Loretta returns to her room around five in the morning. We wouldn't have our first class on this post"party day, even though she ideally wouldn't have seen me and Ethan like this. Half naked and cuddled, lying in the same bed. A giant question mark was drawn on her face. Surely, I was some kind of hopeless piranha even on her levels, in her head, of course. In my conception, I was and am just a free woman.Free of labels, free of the need to explain myself, giving satisfaction to one or another, free even of prejudices.But she came in without saying anything, just grabbed some clothes to get ready in the bathroom. She saw that I saw her, so I thought I had to get Ethan out of here before she even got back to her room." Come on, wake up, Ethan. " I move him as soon as Loretta closes the door. " Huh? What? He wakes up slowly, still trying to locate himself." You gotta get yourself home, come on. " There, okay, okay. He gets up, still a little confused, gathers his clothes and in l
With no answers, Max shuts me up with a kiss. He smells of sweat, tobacco, and alcohol. His attitude is consistent with his slightly altered state. Apparently while I was spending the night with Ethan in the bedroom, he had continued partying and had a few, or several, drinks. " Stop playing with me, okay? " he says, finally, after taking my breath away with his intense beer"flavored kiss. " I can't tell who is playing with whom." I think I'm going crazy, this has never happened to me before, with any student... " He brings his hand to his forehead, in a second of sobriety. " Then we are both crazy, because as far as I remember I have never even kissed a teacher before. We stared at each other in silence for a while, reflecting on what we were doing. A movie flashed through my mind. We didn't know where we were going with this. We couldn't even explain how it had started, or why it had started. The only thing I was sure of was that I wanted to continue this adventure that still h
Before she could answer, a movie flashed through my mind about the moment Peter and I first met. " Peter? Like Peter Parker?I had thought he was cute the first day, but so much had happened since then. At least now, I no longer saw myself in this position of being Peter's candidate for a boyfriend. I saw him more as a friend, almost a brother..." Do you really want to know? It happened. And it was a lot, baby! " Loretta finally confessed, snapping me out of my reverie. She was clearly excited about the news, to the point of infecting me with her happiness." Oh, tell me about it. How did it go? I want details! " Oh, sordid details, please don't! " she says, finishing her lipstick. Only she herself would not neglect her lipstick to go to class, so early in the morning. ". No, I won't. Tell me! You know all about me and my fumbles..." Wait, fumbles? I wouldn't put it that way... " Adventures? " I say, smiling, naughty. " All right, I'll tell you... but... " she says, in a whisp
The class went about as close to normal as you could consider normal, if you consider that I was in a notorious anxiety crisis the whole time. Every time Stephen looked in my direction, I tried to disguise my discomfort. I looked away, poked Loretta, contracted my leg muscles involuntarily in the motion of closing them. My mind wandered to places far away from verbs, pronouns, nouns.I think that if I had a surprise test today, I would get a zero. I don't think so, I'm sure." Hey, wake up. Class is over. " Now Loretta was nudging me, hurrying us to go. I looked one last time in Stephen's direction, I wanted to make sure I wasn't going crazy, or that there really was a different atmosphere in this class. No other way. When I did, he looked back at me at the same moment and then turned away, trying to disguise it by coughing, as if he were scraping his throat. " See you next week, guys. " He concluded.Next week? That long?" I don't know what you're getting at, Aria. Are you going t
" But you're right, he really is hot. There wasn't anyone who didn't notice. - Loretta concludes, biting her lower lip." Is that so, Loretta? And Peter was right by your side, behave yourself, okay! - I imply." Here, ladies. Natural juice, no sugar for you and little sugar for you. - Klaus delivers with his usual kindness, like a programmed robot." Do they open part-time positions to work here? - Whisper to Loretta."Why are you interested?" I don't know, it seems relaxed working here, Klaus always seems to be in a good mood. Besides, at some point I'm going to need to become more independent of the money sent by my father..." Got it. And you've always been like this?" Like this?" Half crazy, half nerd, half nymphomaniac... - She says and starts laughing." I don't consider myself any of that. - I say, just before drinking some of my juice." Swear? Sometimes it's hard for us to have a more realistic notion of ourselves. Philosophy explains. But those who are outside see better
" So you can start, I'm all ears. I love hearing about your adventures. “ Mellanie sits on the bed, excited.I make an expression as if to say “Really? We haven't even brushed our teeth yet." But Loretta is happy to see you and her tongue itches to update you." Speaking of adventures, you're looking at a much more daring girl than me and you combined. In a week, she surpassed us. - Loretta says, provocatively, totally ignoring my presence.Mellanie opens her mouth in a big O in mock puzzlement, and then they both burst out laughing."Be more specific Lori, what do you mean by that?I roll my eyes and before they continue this game of talking about it in front of me, as if I were invisible, I join the conversation too." You mean I'm a free woman and a kisser, that's it! I don't see a crime in that, do you? - I question, directing the question to Mellanie." Of course not, but what you are not telling me, are the details that matter most! - She insists.I look at Loretta as if asking
"Shall we go to the library?” Peter approaches me in the hallway at the end of one of the classes."Ahn... Okay, it could be.” I answer, looking around, a little confused."I need to talk to you, alone. - He says, in a firm and convincing voice. I don't remember seeing him so serious."Fine. Is there a problem, Peter?" It's not really a problem... It's nothing serious. But I wanted to talk soon, and alone. - He reinforces.Loretta and Mellanie are on another floor of the building, in an extra class and in a different grade than us freshmen, so it wasn't difficult to follow Peter to the library without them, considering that the last few days we've only been hanging out together.Luckily, the space was practically empty. The huge library was perhaps the quietest and most private place on the entire campus. At this time, close to lunchtime, it was even emptier, with a maximum of four students, reading or studying." Here we are. You can talk - I ask, smiling lightly and gently." I don
I leave the library with my thoughts still scattered, trying to come up with a way to fix something that wasn't even my fault after all.In the corridor, towards the exit and on the way to the republic, Loretta leaves one of the classrooms, her extra class had ended less than a minute ago." Aria, what a coincidence to find you here! - She calls me, making me jump." Coincidence? Um... why?" Can we go to the cafeteria? I'm hungry and I have a good gossip to tell you.I clear my throat lightly and say yes, no problem. Apparently, she had no idea what I had just learned from Peter." Ready, speak! - I ask, feigning custom and animation."It's about Peter!I widen my eyes, my heart stops for two seconds."What happened? - I ask, trying my best to hide it." He texted me just now, I was in class and I only saw him after class ended. He says he wants to talk to me later today, in the cafeteria. What do you think it could be?My hands start to sweat. All I want is to piss off Loretta. It w