Ring
"Your mother called," Miya showed me her phone. I raised my brow at her. "You're coming to the dinner later? With your family and the Monteserio's?"
Monteserio.
I shook my head. There's no way in hell that I will dine with that f-cking family.
"Tell her I'm busy." I coldly said. Miya doubtfully looked at me. I know she is confused as to why I declined the invitation.
"Are you sure?" She taunted with a grimace on her face. Clearly not sure of what I said. She knows that I am slave to my own parents.
I sighed and nodded before lying on my bed. I took a break for work. I don't know how long it should be, but I know that this would really take longer. Or I can't even call this a break. I just want to rest.
"It's your Mom, Trin." Miya said while looking at me. I just raised my brow again. And if it's Mom? What should I do? Nothing. I don't want to face any of them because I don't want to be more stressed.
They will invite me for dinner and what? Embarrass me in front of everyone. They will roast me to death. They will definitely talk about how I am so different from my twin, how am I a huge disappointment to everyone and such. I'm sick of listening to the same old song. If they try to play it again, better not when I'm around.
If I was the old me, I would have wanted to have dinner with them because I wanted to make them 'proud'. Well, that was it. Apparently it's different now because I'm tired. I'm tired of pleasing other people. I'm tired of trying so hard to be noticed by them, and hoping that they'll be able to see my achievements and all. I'm tired. This time, this is for real. I don't want to be involved with them. I am completely shutting them down. I won't recognize any family especially that from the very beginning, they didn't consider me as a part of them, their family. I was the unwanted, and now I refuse to be wanted. Let them take care of their own lives and talk shit about it. For all I care.
"Why the f-ck are you crying?!" Miya rushed to my side. She quickly inspected my whole body as if she was looking for something that hurted me to be crying like this.
Stupid.
My heart hurts. No one can see how shattered my heart is right now because I am too good at playing pretend.
"Beautrin, what the f-ck?!" Miya shouted loudly as I began to sob while holding the hemn of her shirt tightly like my life depends on it.
"It hurts. It hurts so much Miya..." I cried.
Miya softened her gaze and hugged me. She gently caressed my back. "Shush, where does it hurt? Who hurt our Trin, hmm?" She said softly as she continued stroking my hair.
"I-I want to go there..." I whispered painfully. I want to be with my family. I want to feel them, I want to feel that they're on my side. It's just... It's just that I'm sick too. So sick to be with them.. But I am sicker to assume that they'll be able to accept me as part of them.
"Then, why don't you go, hm?" Miya asked gently.
"B-because it hurts... M-my heart hurts. T-they hurt me... M-my heart hurts whenever I see them, but I still want to be with them even though I'm hurting and breaking..." I sobbed. I heard Miya sighed while hugging me.
She knows how bad my relationship is with my family. She knows that for years, I was living not for myself, but to make them proud. I pursued modeling because that is what my heart wants. My parents told Beatriz that she should follow and pursue what her heart desires. Beatriz became an engineer and I became a model. The most paid and a famous one in the country. But they...
They don't like my career...at all.
They weren't very supportive of me since then. But I never planted any jealousy and anger towards my twin. I was never angry at her. I love her even though...she doesn't love me as much as I do to her.
My family wanted me to quit and pursue medicine. But I don't want that! That is not what my heart desires so why...why will I follow that?
My whole life, I devoted it to nothing but on making them proud. Make them feel that I choose the right one, the right path for myself. But everytime we meet with the whole family, they never fail to make me feel like I don't belong at all. They always talk about how dissapointed they were at what I've chosen myself to be into, but we never talked about how bad and biased they are when it comes to me.
Sometimes, I do think that maybe... I might be adopted? Because why would they destroy me? Their own blood, right?
"Hush now, Trin. They don't deserve your tears, please... Hold on..." I heard the tremor in her voice as she spoke so I cried even more.
"Beautrin...shall I bring Tammy here?" she asked gently but I shook my head.
I have other plans for tonight. I want to forget everything for a while.
***
"Put your hands up in the air, everybody!!!"
I smirked when I saw Tamia dancing crazily on the dance floor. Along with her was Miya who was constantly pulling Tamia towards our table but the woman didn't want to.
I drank the glass of pineapple juice straight away.
All I want right now is to get drunk and completely forget everything for a while. I want to feel like I am living for myself and not for everyone else.
But how am I going to do that when I don't even feel like drinking something alcoholic! This is so frustrating! I want to get drunk but I am stuck with this stupid pineapple juice!
I snorted bitterly.
I looked at the bottle of three vodkas. Two are lying down while the other is still standing and only half full.
I took my glass before pouring some with it. I took a picture of the bottle while my glass was in my hand.
Drunk in Love. I captioned it on my I*******m story. I browsed on my feeds and I stumbled upon my twin sister's i*******m post. It was posted an hour ago.
The first photo was her hands...
My lips parted and swiped some more. My tears started to blur my sight but still continue to look for the other photos she posted.
The second one shattered my heart.
It was a photo of her hands again, but with a ring on her ring finger.
Bind by God and destiny. Will stay forever 'til eternity. I'm engaged!
The caption on her post made me sob.
And the last one was a photo of her and...Claus. He was hugging her from the back, face buried on her neck while she was proudly showing her hand with a ring.
And before I know it...
I broke down again. God! How long will I have to endure? I am so tired. Please, let me rest.
TruthBefore the two, Tammy and Miya, could return to our table, I immediately fixed myself. I plastered my smile while they were approaching. The two are still glaring at each other which made me laugh a little bit. "My God, Tamia! She looks like a fool while dancing in front! Not even on beat. It's embarrassing." Miya said with a frown on her face before sitting next to me."Shut up. You're trying your hard in pretending that you're demure, but it's obvious from your face that you're not. It's a bar, so I'm probably going to dance. And no one should care whether I'm on the beat or not." Tamia took a sip of the vodka she was holding. I just shook my head, a small smile on my lips is clear. Seeing both of them makes me happy. They are one of my allies who truly love and care for me. They were there when I needed them the most. They are here, by my side, when the world's turning its back against me. They are the ones who stayed. And seeing them, with me, makes my heart warm. I wasn'
Shoot"I don't know what's happening to you anymore, Beautrin! Your twin wanted you to join us for dinner but you keep on declining! Don't embarrass us with the Monteserios, Beautrin!"Early in the morning and Mom's call immediately ruined my day."Get it right Beautrin! We didn't raise you to be rude!" I bit my lower lip, slightly rolling my eyes heavenwards. Mom is really confident in saying that they didn't raise me to be rude, when they weren't there when I was growing up in the first place. I raised myself! That's the right thing to say because from the very beginning, they didn't give me any attention unless it's Beatriz."I'm busy." I coldly promise. I yawned before getting out of bed."Busy!" she scoffed on the other line. I can almost see how disgusted her looks are right now. "Busy with what?! With your stupid work?!"Stupid. Wow. Easy for her to say that I've chosen something stupid. Am I really their child?When I couldn't stand her scolding voice, I immediately hung up. I
Party"Shot!"Instead of going straight to the coffee shop, we ended up inside a bar. It's called Catastrophe. This is a place where the rich people usually go. Most of the customers here are elites and those who have a say in the society. Let's say a name. A high profiled name. "Why don't you drink?" Fabio gave me the glass with just a drink but I shook my head. "You don't drink?" he slightly raised his brow at me. He was sitting on my left while Miya was on my right. We are facing the Coleridge brothers, the owner of Devil's Glass, the liquor that I am currently modeling with Xander, Brandon, and Fabio. Xander and Brandon aren't here. They said they had something to do now so they didn't come with us."I drink, but just not now. I don't feel like doing it right now." I said with a smile. Fabio is actually a gentleman. Well, he's a little bit flirty but tolerable. I think that it's just really his nature. It's his thing. Fabio's a bit tanned and muscular. His muscles are almost bu
Dinner"I hope you feel guilty for rejecting your sister several times. She wanted you to be here for dinner and you what? Continue to reject her.""What will be my role be at the dinner, Mom, and why do I need to be there? What? To embarrass me?""You ungrateful child! Your sister is not like that! Go or-"I cut the call before turning my phone off.It's eleven in the morning, I just woke up and I can hear my good mother's voice again. Like, what the hell? Can't they let me rest for a day?I sighed deeply.Last night was what I call a nightmare. I don't want to remember all the things that Claus said because my heart hurts so much. It's like my heart is being torn apart again and again by hearing those words from his mouth. I don't even want to recall it.I was crying the whole night. It was almost morning when I completely fell asleep. I don't even want to look at myself in the mirror because I expected my fac
Help"Mother Delia!" I screamed so loud when I got inside. After a while, someone came out from the kitchen. Her eyes widened as she hurriedly walked towards me. I met her halfway before hugging her."Oh... My daughter grew up beautifully..." her soft voice made me close my eyes as I hugged her so tight. I kissed the top of her hair, smelling her in the process.I miss her. I miss my home..."I miss you, Momma..." I whispered softly. I smiled a little when I felt her hug tightening around me. After a while I heard her sniffed which surprised me. I broke our hug before looking at her. She was already crying. I wiped her tears while stopping mine from falling too. Gosh!"My daughter...I miss you...""Oh gosh..." I hugged her again and kissed her head several times."I really miss my Momma too..." my mouth trembled as I spoke. I was on the verge of crying too. My chest started to tighten but I am very happy. I want to regret why I left her here. I wish I had forced her to come with me so
RegretBut do I have any choice?No."Trin! What wedding dress should I choose?!" I watched my sister as she excitedly showed me the brochure of the wedding dresses. Being here...is killing me.It's painful. What I'm doing is painful but it's okay. I can only be with my sister sometimes, will I refuse this opportunity?I sighed before smiling at her."You should choose something brighter, Triz. It will suit you better." Of course. If she's the light, then I'm the darkness. We're completely opposite. We didn't spend a lot of time together when we were kids because...I avoided her. The reason? It's mom and dad, of course. They told me not to talk to Beatriz too much because she might be influenced. I don't know what kind of influence they were talking about but as I got older, I slowly understood what they meant.The young me was confused b
Trauma"What the hell?! What happened to you?!"Miya was hysterical when she fetched me. Claus left me crying inside the car. Someone picked him up and that's just it. He left me...alone...crying.I don't think that I can even drive in my state so I called Miya. The service van took her here, which immediately left after sending Miya here."Beautrin..." she held my face and tried to wipe my tears but they were still dripping. It just won't stop falling! I've been trying! I've been trying so hard to contain my tears but it just won't budge.I could see Miya's face with intense sadness as she looked at my whole face. I know. I know that my face shows how hurt and broken I am right now. There are no enough words to describe what I am feeling right now. This is just too much for me to handle."M-Mi..." I cried louder. She did nothing else but
Consequences"I have to tell him... I have to tell him... I have to tell him..." That's what I said over and over again when I woke up the next morning inside my condo. I am not sure, and I don't know how he will react on this. But I wish...I am wishing that he'll believe me now. Because honestly, I don't know what to do. I wanna raise the kid alone so bad but...but what if those people come back and hurt me again? What if they take my child away from me again?!No!This is not about me anymore! But also for my unborn child. I have to protect my child...our child. Together. Claus and I will do it together! His child needs him. We need him...I-I can't be alone because I'm scared! I am afraid not only for myself but also for my child...our child.I lazily took a bath before dressing myself up. When I was satisfied with my look, I immediately left the room."Trin...?" Miya immediately noticed me. She was sitting in the living room and it looked like she was talking to someone on her c