63That day was so good for me. Mama didn't really like Maddix for me, but her saying that she would respect Maddix as my boyfriend made me so happy that day.Tinapos ko ang niluluto kong adobo. It's been a weeks since that day at dahil day off ko ngayon, plano kong pumunta sa opisina ni Maddix. Hindi niya alam na ngayon ang day off ko, kaya wala siyang kaalam-alam na may plano akong pumunta ngayon sa opisina niya. Gusto ko lang talaga siyang isurprise.He always makes time to go to the hotel para magkita kami, so this time, ako naman ang pupunta sa kanya.I took the food container and put what I cooked in it. I also got another food container for our rice, and after that, I took off my apron. Mom was sitting while she was sipping juice.Pagkatapos nang usapan namin, hindi na kailanman nagpasok si Mama ng tungkol sa ibang lalake sa usapan. Hinayaan niya rin kapag pumupunta na si Maddix dito, and right now, she knows that I am cooking right now for Maddix. Wala siyang sinabi at hinayaa
64Instead of answering him, I just kissed him again. I felt that he was really already angry right now, but he still kissed me carefully. Punong-puno pa rin ng pag-iingat ang bawat paghalik niya sa'kin. He pulled away again when he touched the nipple tape I was wearing."And what's this? Fuck! What's this fucking thing, Aliyah? Damn it! You are making me fucking crazy!" He said that, still angry, before removing the nipple tape I was wearing and lowering himself. I held on to the edge of the table to gain strength when he pinched me and put one of my nipples in his mouth. I held one hand on his head for support.Nakagat ko ng mariin ang labi ko at hindi maiwasang mapapikit, hinayaan ang sariling maramdaman ang bawat pagsipsip niya.I was amazed and couldn't help but moan when he sucked it like a baby."Maddix," I moaned when his right hand moved again. Hinaplos niya ako hanggang sa marating pinakibabang parte ng katawan ko. I couldn't help but hold him very tight when he touched the
65 I tried to do that. Don't think about the news we watched. Days, weeks, and months passed, and hindi ko alam kung napapraning lang ba ako o ano. I felt like there was someone watching me from afar. I can't tell others that because I'm not sure. Maybe I'm wrong; maybe it's because I just thought about it often kaya minsan pakiramdam ko may nakatitig na sa'kin. It's been a month since Tito Alfredo was released from jail; maybe Maddix was right that Tito Alfredo will not do anything to make him go back to jail again. I'm just overacting. "Bakit pinagsakluban ka ata ng langit at lupa? Shouldn't you be happy? Finally, Maddix will introduce you to his whole family," Bella said while lying on my bed. Mahaba-haba ang vacation nilang mag-asawa. Kakabalik lang nila galing sa honeymoon at nandito siya kasi hindi ko maiwasang sabihin sa kanya ang sinabi ni Maddix sa'kin last time. Sasabog ata ako sa kaba habang iniisip na haharapin ko ang buong pamilya niya. Subra akomg kinakabahan sa mang-
66Para akong biglang naging bata na nagtago sa likod ni Maddix.Napahawak ako ng mahigpit sa kamay ni Maddix dahil pakiramdam ko mahihimatay ako sa subrang lakas ng kalabog ng dibdib ko ngayon dahil sa kaba."Oh. Nandiyan na pala kayo. Come here, Dix," umawang ang labi ko nang marinig iyon. Hindi ko sigurado kung sino iyong nagsalita kaya sumilip ako ng kaunti. I saw Maddix's mom smiling at us. Nanlaki amg mata ko. Nakangiti ito? Pero bakit? Maddix held my waist and put me in beside him."G-Goodevening po," pagbati ko at yumuko pa.Maddix walked to get closer to them, and I immediately followed him because he was holding my waist. Napasunod talaga ako kahit na gusto kong manatili na lang muna sa kinatatayuan ko. Maddix kissed his mom on the forehead, and when he was done, I didn't know what to do. Should I kiss her cheeks? Is it okay with her? Baka kapag hinalikan ko siya ay iiwas siya.I heard Maddix chuckle kaya tinignan ko siya."You look like a baby na hindi alam ang gagawin. R
67Wala kaming planong magpalipas ng gabi rito, pero mukhang dito kami matutulog ngayon. Hindi ako pinayagan ni Tita at Tito na umuwi. Gabing-gabi na kasi at talaga at malayo pa ang byahe pauwi sa'min. "What? We're not a child anymore!" Iritang sambit ni Maddix nang pumasok si Tita sa kwarto niya at hinila ako.Para akong batang masunurin na napasunod kay Tita nang hilahin niya ako palayo kay Maddix."Wala akong mukhang ihaharap kay Almira kapag hinayaan ko siyang matulog sa kwarto mo! Baka gapangin mo pa siya!" Bulyaw ni Tita kay Maddix.Napangiti ako nang makita ang mukha nito na para bang pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa."What?" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ni Maddix kay Tita."Anong what? Diyan ka matutulog at si Aliyah ay sa kabila. Walang magtatabi sa pagtulog.""Mom!" Si Maddix at sinubukang hilahin ako pabalik."Hep! Hep! Hep!" Hinarangan ako ni Tita. "Kasal muna bago gapang. Balik doon sa loob at sa guestroom si Aliyah matutulog.""Mom!" "Abay kung gusto mo siyang makatabi,
68It was hard for me to open my eyes, especially when his fingers were driving me crazy. He fucked me using his hand until I felt my release. He removed his hand, so I glanced at him. My eyes widened as I looked at him. I saw him licking the finger that he used on me."Pasaway ka," natatawa kong sambit at hinarap siya para yakapin pabalik. Ibinaon ko ang mukha ko sa leeg niya at pinikit ang mata ko ko."Sorry. Nabitin yung tulog mo," he said at nagsimula nang haplosin ang buhok ko."Matulog ka na ulit," sambit pa niya kaya kinurot ko siya sa tagiliran. Narinig ko ang pagtawa niya."You think makakatulog pa ako pagkatapos ng ginawa mo? I just woke up with your finger fucking me. Tama ang mommy mo, manggagapang ka," sambit ko, pero narinig ko lang ang mahinang pagtawa niya."Ang saya mo ah!" "Sinong hindi magiging masaya? Yakap-yakap kita ngayon."Natahimik kami. Ako naman ay nawala na ng tuluyan ang antok kaya lumayo ako ng kaunti sa kanya. He let me. Inunan ko ang ulo sa dibdib niya
69The whole area was almost filled with sobs from my crying. I don't know where to put the joy I feel right now. He proposed! He wants me to become his Mrs. Villaranza! Damn! I never imagined myself to be happy like this! The joy overflowed in my heart, and the only thing I could do was cry because of the overwhelming joy I felt.Maddix and I were surprised when the door opened. Tita's lips twitched when she looked at me. I quickly wiped the tears from my eyes because maybe she thought Maddix was making me cry; he is, pero baka isipin niya na umiiyak ako kasi sinasaktan ako ni Maddix or what, but before we could speak and explain to her, Tita immediately approached Maddix at pinaghahampas sa katawan."Hindi kita pinalaking namimilit ng babae!" Galit na ani ni Tita kay Maddix."Mom, ouch! I'm not!" "And why are you even here? I told you to stay on your room! Pasaway ka! Ang sabi ko ay hindi kayo magtatabi, pero nandito ka at nakalusot! Parehas talaga kayo ng ama mo!" Nataranda ako
"Para akong nananaginip sa subrang saya ko ngayon. Hindi ko akalain na magagawa ko itong sabihin, pero kung panaginip nga 'to, ayoko na munang gumising," sambit ko sa kanya. Kinagat nito ang labi at sinulyapan ako gamit ang mapungay na tingin."You don't know how much I'm happier right now, Aliyah. Sa subrang saya ko ay gusto ko nang ideretso ang kotse sa ibang lugar at magpakasal na agad-agad."Napatitig pa rin ako sa kanya at muling namuo ng luha ang mata ko. He saw that kaya napasinghab siya."Baby," malumanay niyang tawag sa'kin."Maddix," pabalik na tawag ko sa kanya at hinayaan na ang luha sa mata ko. Namungay ang mata niyang sumulyap sa'kin."Thank you for everything. Thank you fo trusting me again and thank you for loving me."Muli kong narinig ang singhab niya. Tinagilid niya ang kotse at tinigil iyon saka ako hinarap. Inabot niya ang pisngi ko at pinunasan iyon."You don't need to say thank you, baby. I trust you and love you because that's what my heart wants. Don't say th