you'll always have me

Emma's pov

Waking up to Alex's handsome face was without a doubt one of the best moments of my life. Unfortunately for me the moment quickly turned to one of embarrassment and shame. Why the fuck did I climb on top of him in my sleep? The minute I realised what I had done I could hear Jay's voice in my head, the memories flooded my mind so quickly that I felt sick and I needed to get off Alex before he thought the same, I couldn't handle that.

Of course, this is Alex and he wouldn't allow me to wallow in my self-hatred and for that I am grateful, I hate how quickly I can allow my emotions to overtake me, how quick I allow Jay to still control me even when he's dead.

The craziest thing is how well Alex knows me already, how he knows what I want or need without me saying a word, how he always knows all the right things to say or even that he knows when I need pushing to do something or to talk about something, hell most of the time he knows what I need even bef