Kabanata 16
"Girl, nakikinig ka ba sa'kin?"
Nabalik sa reyalidad ang lumilipad kong isip matapos akong tapunan ng popcorn ni Desiree. Nasa kwarto niya kami at nanonood ng madramang kwentong gustong-gusto niyang panoorin.
Tumikhim ako at lalong niyakap ang unan saka binalik ang tingin sa screen ng TV. "Sorry. Ulitin mo na lang. Nanonood ako eh."
She sighed heavily and offered me her food but I refused. Muli niya itong binalik sa kanyang kandungan bago tumingin sa screen gaya ko. "Maybe I didn't satisfy him in bed that's why he refused to see me again." Muli siyang bumuntong hininga. "Ganoon naman ang mga lalake. They only stay when their woman proved they can keep the bed warm."
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Kabanata 17My hands felt cold inside my hoodie's pooch as my eyes stared outside the van's window. Iniisip ko pa lamang ang pwedeng maging reaksyon ng lola ni Azul ay kinakabahan na ako. Well, I am nervous and flattered at the same time. Hindi ko akalaing maiimbitahan akong makilala ang isang importanteng tao sa buhay niya kahit wala pa kaming opisyal na relasyon.Nadama ko ang paghaplos ni Azul sa aking buhok, tila kinukuha ang aking atensyon. Nang balingan ko siya ay halatang babagsak na ang kanyang mga talukap sa sobrang antok.His lips slightly pouted. "Pinuyat mo ko."Tumikhim ako. "Bakit kasi hindi ka na lang umuwi no'ng hindi ko sinasagot ang tawag mo?"He groaned. Nagulat ak
Kabanata 18"When I was in my blooming days, you would see long lines of fine men outside my flat. I'd spend ours reading posts, eating my favourite biscuits and crisps. Sadly most of those men turned out to be nothing but rubbish." Masayang pagki-kwento ni granny Margaret habang kandong ang tasa ng kanyang camomile tea.She waved her hand and shut her eyes as her lips went on a sweet thin line, as if imagining something, or someone rather."And then one day, I met a man in faded trousers, his body was sculpted for countless battles, his blue eyes so dazzling and captivating." Binukas niya ang kanyang mga mata, ang mga labi ay tumikwas para sa isang matamis na ngiti. "That day I told myself. Oh, Margaret. You need to drag that man to the nearest church before someone else will. And tha
Kabanata 19The dinner was awkward. Halos hindi matanggal sa aking isip ang nangyari kanina sa dagat. Yes, we were far from the shore and there's no chance that anyone might have seen us, kahit iyong mga paparating na mangingisda, pero kahit na. Nakakahiya pa rin ang nangyari. I can't believe I would be my body's slave one day to the point that I will fully lose control over it because of his touch.Nadidinig ko ang usapan ng mag-lola ngunit hindi pa rin maproseso ng aking isip ang mga salitang naririnig ko dahil ang lintik kong utak, naiwan yata sa karagatan kanina at tuluyang nalunod."Are you alright, darling?"I snapped. Doon ko lang napagtantong nasa akin na ang atensyon ni Granny Margaret.
Kabanata 20"W—What?"Unti-unting gumuhit ang isang pagod na ngiti sa kanyang mga labi. Kumurap ako at nahulog ang luha sa aking magkabilang pisngi ngunit marahan niya itong pinalis gamit ang likod ng kanyang daliri.Azul took in a sharp breath, his hand rested on my quaking shoulder. "Didn't I tell you to just keep saving me?"Mariin kong pinaglapat ang aking mga labi, takot na muling kumawala ang basag na hikbi. Tumango ako."I wish you will. Because you've been saving me since your first letter arrived at my door." He said in a gentle tone, his eyes mesmerized me with its sincerity.My brows curled, my head cannot find the
Kabanata 21My relationship with Azul became stable the night we became official. Tuluyang nilipad ng hangin ang lahat ng takot at pangamba ko tungkol sa intensyon niya nang ibukas niya sa akin ang katotohanan. Now I understood why he was acting as if he owes me a lot, ngunit kung ako ang tatanungin, niligtas din naman niya ako.Although he is always flexing me on his Instagram account, we never made a public announcement nor confirmed it to the media. Pinili naming gawing pribado ang pagiging opisyal naming magkarelasyon at nirespeto namin ang desisyon ng isa't-isa.Tumigil ako sa paglakad palabas ng building nang madama ang pagvibrate ng phone ko sa loob ng bulsa ng aking coat. Kakatapos lamang ng OJT hours ko at siguradong alam iyon ni Azul dahil nagpapadala siya ng chats kapag brea
Kabanata 22I no longer know how I'll distinguish cry from moans, because the moment I felt my fifth, probably sixth cum, I think I was already doing both. My whole body was already convulsing with so much pleasure. Too much that I can no longer take one more round of Earth shattering climax.Azul came up to me to kiss me softly like a satisfied beast, pinapawi ang rahas ng pagbuga ko ng hangin.But I don't think I'll recover easily. Hinahabol ko na ang aking hininga at ni ang imulat ang mga talukap ko, halos hindi ko na magawa. Ang masuyo niyang mga haplos sa pawisan kong mukha ay lalo lamang nagdadala sa akin antok at kung iisa pa, baka hindi ko na kayanin."You okay?" He whispered in a gentle tone, his fingertips made s
Kabanata 23Lumilipad ang isip ko habang pinanonood ang patak ng ulan sa labas ng bintana. Madilim na ang langit ngunit wala pa akong nakukuhang ni isang reply kay Azul magmula nang magpunta na naman siya sa meeting kasama si Nerida. Tila walang katapusan ang kanilang pagkikita at hindi ako komportable roon sa totoo lang.I know I promised to not doubt him ever again, but I can't help it sometimes. The first time he opened up to me the case, I already felt something was off but I chose to ignore it. Bumabawi naman siya pagtapos ngunit pakiramdam ko ay hindi iyon sapat.We've already been together for a year now and he already proposed to me last month but it always feels like he still has a lot of secrets he isn't ready to tell me yet.
Kabanata 24AzulIf there's a rewind button in life, would you push it so you can go back in time when you first met me?If you can delete memories from your past, will you include the moments you had with me on the things you want to forget?If you will have the freedom to choose somebody else, will you not have second thoughts of not wanting me anymore?Will you...still be in this situation if you didn't see me at the beach playing freesbie with my friends? If I didn't push us to be together? If I didn't insist to not sign the annulment papers?If I didn't happen in your life and just went to Switzerland the day your l