*** Taking my hand empty hand that's not holding my hoodie and bottle, Zayne turns me and we begin walking again. “When I first met you, I could barely sense the wolf. I knew she was there, but she seemed…” he tries to find an appropriate word “Asleep? Your aura was faint, not very noticeable, usually the less noticeable the aura, the less dominant the wolf, but since that night, it’s like a veil has been removed and I can sense you better"I look at him out of the corner of my eye "Does that mean I’m a dominant female?" I ask with a small smile, not wanting to think of the implications of what he is saying.We come to a stop at the front of the lodge, I hadn’t realized we were standing so close “Compared to me or a fully trained enforcer you’re still a baby so don't go picking fights" I scoffed, my cheeks heating up in embarrassment. "That was one time" I whispered biting my top lip shyly, besides Tiana is a novice like me."But there is something to it though.” He tilts his hea
Thank the Goddess above there’s still some left when I get down. I help myself to a decent portion and a large slice of bread. I’m just sipping the last portion of my soup when Mara joins us. Like Esther, I don’t know her really well so I just give a polite smile and then proceed to tip my bowl halfway up so I can get every last bit. “Well, why are you smiling?” I hear Esther ask, with a quick look I confirm that she is indeed smiling, a cheshire grin on her lips. “Did you finally get Levi to fuck you?” Who’s Levi? I want to ask but again, don’t really know her, so it might be kind of rude so I bring my spoon to my lips and finish off the last of my meal. She waved her hand and scoffed, “That’s old news, I’ve moved on. But you won’t guess who I ran into on my way here” she gasped and fanned herself with the palm of one hand, her eyes rolling back in what I can only describe to be ecstasy. I half pay attention to them as I cross to the sink to wash my plate. Her cheeks look fl
“Gather around,” Colin says with a clap of his hands to get our attention. “Today I’d like to test your abilities with different members of the team.” He says when we come together. “When you’re not fighting, I expect you to watch and pay attention, you might learn something.” Hmm, you don’t say, I look around and I don’t see Naya. She’s being my partner for the last few days and I am not feeling elastic about it. “Philip and Rachel, you’re up,” Colin says when we come to stand in two lines. They walk reluctantly to the front, facing off against each other, I guess this might be the first time they’d be sparing. The rest of us get comfortable on the ground to watch the sparing session, Colin orders them to engage and they set off. He continues to call names randomly and I’m just glad I won’t have to fight Naya today. Yesterday was a complete annihilation I didn’t even get a single hit in. I was too busy trying to get away from her and even then, I wasn’t really successful.
The next day after training, more like getting my ass kicked by Naya, I shower, ate, and then take my time getting to the compound. I half hoped Zayne won’t be there when I get to the house, so I can just use that as an excuse but I sense that won’t be the case when I get closer to his office. Great. I knock on his door twice “Crazy wolf reporting for duty” The door opens a moment later “very funny” he says with a quirked eyebrow. I cross my hands across my chest “Can’t you see me laughing?” He inhales, exhaled then shrugs his muscled shoulders “Let’s go” Confused, I step back. “Go? where?” I thought we were doing calming exercises? “You’ll see” He tips his head motioning for me to come with him, I’m frowning when he leads me downstairs and outside. I try to keep up with his large strides as we leave the compound and into the woods. “Stop looking at me like that,” he says with a small laugh. I know I’m giving him really suspicious looks but who can blame me? he’s leading me d
“We’re going to do sight now,” Zayne tells me. I nod my head sitting up and taking the meditation position. My back already feels better from relaxing for a few minutes. “Close your eyes, relax and breathe. Tune out the sound and scents around you, when you feel it’s at the lowest you can get it, when you can’t hear anything and smell anything or feel, I want you to open your eyes.” I nod, going with what he said, my closed eyes, breathing to relax my senses, I stop smelling the damp earth and listening to the trees and feeling the wind on the skin of my cheeks. It was difficult, having to tone down these senses after I’d just learned to open them up. I don’t know how long it takes, I don’t know if Zayne is still here with me but after a while, I'm able to suppress them, my senses. And then I look. Before me is lush green grass, so clear. I see a grasshopper hop and land on the grass, I see its wings, its tail, and a lighter yellow shade of its inner belly. I notice that the sun
I’m a little surprised when I notice Zayne standing at the side of the arena on Monday, he hasn’t come to watch us train for some time now. At least we are almost done because I don’t want to imagine the ass-kicking I would have to receive and it would totally be his fault, you don’t have to be a genius to notice how distracted I get whenever he’s around. I just can’t help it, my mind and my eyes, and my thoughts just keep wandering over to him. I wonder, is he looking at me? Did he see that cool move I just did? Does he notice I've improved from the last time he was here, all the while praying he didn’t see the mistakes that get me on my ass? I exchange a series of blows with Naya, ducking beneath her swing and going in with a double hit. She blocks one and steps sides the other. Colin claps a moment later signaling the end of today’s training. “Keep working on your upper body strength” Naya comments before leaving, her ponytail swinging as she walks. I go to the side to
A moment later we hear it. A loud howl, victorious. Dominant. A few others call back in answer. My heart finally stops pounding in my chest. And I sighed, unable to hide my reaction. He’s fine. “You might want to go, shower, get some rest. The threat has been taken care of” Tate says, a handful of female clothes balled in his arms. “Oh? I wanted to wait, to make sure everyone is fine” I say slowly as my hands go to rest on my hoodie now tied around my waist. “I’m sure. But Zayne might not… be himself when he returns” I blinked. Confused, why wouldn’t Zayne be himself...? Then I remember, “Oh, the bloodlust thing? I know about that.” I assure Tate Having recently experienced it myself. The door opens and Lily rushes out. Face flushed, trying to smooth down her glossy chocolate strands, Goodness, these two, is there any time they are not doing it? I don’t tell her she missed one button on her dress. “Babe, were you with Zayne earlier?” Tate and I both
For the nights of the next week, I practice sensory exercises just before going to bed on the days that I remember to, it does make me feel a little better, at least I haven’t gotten in any unplanned fights or lost control and I have been sleeping better. With every night that passes, the full moon draws nearer, I try not to think about it, the thought makes me antsy and ruins any stability I manage to achieve. But on those nights when the thought steeps in, I do wonder, what if I sleep walk again? It happened on the full moon last time, it might happen again. I could just stay awake all through the night as I’ve done a few times but I can’t live like that for the rest of my life, avoiding the moon, one day I’ll lose guard, fall asleep and wake up in the middle of no where. I have no idea of the direction I'd being heading or I’d go and check it out in the light of the day, maybe Zayne knows, he asked me to point it out that night and I did but I don’t even know where he found t