Frozen.

It has been a week since I reverted back to my old sense. Not fully though, I may be dressing like the old me, however, I am not going to be as reckless as I was. Will I party yes, but, if I find my mate, I am not going to toss his feelings around. That was a mistake I made with Damien, I knew he was claiming me, and I was a fool for not basking in it like any other girl would. Looking back now, why did I want to “play the field” with an Alpha that I had always loved and wanted? That is why it hurt so much to leave him in the beginning. That is why there was pain when I thought about him or thought about moving on. It is the only scenario I can think of, somewhere deep inside knew that I had always been meant for him, and it was trying to stop me from being a slut. I had Tyson but, I somehow always knew Damien was meant for me, I was just to selfish to accept it.

The pain in my heart when I think of him does not diminish. I will myself to stop myself from thinking of him. As much as