Chapter 25: My Boyfriend

Two weeks have gone by since the Chad incident. I don't talk about it. I think about it. Relive it. Remember it. I bite myself. I purge. I want to stop purging.

Aunt Tara is concerned. I don't blame her. I'm not me. Aunt Tara has delayed the start of my eating disorder recovery program. School is over. Aunt Tara got me out of homework. I only had to attend class. I didn't have to do finals.

My parents cried when they found out. They came together again for another Natalie Ashman drama.

Sammy cried. She hugged me. We had a girl's night and ate chocolate. It helped her feel better. It didn't help me.

I haven't told Selah. I like having someone think I'm not tainted. I haven't called Collin. He understands I need my space.

The eating disorder recovery program will begin after my trip to Italy. We are still going. My Aunt Tara explained my situation. She still has guardianship of me.

She's traded bedrooms with me. I can't stay in my old room and see the spot where the great incident took