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Chapter 20 - Surprise In The Palm Of His Hand
He saw Asher’s eyes move down to his lips, then back to his eyes.
Cailen didn’t know what was happening anymore as he saw Asher’s adam’s apple move as if he was swallowing something.
Time seemed to stop when he suddenly felt the tip of Asher’s nose against his. He didn’t even know who moved and he can’t really hear anything anymore other than the pulse in his ears.
Cailen felt like he couldn't breath again, and not only because Asher might be squishing him, not that he actually minded that, but because of this feeling inside him.
It took his breath away, making his stomach flutter and his heart skip and…
What was he doing?
This was Asher.
He shouldn't be feeling this when he looks at Asher.
Asher was his friend, has been since he was thirteen. He shouldn't get that kind of reaction from him.
It was one thing to think he was fit when he to
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