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XX. Letter
Feelings.
The feelings of kindness and compassion were outrageous especially when I want to strangle someone with the name of Arya Petrov.
I’m not a violent person. I swear. I survived eighteen years in a house with two adults trying to shape me into someone I am not. I didn’t throw things. I didn’t stomp my feet. I didn’t let their lecture and disappointment stopped me from being me. I thought I grew numb when it comes to them.
And then Brad happened.
Hitting rock bottom is never easy even if I have my friends with me. But for my family, expecting me to just bounce back unscratched is ludicrous and downright impossible.
Now, who’s the disappointment?
Am I? Or them calling me at three in the morning to say sorry for not making it to ‘my wedding’?
Lovely, huh?
I told them everything. Well, not everything, I purposely omitted the part where I married a different man a week before ‘Brad and I's wedding’.
And
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