LUKA"Father," I called out tautly, crossing my legs and bringing the coffee mug to my lips. The sunglasses my dad had on didn't let me see his full expression but I'm sure it's one that shows his displeasure. The Cafe we were in was the one just a short drive back to school. Paula had told me to drive her here for croissants but had disappeared the moment he arrived. "I was expecting a bit more welcome and excitement since I haven't seen or heard from you in almost a year." "And I wasn't expecting you at all. If I knew you were going to be here, I wouldn't have shown up at all." I snapped back, gripping the edge of the wooden table tightly. "Why? Oh. This is because I didn't drop everything and give you access to use my resources to find your lost girlfriend?" The way he said it so flippantly had me close to losing the ironclad control I've worked hard all year to keep in place. I remember so clearly how after I left Bella's mum's empty house I had gone home and showed up at di
LUKADylan was already inside the main club ground when I caught up with him. He threw his hands up and moved his waist shuffling around the dance floor with a big smile and I rolled my eyes not quite catching the amusement. "Just loosen up a little and we'll go. You don't even have to drink or go home with a girl, just dance and have a little fun." He pouted his lips now pulling me further and I scoffed in irritation. I get that this is his own idea of what used to look like fun for me but right now this isn't it. But at least I can appreciate the fact that's he is trying so I let myself be pulled to the dance floor. The throngs of body around us all smelled of booze, perfumes and sex which made me nauseous. I closed my eyes and sighed loudly trying to exhale and let go of all the thoughts that were going on in my head. The noise was a good distraction, I tried to tune it out and focused solely on my breathing, in and out. The moment I opened my eyes again, I did feel lighter
BELLAOne of my biggest life lessons learnt is that it is a continuous loop of good and bad. There will be no continuous happy days with no end. Just more sad and lonely ones sprinkled with little things that make you happy. So you have to latch on tight to those little things as means to fuel your joy or drown. It's the only way I got through the last one year. With the long rehab break most basketball camps were over and I wasn't able to play for almost a year, no college would offer me a basketball scholarship anymore. It was a continuum of watching everything I wanted vanish into smoke. I'll never be a professional basketball player. I lost that opportunity already, then there is the miscarriage, the time out of school and barely managing to get my high school degree, all my old friends; Tammy, Jamie, Paula, Dylan and he who shall never be named, remembered or aknowledged. I had to cut off from all my old friends because it had to be a clean break between me and everyone that
BELLAThe bright sunlight that streamed in from the pulled curtains was just too bright for me. I winced sharply and tried to pull the covers over my head but someone was tugging on it, hindering the process. "Go away," I groaned, but my mom wasn't having it. "Get up. Today's your orientation at your new college.""Ten minutes more." I begged, closing my eyes tightly, feeling my temples ache a little. "You should have thought about school before you went ahead to drink so much last night." She chided this time pulling off the covers fully. "Get up. Wash and dress up, I'll make you soup and warm up the garlic bread from last night." "Okay."I answered and settled back in bed, I was just about to slip back into sweet dream land when I heard her loud yell, "Samantha!" She startled me awake and my hands went to my head to hold my aching head in place. "Don't let me come back here." She warned before finally walking out with the door wide open. "Argh!" I screamed in frustration into
LUKAI've always wondered what it will be like when I next see her. Wondered how I would feel.Deep down I always thought it would be relief especially knowing that she was safe and sound. Then my next predicted emotion was anger, for leaving the way she did without saying anything or bothering to explain and lastly sorrow for all the time lost. But I guess it didn't go as planned or my feelings weren't accepting the memo. The moment I grabbed her arm and yanked her to face me, it felt like everything came to a standstill. Because there she was. One year and counting and we were standing in front of each other, breathing the same air, and she looked well and alive. One million universes and multiverses all stopped spinning cause all I felt was shock as our eyes met and next it felt like I was being sucker punched in my guts, because my knees were weak and my mind was blank. I must have missed the quick glint of recognition in her eyes or maybe they didn't contain any because all
"Are you not going to close that?" The lady that was previously beside me asked pointing to the tap which was still running, from her position near the door and that was enough to jolt me back to my present. I closed the tap which has been running for quite some time and stared at the girl in the mirror. "Thank you." Like a bot, I walked mechanical to the paper towel dispenser and cleaned my hands dry, then disposed it properly. "Are you okay?" She asked softly, coming back into the restroom with a concerned look and I darted out my tongue to moisturiser my lips which were suddenly dry before nodding. She didn't look convinced but she gave me a soft pat on the shoulder before walking out. I washed my face with water, which wiped most of the makeup I had on except the mascara before proceding to get another paper towel and wipe my skin dry. His picture flashed in my mind's eyes from earlier and I gipped the edge of the basin so hard I felt my knuckles crampNot today, Bella. Not n
"I'll report you to campus authorities" my heart was knocking hard against my rib cage yet here I was forming bravado like I wasn't scared of this interaction but I had no choice. Luka has been stalking me all week. At first I didn't notice but later on I did, it wasn't like he could blend easily into the crowd and I have a feeling he wasn't trying to hide himself. I had told myself that if I ignored him hard enough he will go back to the past where he was and I can somehow manage to start afresh. But he was still here and I had to do something about it.Apparently, I can't also wish him gone no matter how hard I try. I was walking with two of my coursemates today towards the university library when someone pointed him out because he looked good and we were going in the same direction. "I'll report you to Campus Security if you keep following me around." I said again, since he didn't say anything after the first statement. "This is harassment, following me everywhere I go is stal
LUKAI threw my bag to the floor and fell on the couch like a sack of potatoes before sighing loudly. Sam, who when she heard the door open ran up to me wagging her tail in excitement followed me now to the couch and I stretched to pat her on the head. It did make me feel good everytime I walked in and there was always someone excited to see me. I barely had any time to think about my sad life and everything that happened today; from seeing Bella earlier to her running away, to me going back to school to finish up some school work to coming back home.But I know that I'm tired, very much so. I really think it's more mental exhaustion than physical. I guess I deserved this cold treatment but it didn't mean that it didn't hurt cause it hurts like a bitch. I got up and trudged to the fridge to get a bottle of water and the moment the cold liquid entered my stomach in protest it grumbled. I haven't eaten anything almost all day. I opened the fridge to search for something I could eat