I'm on the road. my editor was sick, but everything should be fixed now. we had fun yesterday, despite a lot of rain. we're on our way back, but it's still raining, so it takes longer than usual, unfortunately. what do you think of Emmy’s parents? I named her dad after my sister's ex lol.
Isaac’s pov What had started awkward turned into a beautiful day. I had made Emmy cum multiple times, and it felt like we were really moving forward. She said she liked me, and while it doesn’t sound like much. To me, it meant everything. It was like we were starting over. Just to random people that happened to be mates that were getting to know each other. I knew Lena meant well, but her words set Emmy off, but at least she was allowing herself to feel them. For a while, until the mask went back up and “everything was fine.” None of this was fine. How I wish I could see inside Emmy’s head and be there to counter all her negative thoughts. ‘Then mark her.’ Linus said, but after what Emmy went through, marking should be her choice. We walked towards my grandparents office together, and I felt Emmy tense. Everything here was a trigger for her, and I wish we would have never come here. ‘But if we didn't, she would still be living with your mothers, and you’d be in the packhouse, mi
Airk’s pov Argo had told me he spoke to Isaac yesterday, and it reminded me how much I had been focused on my own small circle of people. Brax and Argo were the only people I really let in and trusted. Even Elora and Mila I kept at a safe distance. It wasn’t so much by choice as by necessity. I didn’t have the energy to spend on others. Brax and Argo were both so familiar to me that it was easy to be around them. But even with them, I held some of my feelings in. It was scary to fully love someone when someone who was meant to be my one true love had hurt me so badly. But now that Brax and I were marked and I had forgiven Jace, I felt like I had more room in my mind for others. ‘You know we’re not totally fixed, right?’ Kael said inside my head. Of course, I knew we weren’t fixed. I still had things that triggered me; I could still get very angry or scared. I still had nightmares and flashbacks. But now, I had Brax, my big teddy bear, to help me relax. ‘And he’s so good at it,’
Emmy’s pov “Are you okay?” Isaac asked before he answered his own question. “Of course you’re not.” “Do you want to talk about it, just me and you?” he asked instead. I shook my head, “let’s just go to dinner.” “We can have dinner outside the packhouse if you like." Isaac offered, but that would mean meeting people. Who knew if any of them had the same reaction to me as Lena did? When I used to have dinner here, it was mostly me, the Alpha, and the Beta. Except for that time when Airk was here. Goddess, how I loved that first week. Alpha Jace was barely around in the beginning, and I would just stay in my room and relax. I wished it would stay like that forever, where my alpha would forget about me and focus his attention elsewhere. Although the thought of not serving the alpha made me feel guilty, if it was his choice, then it wouldn’t count, right? If he didn’t want me, then there was nothing to be done about it. I quickly learned that these thoughts would come to punish me.
Isaac’s pov Emmy is refusing to share her feelings with me, and since I promised not to cross her boundaries and force her to do anything, I am stuck waiting for her to open up. Her nightmares are becoming more frequent, and honestly, she looks unhappy. I don’t know what to do, besides being by her side as much as I can. “Do you think you can handle stepping inside Alpha Jace’s old office?” Grandma asked, looking at Emmy. She nodded, while I shook my head at the same time. It wasn’t a good idea. “Why does she need to go inside there?” I asked. “We’ve moved all of the files out of there. A lot was destroyed in the attack, but some we could still use. Jace had cameras everywhere, and I hope that being in the room might make Emmy remember something.” “I wasn’t in there a lot, only to pass through to the other room.” We all knew what room she meant—the room Airk was being held in. “And what could you really gain from that knowledge?” Grandpa Os sighed, probably annoyed with my q
Emmy’s pov ‘You have to tell them.’ Meave commanded me inside my head. ‘But they will hate me.’ ‘You heard former Alpha Osiris. That man helped you, and his family needs peace. You need to help him now, Emmeline.’ “Alpha Jace killed him, and I buried him in the garden,” I whispered, hoping they wouldn’t hear me, but knowing what everyone’s advanced hearing means, that could never happen. Isaac let go of my hand. Of course he did. Who would want to hold hands with someone like me? But then he surprised me and gave me a hug instead. “Is this the man you were talking about with Airk?” I nodded against his chest. “Do you think you can show us where you buried him?” Former Alpha Osiris asked, sounding a lot less scary than before. “Yes, former Alpha Osiris. I know exactly where he is buried.” How could I have forgotten? I dug the shallow crave myself. I had chosen an area where you could see the moon, hoping the Moon Goddess would protect him. “Emmy, can you tell us what happened?
Isaac’s pov The moment Emmy started to gag, I instinctively grabbed her hair. Thankfully, I was behind her and not in front like I had been a moment ago. Instead, my grandpa had his shoes ruined. “I’m so sorry!” Emmy said, wiping her mouth clean with her sleeve. “Okay, that’s enough for today.” Grandpa Os said, staring at his shoes. “Let’s both get cleaned up, and we’ll talk about everything else later.” Emmy nodded as she bowed her head in submission. “I apologize, Former Alpha Osiris.” “Now, just because you’ve puked on my shoes doesn’t mean you can’t still call my grandpa. If anything, it probably made us even closer.” Grandpa joked as he gave me a wink. I took Emmy out of their office, taking her back to our room. Emmy still had her head down, and I walked us to the bathroom. “You should take a shower.” “Okay.” “Do you want me to help you?” I offered, and Emmy nodded her head. First, I removed her clothing, and then I walked her to the bathroom, holding my mate’s hand.
Emmy’s pov My hand started shaking. And my right leg wouldn't stop shaking. It was like I couldn’t stand still, but I knew I had to do this. So why did everything inside of me want to run away? The moment Isaac squeezed my hand, I felt a bit better. At least that hand wasn’t shaking anymore. I put out my other hand, watching my fingers tremble with fear. ‘You can do it,’ Isaac’s voice said inside my head. It wasn’t the question of whether I could or couldn’t tell Lena. The question was if I could handle her response. “Hi Emmeline and Isaac, You wanted to see me. I’m so sorry for last time; I truly didn’t mean to offend you. I was just so happy to have a larger room, and I always thought about what I would say to you once I got the chance, and well, I ruined it.” “It wasn’t your fault.” I clarified. “It’s not why I asked you to come here.” Goddess, I had practiced this conversation in my mind countless times now, but it was like every thought had left my mind. Grandpa Os and Gra
hi,I've been having a tough week and needed a break. but I will try to write this weekend or Monday at the latest.I'm okay, just dealing with some stuff that makes it hard to concentrate. Kids are good, boyfriend too. So, nothing too serious. Maybe in time, I'll share more of what's been happening. (Once everything is settled) But for now, just know I'll do my best to go back to normal starting next Monday. I also applied for a contract for that new story 2 weeks ago, but I am still waiting for goodnovel's approval. (For those wondering what happened to that idea)Thank you for your concern and patience.Ik hou van jullie. (Love you)Naomi. p.s. too lazy to throw this through spell check program, so sorry in advance for any mistakes.