DeidreI closed the book and rubbed my eyes, leaning back in my chair.The room was dark; the fire had died hours ago. I glanced at the clock on my desk. It was almost 3:00 in the morning.I had barely noticed how cold my office was, or the deep shadows along the wall that the window had cast in the moonlight. But now that I wasn’t absorbed by the book in front of me, I shuddered, not sure if I was more chilled more by the dark room or by what I had just read. I put the book back into its compartment, unwilling to look at it again. Nyllan had indeed been a man before his time. I couldn’t have guessed at the contents of his work before I had read it, but I certainly understand now why his work would have been so threatening for his time. It was all deeply unsettling. It had the potential to be completely transformative; but I didn’t dare go there now.But as much as I didn’t want to admit it, the book had been compelling. The data was overwhelmingly convincing; his research methods–wh
PerrinNot only did it take Deidre’s interior designer less than an hour to call me back, Teagan had a team meet me outside of the Alpha Select Suite in half that time.Teagan was a short woman with giant glasses that made her look alarmingly like an insect. But she was dressed, ironed, and pressed to the nines, and courteous to point of Deidre-approved perfection. Which, I reminded myself, was the reason she was here.After her team of staff assistants brought in box after box of samples that they would assemble quietly in the background, I walked through the space of the Alpha Select Suite with Teagan. “I’m not really sure complaining about a space you designed is the best way to start,” I said apologetically, acknowledging the fact that I was standing in front of a professional designer and the she-wolf responsible for carrying out Deidre’s visions.She simply snapped the clipboard she had been taking notes on to her chest and looked at me. “Alpha Select–”“–Please, call me Perrin
PerrinIt was a rare day indeed when my father chose to forgo Charlie’s chauffeur services and to drive his own car.Personally, I never really understood the rush of driving; the twins loved their motorcycles. I enjoyed the quiet backseat and my own thoughts.But not this morning. And my father apparently shared the same love of the road that my best friend and Beta did, as he was on pace to put in record speed on the way to the infirmary. I grinned, thinking of the confused and slightly terrified look on Charlie’s face as we sped out of the pack house parking lot. We made our way inside, greeting Lorrie and heading back. To my surprise, we met Jennivah in the hall prior to racing Jesamine’s suite.“Good morning Alpha, Alpha Select,” she said.“Good morning, Ascended Jennivah,” my father said in return with equal formality. “Is my wife here?”Jennivah blinked. “I’m sorry, Alpha. I thought she was with you.”“Why would she be with me?” my father said. “She’s always here first thing.”
PerrinSeth was nowhere to be seen when I returned to training, but I realized that I was content to drill myself into the ground with my newfound conviction. Gowan’s intention of getting near Jesamine and my son was never going to happen. And three hours had passed before I realized I was late to training with my father.Knowing that I’d likely face an angry Alpha for being late, I quickly showered and rushed over to the pack house. But as I reached the door to my father’s office, I heard shouting. Based on the voices, Mark and Seth had joined my father. And whatever was being discussed was not going over well.“Come in!” My father barked from inside, interrupting Seth. “You’re late.”I bit my tongue at the retort I wanted to share about him already being busy, but was wise enough to refrain. I slipped quietly into the room and secured the door behind me. “He threatened your son!” Seth shouted, pointing in my direction. It wasn’t like Seth to shout, especially at my father. And jud
Perrin“I don’t know where she’s gone,” I said, panting as I reached my father’s office. I had sprinted up the stairs and explained quickly what had happened.Mark and Seth, all interest in our previous conversation now on hold, left my father’s office quickly in search of Kira.“That was a clever trick,” my father said, rounding his desk to sit on the sofa. “I never underestimated Ethan, that much is true.”“It wasn’t meant to be a trick,” I said, unable to sit down. “It was meant to be a fail safe.”He eyed my pacing from where he sat. “Because you didn’t trust her?”“Because we care about her!” I growled. I didn’t care how I was coming off to my father. “They better find her,” I added, pulling out my phone. I sent Kira a text, asking her to call me. I didn’t expect a response.“Perrin, you need to focus. Nael will be calling us shortly,” my father said. “Are you prepared for this conversation?”“Truthfully? No.” I flopped down on the couch, frustrated and exhausted.The door to his
PerrinDeidre was in charge of the press, ensuring she saw any story Nael tried to leak to either our pack or his own. My father had left immediately to speak with Janas about patrols for the next week as we had no idea how long he would stay. And after calling Mark as I left the pack house, there was no sign of Kira anywhere. At least not yet.By the time I had left the infirmary, I was exhausted. Gowan’s accommodations had been less than luxurious and nothing compared to Jesamine’s suite. Even moving him to a larger space wouldn’t prevent him from saying as much to Nael.I walked out beneath the soft orange of the setting sky, breathing the clean air, trying to rid my lungs of the lingering scents of sterile cleaner and hospital sheets.I wasn’t sure what I had done would be enough. I wasn’t sure what I had done was right. My discussion with Gowan hadn’t gone as I had expected, and I felt myself fighting for control as my nails dug into my palms, clenched into fists and on the verge
DeidreAfter ensuring Kira was fine; passed out and sleeping but in no danger of throwing up again, I had gone to see my husband.I had braced for it. Knew that he wouldn’t be pleased with what I had done. How I had spoken to Mistra. In fact, he was enraged. It was the first time I had seen him this angry at me in a very, very long time.He had told Mark to leave. Dismissed everybody in the adjacent offices so that they wouldn’t hear his howling rage as he tore into me.I took it. I knew I had to. Knew that I had no right to kick out the widow of his late Beta. My temper had gotten the better of me. I had withstood her for years… but Mistra has pushed me one time too many. She had little to no responsibility and all the privilege in the world. And what did she do with that privilege? Rolled around in the dirt all day? Couldn’t even make time to bathe? I could see his frustration mounting before me as I pleaded my case, shaking as I fought for my own control. “She almost let it slip!
Deidre Pacing back and forth in my office like some caged animal, I wasn’t relishing the discussion I was going to have. Apologize? No. If Benjamin had really found my daughter drunk, then he wouldn’t have tried to hide it; tried to conceal her from me. “He doesn’t know what he doesn’t know!” Jennivah said from the chair, as if reading my mind. “He saw a–a friend? Or the Beta Select doing something that she shouldn’t have. He was worried for her. Maybe even a little protective. Can’t you forgive that?” My eyes narrowed. I had been mulling over the situation all night, tossing and turning in the empty bed while Jason was at the Lodge. Benjamin had preferred to study on the second level. He had admitted as much to me himself. So if Kira had been there, hiding out and getting drunk, then why wouldn’t he have noticed her there? What else could he have been doing? “Is he here yet?” I asked Jennivah. “No,” she admitted. She had been checking on the AA meeting for me to see if Benj