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Giving Up On Your Dreams
I am going back to the city; I am done with this town. I am done with Tyler; I am tired of waiting for him. I am tired of waiting for Tyler to tell me how he really feels. He cannot tell me that he loves me, he is too damn scared to get the words out of his mouth.
The fact is, he will never tell me what he really feels for me. He is so hung up on what Clara did to him that he cannot see what is right in front of his eyes. I have been here waiting and waiting and I will wait forever.
I am done with Tyler Moore. I am not waiting for him any longer.
It is time I go back to where my real home is.
So as I get home, and I start packing, then I hear Tyler bursting through the front door. I guess he has discovered what I have done with Clara. Well, does it truly look like I care?
“Jenna!” His voice comes rumbling as he starts racing up the stairs.
I only but turn away from him and carry on packing, “Tyler just leave me alone.”
He steps
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