After the close shave and everything else that happened with it, I was too scared to actually leave the new safe house. Eventually with the help of Thomas, I got a burner and dialled Attus's number. He answered almost immediately like he was expecting the call.
"Hey," I said tentatively, wondering how things had gotten so weird and so strained between us.
"Clara? Is that really you C? Are you okay?" He called out immediately, and I bursted into tears. Hearing the concern and worry in his voice even when he was not my husband and had no business really caring about me that much was definitely too emotionally overwhelming for me. I could not stop the tears as I lowered myself onto the bed in the room and just kept crying with my face in my hand.
"Oh, Clara… What have they done to you, my darling?" He sounded so nearby, bad that made me even sadder. I felt like if I reached out my hand
"I watched him do wicked things to the people he claimed to love. He showed every sign of being exactly the kind of man that I was supposed to run as far away from as my legs could carry me. But every time he looked at me with lust or something akin to love, I felt myself melt. My stupid heart would fall at the sign of anything that looks like brutality because I guess my life experiences have taught me that men are best served cold and brutal." I chuckled lightly to myself, wallowing in self pity."So, when he came back acting all nice, I accepted him with wide open arms and a flutter in my belly. I am always begging and desperate for love even when I am in the midst of love in its purest form. Attus was the wrong one, but he loved, and he still loves me right. And what exactly can a girl do when the wrong one loves her right?" I looked over at Thomas, feeling a bit ill.He scoffed and looked away from me. "Talk to
As I walked away from Thomas, I felt a sense of clarity and purpose. I knew what I needed to do, and it was time to take action. I went back to my room and started packing my bags. I was going to leave the palace and go back to Attus.As I packed, I felt a pang of sadness and guilt. I had to leave the Alpha King, who had been nothing but kind to me. But I knew that I could not stay here any longer. I needed to be with the one who truly loved me.As I was finishing up my packing, there was a knock on my door. I opened it to find the Alpha King standing there. "Clara, may I come in?" he asked.I hesitated for a moment before stepping aside to let him in. He walked into the room and took a seat on the couch. "I wanted to talk to you about something," he said, looking at me with concern.I sat down across from him, feeling a knot in my stomach. I knew what he was going to say,
"What do you intend to do about Xavier though." Attus asked, and I looked at him with a faraway and hurt look on my face."I don't know, Attus. I really have no idea where to start from. It's not even like he has called or reached out to apologize or anything. So I guess it's done." I said, acting braver than I actually felt."It is okay to be hurt, C! He really hurt you, and it is okay for you to feel all that pain. It is through the wound that the light enters into us." Attus said, being as wise as he always was."Thank you. But I'm good. For now at least. But I want to return to Jake. He will definitely take me back if I return and become his wife. He is too vain to not like the narrative that his love drew me back into his arms. Since Xavier wants to be an ass." I said with fire in my eyes and my heart ice cold."Are you sure that's what you wan
Attus nodded and followed me to the fridge, keeping a watchful eye on me. "I understand, C. Dreams can be confusing and unsettling, but it's important to remember that they are just dreams. They don't have any power over mer decisions in the waking world.""That's true, but it still bothers me," I said, taking a swig of water. "I don't want to be thinking about Xavier when I'm about to marry Jake. It's not fair to anyone."Attus nodded in agreement. "I know, my love. But perhaps it's worth exploring these feelings with a therapist. They can help me work through any unresolved emotions or conflicts I may have surrounding my past relationship with Xavier."me sighed and nodded, knowing that Attus was right. "Yeah, you're probably right. I'll make an appointment in the morning."Attus gave me a reassuring smile and pulled me into a hug. "It's going to be okay, C. I'm here for
I went down to my parents house one evening, tired of everything, and desperately in need of some explanations as to why they had tried to bury me in the forest. Becky opens the door when I ring the doorbell, and looks very surprised when she sees me."Hello, Stranger," I say in a sad tone, having flashbacks of everything that we have gone through on the last few years."Clara?" She calls out my name in disbelief. "Why are you here? What are you doing here?""Oh… Wow!" I chuckle deeply and bitterly. "What a way to say hi after years of silence." I felt broken by her composure.Becky's expression softens as she realizes the impact of her words. "I'm sorry, Clara. It's just that we weren't expecting you.""I know," I say, my voice cracking. "I just need to talk to Mom and Dad. Can I come in?"Becky nods
"Mattha, we need to talk!" I said seriously over the phone. "Are you free right now?" I asked, feeling very uncomfortable. "Yes. We can talk now." Martha replied coldly, and I was taken aback by her reaction. "Is everything alright between us, Martha? You sound kind of cold." "Oh, I do? I sound kind of cold? I did not know about that. I mean, since our husbands are no longer off-limits to each other, how would I know exactly?" She retorted, confusing me further. "Are you trying to say something to me? Because if you are, I'll advice that you say it straight up, because I really don't understand anything." I said. "How would she understand anything? How? When she is too good for all of us!" I heard a voice in Martha's background say, and I squinted in anger. I was officially offended. "What exactly is going on, Martha?" I asked, sounding enraged. "Why did you even call her? I thought that you are above everybody else…" "Sophia?" I asked, and she laughed loudly over the phone.
"My husband hits me." Ellen said suddenly while we were all out having dinner."I am sorry, but did I get that right? Did you say that your husband hits you?" I asked, already feeling anger take a hold of me."He hits me, Girls! He hits me hard." Ellen repeated, breaking into tears as Mila and Martha held her."How long has this been going on for, Ellen?" Sophia asked, sounding irredeemably angry. She and I were both teh protectors of our friendship group. We were the ones ready at any time to fight to the death for our other friends."From the first day. He said something funny and I laughed, and he hit me hard in the belly for daring to laugh to his face." Ellen narrated painfully. "I have had three miscarriages since we got married, and I am afraid that he will beat my womb out of my body someday soon. Please, help me, girls, help me!" Ellen shouted, as her te
The Alpha King started complaining about my incessant outings with the girls. He was feeling abandoned and left out. I laughed at his complaints and good-naturedly reassured him of my love and promised to do better. But he did not seem to take my word for it."If Xavier is not cheating on me already, he soon will." I said to the girls after yet another successful meeting and they looked over at me with pity in their eyes.The Alpha King's complaints continued to weigh heavily on my mind, and I found myself constantly thinking of ways to make it up to him. I cancelled plans with the girls and spent more time with him, hoping to quell his fears and reassure him of my love.But despite my efforts, he still seemed distant and withdrawn. One night, as we lay in bed together, I finally worked up the courage to confront him."Xavier, what's wrong? Why do you seem so u