Flashback:"How much did this cost you, Ale?" I asked."That doesn't matter.""Tell me, I need to know if I could get my finger cut off for wearing this.""Seventy thousand dollars.""Claudia, please react," I am brought back to reality by the voice of my friend, who has placed her hands on either side of my face, causing me to focus my eyes on her. "Doll, breathe."She is with a noticeable expression of concern on her face.The moment her arms wrap around me, unable to contain it, tears spill from my eyes running down my cheeks, and the tightness in my chest increases, this can't be true."Clau, hey you can't let him get to you anymore," she says, trying to remove all traces of the crying covering my face.""I..." I try to say, but I find it hard to speak. "I'm sorry, I just can't."I try to continue, but my breath catches. I can't finish understanding this."Why?," I ask myself after remembering. "Why did he have to do all this to me? I can't take this whole situation anymore," I mu
I walk down the dark hallway until I get back to the part of the club where all the people are dancing or drinking.I'm about to head towards the bar to get some alcohol, but before I get there I look at a guy holding a bottle of whiskey in his hands. I walk up to him and without thinking, I snatch the drink from him."Hey! What's wrong with you, asshole?" he yells, but shuts up abruptly as I pull out a wad of hundred dollar bills and throw them at his chest.I have no idea how much money was going in there, but I don't care either. All I want to do is get out of here, so I head for the exit in a hurry in search of my car."Where's my car?" I ask one of the guards at the entrance."In a moment the valet will bring it to you, sir," he let me know.I enter the vehicle and start it, speeding out of there.Once I get on the highway, I uncork the bottle of whiskey I have with me, and in one go I put it in my mouth, allowing myself to feel the bitter liquid burning my throat.With each sip
I stand in my place, not quite taking in what she has told me. My gaze remains lost, and her recent words are repeated over and over again.She's right, I couldn't respond because she spoke the truth. And the phrases that made me feel like the biggest piece of garbage come to mind."I hate him," I hear her mangled voice exclaim, after I confessed to her what happened."You just fucked up her life and sunk her in your shit.""You think she deserves to be with someone like you? An alcoholic and drug addict who isn't even capable of protecting her.""And I bet you even if you died right now none of them would be around."She 's right. It wouldn't matter to anyone, is all I can think and without further ado I leave the apartment through the front door, to run with difficulty and blurred vision up the stairs.My heart seems to feel imprisoned in my chest, my breathing feels heavy, and the voices in my mind torment me.No one would care, she will never forgive me. She'll be happy. I'm just
Upon entering the bedroom, the defiant look of the person lying on the bed did not go unnoticed, however, I ignored her and walked straight to the closet to take out some clothes and place them in a small suitcase."Where do you think you're going?" she asks upon seeing me with the luggage. "Don't tell me you're planning to go on a trip now too and leave me lying here. ¡Answer me where you're going!""To move me to another fucking room, so stop fucking around!""Why is that? If this is supposed to be our room? Since I got here you haven't slept a single day with me, Alessandro.""I told you the reason long ago, so leave me the fuck alone," I walk out of there, slamming the door.I've had it up to here with this, with her. It's just that if I could leave, I'd travel to the end of the world, just so I don't have to listen to her.As I open the room that is only a few steps away from the one I just left, her memory invades me again. I go inside, closing the door behind me and turning on
My eyelids feel heavy, my throat is dry and the incessant beeping of a machine makes me want to wake up.I open my eyes and the first thing I see is the white color of the walls of the place where I am. I look to the side and realize that the sound is coming from the heart rate monitor to which I am connected.Damn, I need water.Just as I'm trying to pull myself up from the stretcher I'm lying on, I notice how the door to the room opens and a young woman in a nurse's uniform enters, and when she sees me, gives me a smile."I see you're awake," she says, approaching me."I'm thirsty," I reply with difficulty."Well, I'll give you some water," he says, taking the jar sitting on the small table."I can," I say when I see her bring the container to my mouth."I know, but I'm going to help you," she says to finally give me a drink of the liquid that cools my throat."Thank you.""You're welcome," she replies, giving me a kind smile."Can I ask you...how long have I been here?""Not long,
"Are you Claudia Rodriguez?" he asks puzzled, focusing his gaze from the paper in his hand to me."And you are the psychotherapist Matt Nolan?" I question, very confused."You answer first," he asks me."Yes, obviously I am, that's why I'm here," I clarify, not getting over my astonishment."Well, well, who knew Nurse Rodriguez's daughter was the girl who wished I'd choke on a wine," he retorts, taking a seat across from me.5"And who knew a renowned psychotherapist would turn out to be a shoplifter," I say, at which point he bursts out laughing, flashing a dazzling smile."It's not my fault you didn't take the bottle first, Miss Rodriguez," he expresses, bringing a hand to his chin with a smile forming on his lips."You snatched it from me before you did.""Next time be quicker," he says with a sneer."You mean you're admitting what you did?" I face him, because it was something that didn't happen when we were in the supermarket."No, I just claimed I'm faster than you.""Whatever,"
Claudia's POVI see the time on the clock and I become alert as I realize that I have to be ready in less than five minutes or else I'll be late.I look at myself for a few seconds in the mirror, trying to make up my mind and finally I choose to leave my hair loose, au naturel. I think it's time to step out of my comfort zone and look a little different.Today for the first time, after how horrible I've felt over the past few months, I genuinely feel good. It's been two months since my first consultation with Dr. Nolan, and I can tell you that, if I have made one good decision in my life, it has been to accept to go to therapy.If it wasn't for his help, I don't know what would have become of me, or at least I don't know if I would have been able to get out of that cave full of darkness, sadness and desolation that I was living in.Today, standing here in front of the mirror, for the first time in my life I realize what an incredible, beautiful, phenomenal, valuable, capable, intellige
My parents are not at home, as they were at work and will not be back until later.I need to find a job as soon as possible. I have no idea where I will be able to get one, but I will start sending papers. I hadn't wanted to assimilate yet, but I have to get used to the idea that I will definitely settle down here in Madrid.I thought Italy would be my home forever, but then all that illusion vanished. Now thinking about that country means nothing more than remembering those painful events, and having to refuse the idea that my dream could not be fulfilled.I've been craving something sweet, and besides, it's been a while since I've made a dessert by myself. I take all the ingredients out of the cupboard, and prepare the rice pudding.I pour a good amount on a plate, and just as I'm about to put it in the fridge to cool it down, I hear the sound of cool down a bit, I hear the doorbell ring. When I open the door, I'm pleasantly surprised to see that Alexis is here."Alexis," I say wit