don't hate him

33

I was standing at my locker, the door door open as I stared down at the vile in my hands.

I hd been in this spot so many times and I always stopped myself from making the stupid pills I had grown dependant on but right now, nothing was stopping me.

Any other time, I would keep remembering how Zac stopped smoking for me, because he knew I didn't like it but seeing him walk away from me like that yesterday and go back to the cigarettes so easily made me realize I had nothing stopping me either.

Maybe I had reasons to not take the pills but if I ignored those reasons, I could convince myself it was okay and deal with the consequences later.

"Don't do it."

I shoved the vile away before glancing over to see John frowning at me.

I stared at him blankly, feeling empty and numb at this point.

Was I overreacting or was it okay to be this way when I just love the guy I'm in love with without even knowing why I lost him?

"What do you want? Shouldn't you be guarding Zac or something?"

John sig