DAWN
I sigh as I stare up at the house, my heart beating faster against my chest.
For some reason, I know that what's behind this door is my Aunt pacing up and down, an angry expression across her face as she fumes and wonders where the hell I've been.
I stare down at the phone in my hand. The men that kidnapped me had just given me and there were tones of missed calls from her.
She must have called my friends too because they also left some calls and texts. Even Kira texted me, but her text was detailed in a way that shows she's most definitely still angry at me.
What do I tell her right now when I walk through that door?
Where will I say I went to? What do I say I was doing?
I let out a breath, deciding just standing here and staring at the door isn't going to do me any justice so bracing up the confidence that I hope is still left in me, I push the door open after
DAWN"Okay guys, that's all for today. Catch you all later."The teacher says as the bell rings. She grabs her books and walks out of the class and just like it has always been, the class erupts in chattering as soon as she steps out of the door while I sigh before grabbing my bag and stuffing my books into it, my eyes consciously going around the room to search for Kira.She's sitting at the far end of the class, even farther away from me. She really means it when she says it's over, and she isn't going to speak to me until I tell her what's going on.It has been two days, and she hasn't even bother to speak to me, although the last two days were weekends, she's always at my place to spend some time with me, unfortunately she didn't come. Even when I had called her, she didn't pick my call, and I'm almost tempted to tell her.Oh, God!. I do want to tell her. I want to tell her everything, I want t
DAWNMy heart is thumping against my chest as I stare at him, he's staring right back at me, and everything else feels so small. I can feel the heat rising up around my cheeks, and I have no idea why. Maybe for the fact that he seems to be only staring at me or maybe for the fact that, I can't seem to take my eyes away from him either.What the hell is he doing here? Why the hell is he here? God! I hope he isn't here for what I think he is. He couldn't possibly be here for me, could he?There's no way in hell that's possible, why the hell would he be here for me but again, I don't think there's any other reason for him to be here, and he did say it yesterday that the discussion isn't over.*Oh em gee. I can't believe it's Ryder, Ryder Smith is fucking here! Right in our school, like what the fuck is he doing here? I don't even care, and I can't stop staring at him.The girls around me squeals, and
DAWNAm I making the right or the wrong choice? I have absolutely no idea, but right now, everyone's eyes is on me as I walk towards his car with Ryder trailing behind me. My friends are all staring at me, probably wondering what the fuck I'm doing, and I know I'm in for a whole load of questions when I see them again which I'm sure would be pretty soon.I still don't understand what's going on, and why it seems like everyone here knows exactly who he is, with the girls trying to touch him or get to him as we walk by, but the heavy huge men are blocking the way.I recognize one of them as the one that kidnapped me the last time, and others I don't even know.He keeps looking around as we walk towards the car as if he's scared of something, and that makes me feel uneasy nevertheless, I walk inside the car.So, making my decision. I thought about this.One, what will make a guy that
DAWN.It's only only when his soothings words keeps on coming, and his fingers drawls small circles around my back in an attempt to calm me down that I realize what I'm doing and almost as if a force acts against me, I move away from him as fast as possible. Furiously rubbing my thumb against my cheek, drying off my tears.Why the hell did I do that? Why the hell did I allow myself to become a sobbing mess in front of him and seem like a pathetic little girl, even though I know I am. I don't want to ever let anyone see me like that. Like this.Why the hell did I allow myself to seek solace from the one person who's the cause of my never ending pain and living nightmares."Are you okay?"He asks again, his voice softer than it has ever been, and my head snaps up to him as I glare at him through my eyes."Stay the fuck away from me!"I hiss, my heart thumping hard against my heart
DAWN.Okay so, maybe I just made an outrageous decision, not thinking about what will happen in my own life if I accept to help the asshole that's beside me right now.I wasn't thinking when he had told me everything, I only focused on the pain that came from everything that he told me. I focused on the one emotion that I'm used to, and I don't pray for others to get it too.I focused in the fact that I know what's like to lose your parents and I know what's like when you feel like you're the reason your parents died. The guilt that comes with it, the pain, the way it makes you feel so pathetic and secluded and like a monster. I know what it's like and that's why I accept this deal. Not just because he had lectured me on what been humane is, oh it's actually so far from that.“If you keep staring at me, I feel like you're going to boreholes into my head so will you please look away and focus on where you're going?”I hi
DAWNMy heart is throbbing against my chest with each second that ticks by with him confining me with his body, and his eyes on me, not diverting it away for even a second.“Will you like me to show you?”He mumbles again, and I wriggle my head which for some odd reasons he thinks its funny because he chuckles.“Why cupcake? You don't want me between your thighs like the last time? I can still remember the way you pleaded for it…”My stomach tightens, and I have no idea how I'm feeling right now.Actually I do, and it's hitting the asshole in front of me, and at the same time I can't stop my body from responding to his words.“I can still remember the way you held me so tighter to pull me closer to you like I was going to let go, I can remember the way you whimpered beneath me, and the way you had begged for more. For me to go deeper and drive you higher to your climax. I can remember the way
RYDERWith every other second that ticks by, I let out a whiff of my breath knowing that I'll have to go out very soon enough, and just like I've always done, just like it always happens. I will become someone else, someone that I love to be. Someone that one grown used to be.I gape at my knuckles, gazing as the black clasps wraps tightly around it, and I know that very soon, it will be blood spewing out of it.Blood of whoever is ready to face me out there. The blood of whoever is willing to take me on out there. The blood of my opponent, and I'll enjoy every last second of feeling it against my knuckles, having them at my mercy. I will enjoy every damn second if it because that's what I do, and that's who I am.Grabbing my bag off the bench, and dropping it next to my leg, I stare at the mirror before making my way out of the room. Each step that I take increasing my thirst for blood. For a fight that will leave
DAWNI wince slightly as the bright ray from the sun shines against my skin, hitting my eyes, and I let out a sigh before rolling to the other side of the bed. My eyes opening slowly on their own though I wish that they don't have to.I stare at the blank space in front of me as the memories of last night comes crashing down, memories of me walking out of school with my friends, me setting my eyes on Ryder, me leaving school with Ryder, me reading every single damn insult that every one of them seem to have piled up for me, been an emotional bitch in front of Ryder which I wish didn't have to happen before his eyes, Ryder bringing up the request once again, me finally accepting after realizing what he wanted it for, and then here I am, in the bed and in a room that I have no idea whom has been here before.After Ryder left last night which I'm glad happened because I finally had my own peace of mind, and my own privacy though