Tear it open

==Olivia==

“Get the fucking grip on yourself, girl!” I groaned. Frustrated with myself, I tossed the hairbrush on the bed. Why was I sad. Why? Why was I feeling like a loser? Matteo was a monster. Therefore, I shouldn’t be crying my eyes out because he completely forgot about the kiss. The touch, the stuff we shared the other day. Instead, he sought for pleasure some other place. 

Hiccups set in. “Fuck me.”

I didn’t look like myself one bit. The eye bags, the frizzy hair, the dull colour of my skin. All pointed to lack of care. I was hear mourning about what never was. And something that never would be. 

I sat back on the chair, staring blankly at the mirror. The images of yesterday flashed before my eyes. Matteo naked, mount