The maid appears in my mind’s eye, luscious, perfect. Sinfully sweet. I shake the image away. I don’t know where I went wrong with Joel, but I’m not like him. I’m not going to take advantage of someone who works under my protection.
I try to lose myself in a pet project for a local charity, providing paid internships and occupational training to people in underserved communities. I swear out loud when I realize I’ve read the same draft of a press release four times without comprehending any of it.
It’s that maid. I can’t get her out of my head. There’s something about her, and it’s not merely that I think she can do better than my asshole son.
I know it’s terrible to think of him that way, but when it comes to women, he’s never seemed to treat them quite right. I hope someday that’ll change. It might be time for me to have a word with him. Again.
A text appears on my phone, from Sebastian. If we don’t go to Vice, how are you going to find a date for the gala?
“I don’t need a date,” I growl to myself. And then I text that exact sentence to Bash.
Tomorrow, he writes back. We’re going to Vice. We don’t have to pick anyone up. Just come hang. Please. You know I won’t go by myself.
And he won’t. He could easily go by himself, but he’s too fucking scared of the past to do it.
Fine, I write back. Tomorrow. 10pm. I’ll meet you there.
I lean back in my chair, thinking maybe I should just forget working any longer tonight. I can go home, maybe jerk off and think about the hot little maid. No, not her. She’s seeing my son, or at least messing around with him. Fantasizing about her would be truly dirty.
But then again, dirty is just how I like to fuck.
The light in front of my apartment building is still broken. Over the past two weeks, I’ve left three messages for the landlord asking him to fix it, but apparently he has more pressing matters to attend to, like getting high and selling drugs.
The Bellefleur District of San Esteban isn’t really known for its nice streetlights and considerate landlords. I should be grateful that I have hot water most days.
I balance leftover Chinese food in one arm while I get my keys out to unlock the building’s main door. But as I move to fit the key into the lock, I realize I needn’t have bothered with the key; the last person through the door left it ajar. If people don’t make an effort to slam it closed, the thing doesn’t latch properly.
I slam it firmly behind me.
Once inside, I trek up the two flights of stairs necessary to reach my third-floor apartment. My feet hurt like crazy and I cannot wait to sit my ass down on the couch, gorge myself on leftover Chinese, and then haul my weary bones to bed.
My keyboard sits safely under its cover in the corner. The very sight of it makes me feel guilty. I haven’t played any music or tried coming up with a new song in ages. It’s hard to drum up the motivation when I’m so exhausted.
I don’t have a TV. Instead, I make do with an old laptop. The things I watch on VideYou are mostly videos made by independent singers and songwriters. That’s my tribe, even though they don’t know me and they probably never will.
The general’s chicken dish is so spicy, I have to guzzle water, which doesn’t really help. I miss Joel’s office—he always has a few bottles of beer in a minibar off to one side.
Mr. Tyler has a similar minibar. I can’t really imagine him using it. If he does get a drink, he’s probably pouring fine whiskey. Something distinguished. There’s an old-school vibe to the man, and I find myself wondering just how old he is.
He didn’t look too old for me, not when he stood in the supply closet doorway.
Fuck, what does he think of me? He nearly walked in on me giving head to his son.
Someone bangs on my door, and I jolt in surprise. The carton of general’s chicken topples. I catch it just in time and right it, propping it next to my laptop and sighing.
It’s after midnight. There’s only one person who would be coming to my apartment at this hour.
I make my way to the door just as he pounds on the surface again.
“Ella? Lemme in, it’s Tommy.”
His speech isn’t slurred, so he’s at least sober. He’s not an alcoholic, but he sometimes drinks, and then he’s mean.
“How’d you get into the building?” I ask as I unlock the deadbolt and the chain.
“Someone didn’t latch the door downstairs.” He spills into my tiny living room, taking up more space than his lanky, six-foot frame should need.
Someone must have come in after me, and they weren’t careful. I should ask the landlord to fix the door, but I know how much good that’ll do.
“Hey, sis,” Tommy says. “Ooh, Chinese food.”
He picks up my chopsticks and helps himself, taking my nice warm spot on the couch.
“Tommy,” I say. “We talked about this. You’re supposed to call first, remember?”
“It’s not like you’re entertaining anyone,” he says with a chuckle, then shoves more of my second dinner into his face.
“Do you mind?” I say. “I was eating that.”
He looks puzzled. Typical Tommy. Like, how could another person have been existing and living their own life before he walked into the room? He carefully sets the carton and chopsticks down.
“Go on, you can eat it,” I say.
“You sure?”
“Yes, just eat it, for fuck’s sake. What do you need, Tommy?”
“Just wanted to say hi,” he says.
He never just wants to say hi. I give him my most skeptical look.
“Okay, yeah, I could use a place to crash tonight,” he says. “My roommate’s pissed at me again.”
Gee, I wonder what he could possibly do to piss off another human being.
“Yeah, you can crash here,” I say. “But you take the couch this time.”
He looks at it doubtfully—the loveseat isn’t even long enough for me to stretch out on, and I’m only five-four. Somehow, Tommy got all the height in our family, and all the charisma. I ended up with all the manners, which I make up for with my potty mouth.I close my eyes. He doesn’t even need to ask. “Fine,” I say. “Take the bed, I’ll take the couch.”“Thank you, sis,” he says, finishing off my general’s chicken. “You’re the best.”I go into my bedroom to stow my vibrator in a drawer so he doesn’t have to see that, then I quickly change the bedsheets. I snag the better blanket for myself, because if I’m going to be on the couch, I at least won’t be cold.When I come out of the bedroom, Tommy has already moved on to my carton of chow mein.Yeah, he’s a butthole in so many ways, but he’s the only family I have left.And at least he isn’t asking for money.Probably because he knows I don’t have any.SebastianOn Thursday, Kingston’s nowhere in sight when I arrive at Vice. Usually he’s s
I look away from them, not wanting to make them self-conscious or worried about attracting attention. My focus comes to rest on a familiar face. “They aren’t the only ones. That looks like Joel, over there.”“We’re getting too old for this place if we’re running into my kid,” King says, his smile disappearing.“He’s cozy with his date.”King’s head snaps up and he looks for Joel. “Where are they?”“Right over by the bar,” I say. “Making out.”“The fuck?” His eyes widen.“What is it?” I ask. Joel’s kissing the redhead, but not doing anything else I think King would object to.“That’s not his girlfriend,” King says. “I saw him with someone at work. What a little prick. I can’t believe I raised that kid.”“That’s because you didn’t,” I say. “His mother got her claws into him and turned him against you early on.”“It wasn’t that bad,” he grumbles.It was, but if he wants to tell himself a different story about it, that’s fine with me, I guess.“Well, maybe it’s just casual with the other
Joel finishes. It wasn’t great, but hey, I climaxed, and that’s unusual with us. I have only myself to blame that I’m not often satisfied, because nobody’s forcing me to stay in this relationship. I thought I could make it work, and I was wrong.I can’t do this anymore, I think as I straighten my maid’s uniform. I need to tell him. Break things off.Because thinking about his father while I’m fucking him? That’s all shades of wrong, isn’t it? Why can’t I stop?Joel grins at me. “Pretty good, huh?”“Yeah,” I say.Do it now. Break up with him. No job is worth feeling like crap all the time.But I need to afford food, rent.Find another job.I open my mouth to speak.“Well, I gotta get back to work,” Joel says, zipping up. “Oh hey, you’re my plus-one for the gala, okay?”The words on my lips, the ones where I tell him it’s over and I hope we can still be friends, refuse to leave my mouth. I swallow them down and stutter, “The—the gala?”“Yeah. The company gala. It’s in two weeks. Are you
“But, Jimi Hendrix?” I ask.“Yeah.” She grins, and I nearly groan. There’s a deep dimple in her left cheek and it’s so girlish and cute, it nearly kills me. She adds, “Little Wing.”“One of my favorites of his,” I say.“Mine, too.”When she reaches to turn on the vacuum cleaner, I say, “Just a second. What’s your name?”“Ella Marchand.”“I’m Kingston Tyler,” I say. “It’s nice to meet you, Ella Marchand.”“It’s nice to meet you, too,” she says. Even though the lighting is dim, I can see the faint blush on her cheeks.The vacuum hums to life, and she gets back to work.Even though I wish I could keep talking to her, I shut my mouth like a good CEO and move back to my desk. I try to look at my computer, and not at her.Ella. She’s gorgeous.I stare blankly at my monitor, like the sick fuck I am, and think about what it might be like to lift the hem of Ella’s uniform a little higher. I wonder what kind of panties she’s wearing under it. Something sexy and grown-up? Or something younger? T
As soon as Joel’s out of sight, the maid’s face transforms, very briefly, and I see pain there.Does she have a crush on Joel? Man, she could do so much better than him.Shaking my head at the injustice, I move down the hall.“King,” I bark as I step into his office.“I am not going to Vice with you tonight,” he says, his frown pronounced.“Nah,” I say with a grin, “I don’t want that loud, shitty music.”He laughs. “They were playing your shitty music last night.”“Exactly.” I lean against the doorway. “I was thinking somewhere quieter. Abdul’s for drinks?”“Sure.” He stands and grabs his jacket from a hook on the wall.We leave his office. The little maid is nowhere in sight, and I’m disappointed. I wanted to see King’s reaction to her. She looks like she was made for us, all sweet curves and innocent blushes.When I go home tonight, I’m going to fantasize about disciplining her.I bet I could make that little bird sing.KingstonThey’re in the supply closet again. I wish I didn’t kn
EllaThirteen days until the gala. I need a dress, shoes.I have fifty dollars in emergency cash, and yeah, I’m going to do the stupid thing and spend it.It’ll be worth it, to see Joel’s face when he picks me up and I walk out looking glamorous.How weird is it that my boyfriend has never seen me dressed in anything other than my work uniform? Very weird. It’s why I wear lacy bras and panties to work every day, since I started dating him. If he’s going to lift up my dress, I want him to see something nice. Sure, the underwear is cheap and itchy, but I endure it because knowing that I’m sexy beneath my uniform is pretty much the only advantage I have.Thirteen days until the gala, and two hours before my shift at the pub. I throw on a sweatshirt to help combat the chilly San Esteban January, then head downstairs. Time to go shopping.Mrs. Dali, a woman who lives one floor down from me, is coming up the stairs as I come down, lugging a giant canvas bag of groceries. Her silver hair, st
I fish two twenties from my wallet and hold them out. He gives me five dollars back and takes down my name and phone number, pinning the note to the hanger and hanging the dress on a rack behind the counter.“Thank you so much,” I tell him, stuffing the receipt in my wallet along with the leftover cash.“You’re welcome. See you in five days.”“See you,” I say, waving cheerfully.I can’t believe my good luck. How freaking incredible, that something is finally, finally going right for me. Too good to be true? Maybe I would’ve thought that a few days ago, but right now, I’m going to let myself feel excited, happy, hopeful.I’m going to the gala.EllaJoel isn’t working the next night I’m scheduled to be at Tyler Analytics. I text him to see if maybe he wants to come into the office—I want to tell him all about the dress I’m getting for the gala. I should’ve snapped a picture of me wearing it in the fitting room…but no, it’ll be better to surprise him with it.He’s never seen me in anythi
I press my lips together and force myself to think about my response. I’m going to get fucking fired, is what’s going to happen.He’s still waiting for my response, those stormy, grayish-blue eyes locked on me, his glass of whiskey tilted toward his lips.“Sometimes I get nervous,” I say quietly.“And that makes you say curse words?”Shaking my head, I say, “No, it doesn’t make me say them. It makes me forget to hold them in.”He grins. “That’s the most honest thing I’ve heard all day, Ella.”“Thank you, sir?”“You’re welcome. Now, I’ll go get the ladder for you. Help yourself to some whiskey, if you’d like.”I watch him leave the room, too surprised to say another word.KingstonI’m going straight to hell for this. Ella is probably the best damn maid the cleaning service has ever sent to work here, and finding a few dusty books was the best I could do to get her into my office.And why have I brought her into my office?Answer: I’m a sick, old fuck. A creepy old man obsessed with his