NatalieI'm sitting inside Noah's car with a blanket wrapped around me as we drive past the city light. My heart feels heavy, like it's been replaced with a rock that's now weighing me down. "I will probably still marry Alaric, but... He better apologize for not being here, or do you think I'm silly for being angry over this?" I sigh while looking out through the window. "I can't tell anymore..."Noah glances at me briefly, then focuses on the road again. His hand is on the stick, veiny and tanned with a watch on it. I sometimes suspect I have a hand fetish when it comes to Noah. "No, I don't think you're being silly. You went through something traumatic and lost the baby that you wanted. I also don't think anything that awakens emotions should just be brushed aside. You're hurting, and your husband should be here for you, Natalie."I'm fighting tears again. Noah is so gentle when he speaks, and somehow, it starts to feel okay to cry in his presence. It removes the lead from my stom
NatalieI open up a beer on the couch because fuck it. I'm not perfect, and I plan to drink to my sorrows. Bridgerton is playing on low volume, and I turn my head when I hear a groaning Noah coming out from the bathroom."The water turned cold right when I was washing my hair! I'm never trusting your shower again!"I snort at him. "I guess billionaires aren't faced with such peasant problems, huh?"He chuckles and sits on the same couch on the opposite side. There are two couches in our living room in front of the TV and two chairs, yet he chooses to sit with me. Noah is only trying to be friendly, right?"Everything is perfect in my new mansion... The water is warm, and the beer is always cold."Noah is drying his wet hair, and I struggle to keep my eyes locked on the TV without twitching. But the son of a gun, why does he have to be shirtless?!Oh boy.I swallow more beer and hold a cold one out for Noah without looking at him. The fictional men on the screen are much easier to sto
Natalie "Yes, I love Alaric." But I'm not in love with him, or I am, but it's nothing compared to how I feel about Noah. Noah studies my face. It might be my imagination, but his eyes grow sad and disappointed for a minute. A wave of longing and wanting to wrap my arms around me crashes over me. I want to kiss the hurt away from his lips. But his expression quickly changes into a smile. It throws me off and leaves my heart thumping in pain. "Of course you love Alaric. What was I thinking?" Noah laughs at himself and smiles at me again. Those eyes suck me in and chew me up. "Or else you wouldn't be planning on marrying him. Right?" My heart thumps. "Right." Noah keeps the smile, and we turn back to watching Rick and Morty, but my heart feels heavy with guilt. I gave Noah the correct answer. So why does it seem like I've made a grave mistake? I can barely focus on the TV. Every part of me is on fire, and it's not the sexy kind, but the ones capable of destroying your soul. I'
Natalie I'm dying right now. Noah and I took Emma to a park. He is making sounds to make her eat her baby food. But the thing that is making me crack up is Noah's disguise. He is pretty well-known and is wearing shades even though the skies are gray, and he is also wearing this ugly Stitch onesie to hide his body. And I swear Noah wasn't made to wear Disney onesies—he looks cramped inside the blue fabric. It's hugging his body like a second skin, but at least he is adorable. I can't take my eyes off Noah and the floppy Stitch ears are making it worse. Noah is so gentle with Emma and winks at me now and then to give me butterflies. His joking nature and those mischievous eyes got me melting like a cone of ice cream under the blazing sun. "What's the matter?" Noah asks me when he catches me staring. "Have you never seen an alien before?" I snort at him. "You should wear onesies more often." "Really?" He looks hopeful. I laugh again. "Lexie would leave you, and your womanizer l
NoahLet my gaze slide toward Natalie, watching intently as she smiles and takes a seat behind the wheel of the red Ferrari. She doesn't expect me to buy this one for her, but the truth is that I would gladly give her anything she pointed at. "I'm so excited to drive this car," Natalie beams at me, and I return her smile. My heart squeezes seeing her so happy."Remember to go easy on the gas pedal," I tell her. "It would be a tragedy if Emma lost both of her parents."Natalie chuckles and drives us onto the road. I take great satisfaction in observing her lips curl into a smile. Those wide, beautiful eyes take in our surroundings. Natalie doesn't know this car will soon belong to her."I love this car!"My skin tightens as I imagine Natalie saying those words to me, that she loves me. God knows I love her, and love never changes. Even when I had no memories, I loved her. That feeling will never go away, or it wouldn't be love. Yet I'm hesitant about flirting with her. Natalie is ge
NatalieA few days later, after Noah bought me my new car. I'm making dinner in the kitchen when Alaric comes home. My mood is so good, and I'm dancing to some new pop song on the radio. These steaks are going to taste like a happy life.Sadly, the music within me dies when Alaric walks into the kitchen with a bouquet of flowers. There is a big smile on his lips. It turns into a sad line when I cross my arms underneath my chest.I frown at him, meeting his eyes with fury behind mine. "You didn't call me after I was let out of the hospital.""I know, honey," Alaric inhales deeply. "Losing our child was hard on me...""It was hard for me too. I expected us as a couple to get through the hardship together," I tell Alaric, looking him up and down.Alaric is wearing an expensive suit, and he has shaved. He cleans up nicely, but I won't step into the trap of inhaling his cologne and letting him kiss away my anger.Alaric let me down when I needed him the most. Instead of him being there for
NatalieThings have been going great with Alaric. We have spent the entire week joking and having fun. We are getting married next week, and... I might not be the happiest I could ever be, but I'm satisfied."You seem lost in thought."Alaric's deep voice washes me, and I realize I must have spaced out. How rude of me.We are eating dinner at some fancy restaurant. I'm talking to my dad again, and he gave us money; Noah's money, to pay for this dinner I'm having with Alaric right now."Are you alright, Natalie?"Alaric's brows are furrowed, and his mouth is turned down. For once, there is actual concern written on his face."I'm excellent," I smile, lifting my class to share a cheer with my soon-to-be husband. When I see the worry disappear over Alaric's handsome features, hope for the future ignites within me. Tonight is about us. I'm trying to fall back in love with Alaric because he is a good guy. When we first met, he was a total gentleman. He held up doors and threatened me to
Natalie I dig into my dessert to try and look busy around our table. Alaric left to visit the bathroom in quite a hurry. He had an incoming phone call from his business partner. So I'm eating my soufflé alone. The fancy restaurant is filled with people tonight. They crowd the floor and mingle with each other before finally sitting down to order. I feel a bit out of place, especially since I'm alone. I'm also suffering that nagging feeling that every other person inside this room is wearing way more expensive clothing. I swear some women frown upon seeing me while others snicker at my second-hand bag. "I'm sorry," Alaric returns to the table. "My business partner had a lot to say." A smile takes hold of my lips. I get the feeling Alaric's business partner is a woman since he is afraid of naming them. I wonder why he is trying to keep that a secret? "It's alright," I tell him. "I ordered dessert to keep me busy." "Was it any good?" "Delicious." "Anyway, about our wedding," Alar