You good?” I ask her. “Hmm? Yeah. I’m great, why?” She asks. “You look like a zombie right now Steph,” I say. “Gee thanks, Mills,” she says rolling her eyes. I laugh, “That’s not what I meant.” “Yeah, yeah.” She says.“The girls should be here any minute, Mia can’t come tonight she’s on a date,” Steph says. “What?! With who?” I ask all excited but feeling sorry for myself at the same time. “I don’t know, some guy from onl
37 Days Darkness
POV XAs I lay in my bed, darkness is falling in the sky, darkness is falling on me. I’m in physical and mental pain. My throat hurts and my mouth is so dry, it hurts to swallow down water, it’s almost not even worth it to try. Julian hasn’t left the penthouse all day and although I am grateful for him, I want him to just leave already. I’m brought back to that thought of serenity I felt, I want it back. I now know what it was, I was gone. I didn’t mean to overdose, but god damn in a way I wish I didn’t wake up to this life again. I’m feeling lost, I lost Millie, I lost the mother I hoped for my whole life was a good person and was just scared of this harsh life in the mansion, but no, she left me for selfish reasons. I don’t know what the hell I'm doing with my business anymore and I can’t seem to get a grip on anything. For a minute I had no worries, no pain, no problems. I will never attempt to achieve that feeling on my own again but it’s something I'm currently longing fo
37 Days Self inflicted
POVJulian I don’t even make it halfway down the hall when I hear things from X’s room breaking. I expected this. I wanted to be the one to tell him because word travels fast in this house, half the house already knows about his overdose but no one is stupid enough to approach him, even if it were words of encouragement. X is a defensive person, he doesn’t want anyone taking pity on him and he doesn’t do well with kind words. X thrives off of the negative, he turns it into a challenge. X’s dad formed him this way, just as mine did but my dad had a percentage more of a heart than X’s. We were taught from adolescence to not let people in, to conceal our feelings and weaknesses, and to hide who we are as a person. In this business, you’re a lethal robot. Millie is breaking X away from that and he’s struggling beyond belief with it. I don’t trust X to have found this information out from someone else, he’s irrational when he’s upset, he doesn’t know how to handle when things are out o
37 Days The other
POVMillie I’m starting to feel bad about my outbursts of the evening. The tension in the suite is dense and it’s all because of me. I try to salvage the night by suggesting The Bachelor. They of course are down to watch but Steph is nonexistent, still in her room.I really get to thinking while we watch an episode, all of these women fighting for one man. What makes him so special? Sure, he’s handsome but when it comes down to it is he really worth it? Other than his good looks, which one of these girls is actually going to see him? To love him, to pick him up when he falls and pick her up in that same manner? When all is said and done, every single one of these girls but one will have their heart broken by this man. Why put yourself through that? All for the chance that he might choose you?And the one. The one that wins him over, what happens after that? He just dated dozens of women, made connections with them, had intimate moments with them while you were tucked warm in your b
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