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I want to cut all of ties that I have here in the Philippines, dahil magbabagong buhay ako sa states. Maybe this place was not for me, at kung babalik man ako, hindi para maging masaya, dahil babalikan ko ang mga taong sumira ng buhay ko.

I slept last night, Papa is calling me and I said that I am on my way home now, nakain ako at nasa harapan ko si Marshall na pinagluto ako ng soup.

He stayed at my side yesterday, he took care of me and I feel uncomfortable. Maybe because I am not okay at hindi ako sanay na nakikita ng ibang tao ang panahon na mahina ako, I start having a trust issue, what if he will use that against me.

Hindi ko pa nakakalimutan ang nangyare sa amin ni Marshall, how he damaged my life at that time, kung papaano nawala ang tiwala ko sa kanya. Kaya it makes me wonder, why he is there at the time na nasa bar ako, I didn’t ask him last night, dahil wala akong gana na makipag talo.

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