Hold.

Will stared back at Zayn and he searched his eyes for a hint of force but there was none, Zayn was being a hundred percent honest with him and he could tell. He suddenly felt a weight being lifted off his chest and his mouth moved.

"I was scared." he swallowed as his voice deemed but Zayn was close enough to hear him "I was scared you would hate me, and because I misunderstood you back then I wasn't able to tell you about... me, being gay."

"Is that why you left back then?" Zayn asked and Will blinked with the drop of his head

"It was one of the reasons, but, not exactly why I left."

"So why did you leave?"

Will stared down at his legs for a moment, then he raised his gaze and opened his mouth to speak "I..."

He froze up as the words that had always taunted him flashed back in his head

**That's disgusting dude, he's your friend**.

Immediately, Will felt the warmth in his face drain out as his hands ran cold, it was happening again. What was he supposed to do? he coudn't get himself u