Eva Only Cyrus and I were having breakfast, which made me wonder where everyone else was though I didn’t have the courage to ask. We didn’t talk about last night. Honestly, I just wanted the whole thing dead and buried. I couldn’t even look at anyone directly in the face; that was how embarrassed I was. After breakfast, Cyrus told me that he had news for me. “Let’s walk around in the garden,” he told me. “I believe we’ll need privacy for this.”We walked around the front garden, not the back one which was all around the pool. Cyrus had his hands clasped behind his back, and he looked especially grim in his black clothing. “Yesterday, I found out something. I don’t know how you’re going to take it, but I want you to know that I’m looking into the matter and that the situation is under control.”“Okay,” I said. “There was a survivor,” he told me. Before I could gasp, he added, “Unfortunately, she didn’t make it. Her injuries were too severe. We couldn’t even get her name.”Goodnes
CyrusWords couldn’t describe how pissed off at Eva I was. For a few reckless moments, I’d allowed myself to hope that something could happen between us. I thought we were making progress. I’d never force her to get into any kind of relationship with me, but I sure as hell wouldn’t mind it if we entered into one consensually. However, with this talk of her becoming Head Priestess of the New Convent, it all would come crashing down and we’d have no chance whatsoever. I never hated Gasper more than I did right now. I invited them to stay for lunch, but they declined, claiming that they had much to do. Gasper was currently explaining to Eva everything that he planned on doing with the Convent, and she was so excited at the prospect that it just made me feel like shit all over again. Meanwhile, Xilian wouldn’t stop looking at me, and it was unnerving. We broke things off. This shouldn’t be happening. She made a signal with her eyebrows the way she always did when she wanted to fuck
EvaI was breathing harshly, and the hand I used to punch him was shaking. “Eva,” he said in disbelief. I saw that his lips were bright red with his blood. “What the hell has gotten into you?”“Get out!” I yelled, not feeling at all guilty about what I’d done. If anything, I wanted to hit him more. Goddess, I felt like an idiot. I was sacrificing my immortal soul because of some scum bag who claimed to want me yet couldn’t keep his hands to himself when a beautiful woman was close by. A scum bag was what he was. Oh, I felt like an idiot!“Not until you tell me what’s wrong,” he insisted, his tongue darting out to lick the blood from his lips. “I don’t understand why you’re the one being aggressive when you just agreed to being the Head Priestess of the new convent.”I nodded wildly. “I did, and it was the best decision I ever made!”“Why are you acting this way all of a sudden?” he asked. “I thought we were starting to become friends. I thought that…that you’d want to stay here.”“W
Cyrus What the hell just happened?I couldn’t explain it even if someone held a damn gun to my head. One second, we were arguing, and the next, I’d kissed her and then everything went straight to hell from there. I rushed to my bedroom, hoping that nobody would see me because I was rock hard. I closed the door behind me and then rushed to the bathroom. I splashed water on my face, but what was I thinking? It wasn’t going to be enough. Not even the coldest shower in the world would get rid of this boner. So, I unzipped my pants, and got straight to work. I came hard, Eva’s name dangling on the tip of my tongue. I could still taste her in my mouth, and smell her heavenly scent on my skin. Once I was done, I cleaned up and sat on the floor of the bathroom with my head in my hands. What was I going to do now?I had no clue, and that was a rarity for me. I always had a plan, even when everything had long gone to shit. However, everything with her was different, and I was all but losi
Eva I couldn’t recall ever being this disgusted with myself. Goddess, I was losing my mind. This wasn’t a joke anymore. I’d crossed all the lines. Before, lines had been crossed, but not like this. Dammit, never like this. And now, I felt doomed. The sin I’d committed was too bad. I made out with Cyrus. We’d been so intimate. The worst part was how I was still throbbing between my legs, and how the need hadn’t left me. It didn’t matter how much I prayed for this feeling to pass—it persisted. My body was on fire, and the only way to extinguish this fire would be by indulging in what it wanted. And that was Cyrus. I cursed him. I hated every inch of him. He’d done this to me and would never have to suffer any of the consequences. Right now, he was probably beyond pleased with himself while I was breaking down. I took a cold shower. It was incredible that even that didn’t help. My very skin was sensitive now, and the water pressure felt like hands on my back, which transported me
Cyrus I was starting to lose my mind, mostly because I went to sleep thinking about fucking Eva, and I woke up with that thought in my mind, too. Yesterday, I was too distracted by what Andy had told me to pay much mind to it. But now, now that desire had my full attention.It was almost like I could smell her from down here. I glanced at Brock, and it didn’t seem like he noticed this at all. Naturally, I wouldn’t ask him if he could smell Eva. If he did, would I have noticed, though?I wasn’t sure, and I didn’t want to know the answer to it. I glanced at the stairs. Marcia was coming downstairs with a tray. I assumed it was from Eva’s room. We made eye contact briefly before she went into the kitchen. I hadn’t asked her about what Andy said. Today was supposed to be the day of that investigation, but I was distracted. My cock was semi-hard all the time now, and whenever I thought about her, it got harder. What was this? I didn’t know enough about mates to understand. All I knew
EvaCyrus saw me. He saw me. I was completely mortified by what happened. I sat with my heart slamming against my chest violently and wondered if I would ever get over this. I doubted it. How could I ever have imagined that he’d break into my room while I was…why would he even do that? He never ever did that.I didn’t know how to pray anymore. Normally, I would have begged to the goddess to help me with this, but it was an embarrassing situation where I put Her aside, so how could I ask for help? I deserved this; every bit of it. That didn’t make any of this lighter to handle, though. The worst part? I was still needy, even though I’d probably climaxed ten times today. For some reason, it wasn’t enough, and I couldn’t understand why. I’d never felt anything like this. It was genuinely a sickness. I wanted more and more, and I couldn’t stop. Was this enough to fracture my mind and drive me to the brink of insanity? It felt like it. Sleeping was an impossibility. I was feverish
Eva By the time I was ready, as odd as that sounds, I felt more like myself. If I’d put my guilt aside and just put on my old clothes, I would have felt a lot better. I felt no need in this dress—not significantly anyway—and when I closed my eyes, I felt this rush of…goodness flow through me. It felt like the goddess had forgiven me for what I’d done. I left with Marcia. It was only the two of us in the back of the car. According to her, everyone was already there, and Cyrus had been the first to leave the house. The sound of his name made me shudder, and I asked her not to talk about him. She nodded respectfully and didn’t bring him up again. The sky was darkening quickly. The moon would be full today, and I promised myself that I would take this opportunity to try to do better. I was tired of being needy and desperate for a man’s touch. It was a never-ending madness and only made me realize how much I appreciated being touched by the light of the goddess instead. Our destinati