Chapter 31

***POV: Amara***

I go in the house quietly. I think about getting in the shower, but I can quiet my mind long enough to get moving in that direction. As the days have passed, I have come to the realization that Trent was just comfortable for me. I wasn’t actually in love with him. There isn’t much there to love if I am honest with myself. I think I was trying to convince myself that there was more to him than is actually there. He did hurt me though. But what stung more was the betrayal. His lies about his feelings for me and yet he still fucked Heather. Who knows how long that has been going on and how many times. Frankly. They deserve each other.

The feeling of loss that I have for the child I was carrying is still there, but the ache gets milder every day. I don’t think I will ever get over that completely. The life of that kid would have been a mess with Trent and I as it’s parents, that’s for sure. So why, if I can rationalize all of this, can my head not allow my heart to let Co