Chapter 69 – Lance I wasn’t expecting the rest of the coming days for me to have a somewhat hectic schedule, not that I manifested it but I became busy. My usual routine before was just to go to my part time job at Fidelitea and serve some teas and coffees, and then after that I group up with my bandmates for our usual nightly gig. That was how my life went for the past five years and it’s basically stagnant ever since and it was never the progressive type of adult life. Everyone who thought I was going to be the most likely to succeed right after high school and college were all dead-ass wrong with that and I guess that’s one of the main reasons why I didn’t want to meet a lot of people from my past. The reality is that I don’t really have any plans on making any efforts to better my life and that was just it. Or at least that’s just how I was thinking, the mind set was very negative and nonprogressive then I suddenly remembered most of the conversations that I had with Yhannie. I kn
Chapter 70 – Lance “What? It’s your birthday?!!!” I scowled almost in shock at what was just revealed towards me. I was walking along the busy city streets and I had to quickly lower my voice to prevent catching so much attention from other people around me. I just remembered Jayler mentioning that his birthday is approaching but I guess it’s my own fault that I didn’t ask for the exact date when asking doesn’t really cost a thing. “Friday next week. Yup.” Jayler uttered and I could feel the lack of excitement gritting in his already crestfallen tone. I felt bad for him and if I could just hug and console him right at this very moment, I would do it. “For real?” I trailed in utter disbelief. It’s surely a total bummer to know that it’s his birthday next week when I have already some plans plotted for the rest of the coming week. It’s not like it’s easy for me to back out from the plans that I’m mostly needed to be a part of. Yhannie and I had a lot of things to do, plans to execute
Chapter 71 – Lance The Babylon Club was at a full house the moment we got inside but that’s not a surprising thing at all. It’s Friday and weekends are usually the time where people go out and have some little fun. I know all of that because being a part of the industry, I’ve been aware of when and what time do people starts flooding liquor houses and entertainment clubs. Thankfully, I’ve already made a reservation with the club that we don’t have to line up and wait before we could get inside. They prepared the most spacious couch and table for all of us and it was at the mezzanine area of the club overlooking everyone. Dominic and the rest wasted no time, they immediately ordered bottles of whiskey and vodka and I know the night is going to be long and wild. We began drinking constantly having a toast in mid-air while screaming Dominic’s name and his last day of freedom before he would tie the knots with Valentine and be owned by him forever. We aren’t even drunk yet but everyone
Chapter 72 – Jayler I miss Lance. I have been longing for him ever since the day we separated ways when we hanged out at the mall. I had a really great time with him and that moment with him watching the sunset was electrifying. I feel like I’ve found the right person for me the first time that I tried to open my heart for someone. It might feel very lucky for someone to have found that first the first time but that’s just how I feel about it. I have been eager to talk to him and just have casual conversation with him. I miss his smile and that hazel eyes that seem to speak to me every time I stare at it. Lance has been the safest person that I’ve ever known outside of the friends that I’ve made along my life. When I’m around him, I could be stripped self. I could be without filter or the constant act of being a straight guy. I could be gay around him and I don’t have to feel the urge to act normal, conform to what my parents view as normal. I don’t have to be tightly perfect and wel
Chapter 73 – Jayler When I finally opened the front door, I instantly saw a black sedan waiting at the side of the road. At first, I wasn’t sure if Lance was in there because I don’t remember him having a car. Then I thought maybe he called an Uber just to pick me up from the misery that I was in. The window slowly rolled down and my vision immediately recognized Lance’s face as his head popped out. He waved at me and the excitement that I’ve been feeling earlier just increased to a maximum level. I could feel my heart beating in my chest. I have been longing for this moment for several days and it feels so good to finally see him. I don’t even know how to thank my sister Joyce for setting this up. This was probably the best birthday gift that I received from her and I’m going to be grateful that she made some efforts just to make me happy. I thought everybody from the house had already forgotten about my birthday but my sister proved that she’s different. “Hey, Jayjay” I heard my s
Chapter 74 – Jayler “Jayler, Lance!!! Jayler, Lance!!! Jayler, Lance!!!” Everybody’s chanting my name along with Lance’s name making it pretty hard for me to say no. I’m used to this type of hyped up crowd where everybody’s drunk and they just want to have fun but it never felt like this. I have a few reservations on me mostly because I don’t know most of these people and while I consider myself as friendly, I’m only confident and comfortable around people that I’ve known for quite a long time. Yes, I’ve heard of Dominic and Yhannie from Lance himself but that’s not going to cut it. To be quite honest, I have done body shots before and it’s very intimate and sinful in a different type of way. I clearly don’t have the intention to pass on the body shot but I’m pretty shy to do it partly because I don’t think Lance would agree to it. He seemed like he doesn’t have a say to anything but I could read his mind. I have done body shots a few times before and it was fun and intimate and very
Chapter 75 – Lance I was feeling superbly ecstatic deep down inside when I heard Jayler said yes to making us official. My inner self wanted to scream out and shout out the absolute fact that I’m no longer single and that I’ve finally found someone who’s really going to take care of my heart as if it’s the most fragile thing in the world. The long search of finding someone who would truly love me for who I am was finally over. I’m admitting the fact that I don’t really planned on making a proposal for me and Jayler to make this thing between us official but it happened. It was just something that came into my head and my heart right in the moment that I’m staring at him in the eyes. When I stared at Jayler’s eyes, I saw nothing but the purest soul that I’ve ever met in my entire life aside from the existence of my very own foster parents. I saw how he truly wanted me, I saw how he wants to make me feel good in every possible way, I saw how he doesn’t plan on hurting me. Everything fla
Chapter 76 – Lance I have decided to pay my mom a visit today. I don’t know what dawned over me but I woke up earlier this morning feeling like the ever growing guilt and longing have already crunched me down all the way to my spine. I suddenly had this utter feeling of wanting to see and hug the woman who raised me with genuine and unconditional love even though I didn’t come out directly from her own womb. I know I wasn’t a bad and ungrateful son and that she didn’t raise me to be either one. She taught and raised me to be grateful and kind and thoughtful no matter what and I am forever thankful of having her as my mother. I have proven all of that time and time up until I reached college when everything spiraled down. I didn’t know that I would end up to be this ungrateful being and the feeling had already caught up to me. It’s been years since the last time she saw me and I though this time would be the best time to come home and see her. I’m fully aware of the underlying fact th