As last night's memories began to crash into my mind, one by one, I quickly retreat to the bathroom, where I throw up. I shower straight after, rinsing my body and shampooing my hair. The vanilla scent of my shampoo wafts around the bathroom and I inhale deeply, loving the smell.
As I run my brush through my hair, I stare at myself in the mirror.
Do I like the person I was last night? Even though I've been casually seeing Bentley, doesn't mean I had the right to let Alec kiss me? But he did the same thing...
I let out a sigh, my brush getting caught in a knot. I wince as I yank it through.
I don't enjoy lying to Finn or sneaking around his back. I am a bad liar, especially when I try to lie to Finn. He always knows. I don't plan to date Alec. We just had fun and honestly, it wouldn't even matter, if he wasn't so close with my brother. I don't want another Miles-Isobel-Finn situation to arise.
Miles...
He had
"Hey Is," he says softly. "How are you?""Good, you?""Okay," he mutters. "Look about last night... I was an asshole.""Really?" I deadpan.I hear him wince. "I shouldn't have been with that other girl. I didn't plan for that, it just happened. I guess I have been single for too long.""We're not dating. You're free to do what you want," I say with a sigh. "I'm more upset with what you said about me to everyone.""I got jealous, even though I had no right to be. Of course, you didn't make out with anyone. You're not an idiot like me."I bite my tongue, feeling semi-terrible that I actually did."Look, I'm not going to hold a grudge against you, but I'm not interested in seeing you anymore. No matter what you say, I know it's probably about sex for you and right now, I'm not ready.""It's not just about that. I like spending time with you.""I do, too, but you showed me a different side to you last ni
I begin aimlessly wandering through the hallway, scanning the small crowd of students as I try to find Miles before Finn catches me.After almost losing hope, I finally find him down by the football oval. He is halfway down, sitting on the grass, leaning back onto the fence. Sucking in an encouraging breath, I walk over to him.The closer I get, the stronger I can smell the stench of cigarette smoke. I scrunch up my face as I walk to him. It now makes sense why he is all the way down here.He has his head hung low, his forehead pressed against his knees. His arms are slung over his knees, the cigarette loosely dangling between his fingers."Miles."He lifts his head and my stomach clenches when I see tear stains.He tilts his back, squinting in the morning sunlight."What do you want?" he asks, his voice dry. "Here to torment me some more? Throw your father's death in my face again?"I grimace, sliding down the fe
I sit in bed, my legs folded beneath me as I continue to binge-watch Netflix, a jar of Nutella perched in my hands."Why did you leave school?" Finn bursts through my door, placing his hands on his hips, looking down his nose at me.I pause my show, flicking my eyes to his. I lick my spoon clean as I shrug."Felt sick.""Bullshit. Something happened with Bentley, didn't it? Or Miles? Since when are there so many guys in your life?""Breathe before you give yourself a hernia." I laugh, quirking an eyebrow at him. "And no, I'm allowed to feel like shit sometimes and skip school.""Physically or mentally?" he asks me skeptically."Bit of both, I guess." It is half true.He sits on the end of the bed, watching me. "What's wrong?""I can't talk to you about it," I admit honestly. "You won't get it.""Try me."I let out a sigh. "It's about Miles.""Here we go," he replies, throw
"You and Alec, again?" Samara asks me, as she flips through one of my magazines, chewing her gum obnoxiously. "Really thought that was a one-time thing.""Yeah, I did, too." I agree. "I know he isn't looking to date, he just wants to fool around. But I don't want to sleep with him, so...""Why not?" she shrugs. "I know the whole Miles thing has messed with your head, but Alec is a nice guy."I stare at her, baffled. "He is a player. He has slept with plenty of girls. Once I give it up, he'll get bored and move on. I don't want my first time to be like that.""Well, that's your choice.""It is my choice," I argue, frowning. "I only want to do it with someone I'm dating. Who Ilove.""Okay, okay, I get it," she replies, holding up her hands in a peace gesture.I let out a huff. Samara frustrates me. She is so unemotional sometimes. It irks me that she doesn't care about things like that. She sleeps with peopl
"How was your date?""It wasn't a date," Finn huffs, his face screwing up as he pushes against his weight, the veins in his arm protruding from his skin."Sure it wasn't.""Why don't you believe me?""Because I know you," I point out, pulling the handgrip, feeling my muscles ache."What about you?" he suddenly asks and I let go out of the handle, causing the weight to hit the pole loudly, the sounding bouncing off the walls as I grimace.He quirks an eyebrow at me as I scramble to pick it back up. I put the handle back in the holding spot and lean back in the uncomfortable, worn, leather seat."What do you mean?""I mean, how's your dating life going? What's going on with Bentley?""You mean after he grabbed me, told everyone I don't put out, and then said he should have known better than to get involved with me? No, there is no me and Bentley." I replied sourly, getting to my feet, dragging the back of my
Sweat drips down the back of my neck as I struggle to catch up with Finn's long strides.I pant, feeling my body growing weaker as my energy drains. Finn slows to a walk once we're on our street and I join him eagerly, placing my hands on my hips as I try to regain my regular breathing."God, it feels good to run," he breathes, throwing his hand through his sweat-drenched hair."I like running, but it's always exhausting going with you," I pant beside him."You're fast, but you need to work on your endurance.""Yes sir."He rolls his eyes as we make our way up the path. We walk into the kitchen. Finn withdraws two Powerade, unscrewing the lid of one and tossing the other in my direction. I weakly catch it, before collapsing onto the dining table chair."You ready for the game this Friday?" I ask Finn.The upcoming game has been the talk of the school, throughout the week. We are versing Richmond River, who is our
"Finn, get out of here," the Coach quickly mutters as Principal Harrison began striding over, a look of fury on his face.Finn darts off to the side, before disappearing behind the grandstand. He has been warned that he is at risk of being suspended and losing his Captain position on the football team if he gets into any more fights."Who started it?" Harrison barks immediately. "And who was involved?"Eli let out a humourless laugh as the paramedics began working on him, as he watched the football team begin to scramble."Alec, come here," Harrison said and Alec sighs, walking over to him. "Where's Finn?"Alec shrugs, unable to wipe the cocky grin off his face. "Haven't seen him since the game finished."Principal Harrison narrowed his eyes at him. "Get over to the bench. Now."Alec rolls his eyes, doing as he's told.Harrison looks at Jai. "You didn't throw any punches, did you?""Nah," Jai replies honest
"What about an ambulance?" I cry out frantically."Invite them to a party, where 70% of the kids are underage?" Alec points out, already dialling Finn's number. "Besides, he's already been seen paramedics, he just passed out because he drank too much, under the influence of pain killers. I need help carrying him.""Alec, we can sort this out ourselves. We just need to get him inside," I insist, wanting nothing more than to leave Finn out of this."Hey man, what's up?" I hear Finn's voice as Alec has his iPhone in his hand, Finn on speaker."Don't," I mouth, my eyes pleading.Alec returns my stare, a blank expression on his face. "We need you here, man. It's Jai."I shake my head at Alec in disappointment, getting to my feet. Jai's face seemed peaceful as he lays there on the cold grass. I turn my back to Alec and walk into the party, attempting to find Samara.Ignoring the stares and a few fox whistles, I p