76 The employees greeted him when they saw him, pero ni isa sa kanila ay hindi niya pinansin, ni hindi niya tinapunan ng tingin. He is just serious while walking. He also walks ahead of me, while I just stare at his back. I've calmed down and stopped crying, but I feel like I'm going to cry again. I felt that his anger toward me caused him to fall out of love. I can't blame him if that's what happened. I feel that he already thinks that I don't deserve to be loved by him. Years ago, he protected my future, and now I almost lost our child again because I was so careless. Nang makarating kami sa labas ay pumarada ang kotse niya sa harap niya. Malungkot akong napatitig doon. May lumabas na nakaputimg lalake at binigay kay Maddix ang susi. Maddix opened the door for me, pero hindi ako lumapit roon. Napatitig ako roon bago siya tignan. I tried to smile habang umiiling. "K-Kung may gagawin ka pa, pababalikin ko na lang si Bella," sambit ko, pero nang mas luwagan niya ang pinto ay napapi
77"Anak, open this door. Mag-usap kayo ni Maddix. Think about your decision first. Bakit ka naman nakikipaghiwalay bigla? Nasa sala siya and he is waiting for you! It's just your hormones, Aliyah." Mama kept saying that every time she knocked, but I ignored it."Aliyah! Come on, Anak. You shouldn't make decisions that fast. Huwag kang ganyan bumaba ka at kausapin mo siya," dugtong pa niya.Mama kept knocking on the door, pero hindi ako lumabas para sundin ang gusto niyang gawin ko. I locked myself in my room and cried a lot, but after a few hours, I calmed down. I don't know, but I felt like I wanted to just eat something.I don't know if it's part of my pregnancy, but if it's my hormones, like mama said, I don't know. Suddenly my sadness disappeared, and suddenly I just wanted to eat. It was already 8 p.m. when I went out. Ilang oras akong nagkulong sa kwarto ko. I have food inside my room because I have a mini fridge here. I did eat some fruit, and a while ago mom left some food t
78"Oh! Let's eat, Anak." Mama said this when she saw me entering the dining area."Goodmorning!" Bati ni Maddix sa'kin nang makita ako. He smiled at me."There's no goodmorning kung ikaw ang bubungad ng umaga ko," masungit na sambit ko at gusto ko na lang ulit tumalikod at iwan sila rito para magkulong na lang ulit sa kwarto ko."Aliyah," mahinahong pagsaway sa'kin ni mama."Why are you still here?" Iritang tanong ko kay Maddix na ngayon ay nakaupo at humihigop ng kape."Let's eat?" Tanong nito sa'kin na para bang hindi niya narinig ang tanong ko."Why are you so rude, Anak? Huwag kang ganyan," Si Mama iyon, pero nakatitig lang ako ng masama kay Maddix."Wala ka bang trabaho?" Marahas na tanong ko."I'm on leave," He answered, so I just rolled my eyes again. I approached the table, but when I smelled something, I covered my nose."What's that smell? Ang baho!" "Aliyah? Ayos ka lang?" Si Mama.I noticed that Maddix stood up in a panic and came to me, but I passed him and quickly head
79 Halos hinihingal ako pagkagising ko kinabukasan. I can't believe my dream right now. Napasinghab ako at hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko. What the hell? Why do I have a dream like that? What the hell is that? I closed my eyes tightly because I could feel the wetness of my underwear. Napasulyap ako sa tabi ko sa kama at wala namang Maddix doon. Why am I having a wet dream so suddenly? This is the fucking first time that I have had a dream like that! I couldn't stop cursing in my mind because of the dream I had. Naligo ako pagkatapos non at sinubukang kalimutan ang naging panaginip ko. Ang kaso lang, hindi ako makapaniwala na kahit sa pagligo ay iniisip ko iyon. I am thinking that Maddix is caressing my clitoriś. I close my eyes as the water flows over my body from the shower. I am now using a cold shower, but the fire in my body hasn't died down. Halos natapos ang pagligo kasabay ng paghawak ko sa sarili ko habang iniisip si Maddix. I can't believe myself. Nababaliw na ak
80"So ano nga, Aliyah?" Curious na tanong ulit sa'kin ni Seji.I bit my lower lip. Napapikit ako ng mariin bago ikwento ang panaginip ko sa kanila. Medyo alanganin, pero mababaliw ata ako kapag hindi ko masabi sa iba. "Kaninang umaga kasi. Nagising ako na ano..""Anong ano?" Si Seji.Napakamot ako. "I dreamed about having sex with him. Sa panaginip ko, tinali ko siya habang—basta yun. Alam niyo na iyon," namula ang mukha ko.Laglag ang panga nila sa narinig sa'kin."You? What? Wet dreams?" Natatawang tanong ni Seji."Nakatali? Tinali mo siya? That was fucking what the fuck?" Si Bella na para bang wala na atang pakealam kung may makarinig sa kanya.Namula ako. "Ghad! Sa panaginip lang naman! Shempre naman hindi ko iyon gagawin talaga!" Mariin na sambit ko sa kanila dahil talaga namang hindi ko iyon gagawin.I quickly pinched them on their waists when I noticed Maddix looking at me. He is now standing and talking to someone, but even when someone is talking to him right now, he is sti
81"Why don't you introduce her to us, Dix?" Asked one of the people he was talking to earlier. Maddix introduced me one by one, pero halos hindi ko matandaan ang pangalan nila. The others seem familiar to me: Naalala ko na isa sila rin yung mga dating kasama ni Maddix noon tuwing nag babar sila.Hindi ko alam na kilala sila ni Xian and he even invite them, pati na rin si Freya. Pakiramdam ko tuloy maliit talaga ang mundo. Napatingin ako sa paligid nang mapansing wala na si Freya. I looked around to look at her, then I saw her at another table. Kumpara kanina na halos lalake ang kasama niya, ngayon naman ay halos mga babaeng alam kong anak mayayanan gaya niya ang mga kasama niya. She saw that I was looking at her, pero inirapan niya ako.Napanguso ako at napailing na lang. She is still into Maddix. I think so. From the way she looked at Maddix earlier, it was really clear that she still liked him. Bumalik kami sa lamesa pagkatapos non. Napansin ko agad ang pag-iling ni Bella ngunit
82WARNINGGGG!!!! 18+His hand traveled down my body while one of his hands was already holding my neck, kissing me more and more. Every time he touched and caressed me, I was overwhelmed. Napapaliyad ako dahil sa kuryenteng dumadaloy sa bawat haplos niya. The electricity that he gave me and made me feel made me fucking horny."Hmmm," I moan and hold him very tightly. I am already drunk and drowning in his kisses and touches, but I need him to stop this. I need to stop this.But I have a plan. I have a fucking plan! Malakas ang ginawa kong pagtulak sa kanya bago sumunod para halikan ang leeg niya. He is now holding me by my waist.All I think is him, my bed at tali. I want him in my bed habang nakatali. Fuck that dream!My hand immediately traveled to his body. I caressed him slowly, and I saw the fire in his eyes. This time, I really want to do it. Now I know what I crave. I kissed his lips again and managed to bite his lower lip. I teased him and couldn't help but smile seductivel
83I was still very sleepy nang kapain ko sa tabi ko si Maddix para sana yakapin siya, but I opened my eyes nang mapansin kong wala siya sa tabi ko. Wala nang tao sa tabi ko. We were so tired last night that I immediately fell asleep. I glanced out the window. Napabuntong hiningi ako nang mapansing mataas na mataas na ang araw.Napasinghab ako nang makita ang taling ginamit ko kagabi. Saka lang ako natauhan ngayon na talagang ginawa ko nga iyon. I groaned at hindi maiwasang mamura ang sarili ko.I buried my face in my pillow. I couldn't help but be ashamed. Are you serious? I did that? What are you thinking, Aliyah? Ano pa ngayon ang mukhang ihaharap mo sa kanya?"Aliyah, nakakahiya!" Pigil na pigil ako sa pagsigaw non sa sarili ko.I was now wearing my clothes, and our bedsheet that had been stained with chocolate syrup was also already gone. I don't know how he managed to remove and change the bedsheet when I slept soundly. I'm too lazy to get up to take a shower, but I'm sure that