Training

RONTHER 

I watched her leave, carrying that stubborn attitude of hers that I have grown to admire, I knew she had a point in what she last said, I knew if I continued to hide from what really happened that day that I might never really heal from it, I have thought about it, about healing but if I am entirely honest with myself that was not what i want, I believe that I should not allow myself to heal, I made a mistake, a costly one that made me lose everything that day and I do not have the right to allow myself heal, I did not want to heal, in-fact, I just wish that she would stop bringing it up already, her obsession with that part of my life was annoying 

Personally i have already found a way to suppress that incident so it does not affect me instead I use it to allow myself not feel, yes i know that it is not ideal and it has made me shutoff from my emotions and practically unapproachable to everyone around me but I was not com