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Consolation Prize 18. Julianna
A true relationship is two imperfect people refusing to give up on each other. —UnknownAfter he cleaned himself up and returned to the bed, we lay prone on our backs, side by side and stared up at the ceiling together for I don’t know how long, but it felt like eons that I just gaped at nothing and thought holy shit, what just happened?I mean, my body still hummed from how hard and long I’d come, and I was sure I should be over the afterglow by now. But I was ready for more, eager for more, craving it like some kind of drug addict.I blew out a breath and muttered, “Well, that didn’t get shit out of my system.”Next to me, Colton grumbled his agreement. “Nope,” he muttered before he cursed and scrubbed his face. “Dammit. I guess this means once won’t be enough for us.”Rolling onto my side, I gaped at him. “What do you mean once won’t be enough?” I shoved his arm, more scared he was right than actually angry about it. “You fucking asshole. You promised me once would do the trick
Consolation Prize 19. Colton
A relationship: where you instantly miss each other right after being together. —UnknownI felt weird the next day. I wanted to text Julianna, call her, go see her, spend the entire day inside her. I knew she said she had to work today, but that wouldn’t be until this evening. She probably had all morning and early afternoon free. If I’d played my cards right, I could’ve spent that entire time in her bed.But, no. It kind of freaked me out how badly I wanted to be with her. So I refrained from all contact.Okay, mostly all contact. I’d had to send her one message first thing this morning.FROM COLTON: 60 more hours.You know, just so she wouldn’t forget she’d made an arrangement with me and wouldn’t try to schedule something else Monday night. It was just a reminder, not any kind of hi-how-are-you-I-miss-you-I-want-back-inside-you bullshit. No. Definitely not.But my heart still skipped into overdrive when I saw that she’d read the message and was typing out a reply.When only t
Consolation Prize 20. Julianna
Absence makes the heart grow fonder. —Sextus PropertiusI only received those three text messages from Colton on Saturday morning. I don’t know how, but they kept me full of hope and promise and excitement throughout the entire day, and yet they didn’t…because I wanted more from him.It was like reading a really good book. I wanted to rush through it because I wanted it all now, and yet I wanted to draw it out and make it last for as long as possible because I didn’t want it to end.The damn boy was conflicting my heart.I ignored the little warning bells clanging in the back of my mind, telling me how bad it was to count on and look forward to my next encounter with him because it wasn’t serious between us, we weren’t starting anything long-term. But I didn’t want to think about that. So I didn’t.I was still rocking my afterglow all through Saturday. I even smiled during karaoke night at the bar. And I smiled as I fell asleep that night when I got home from work.The next morni
Consolation Prize 21. Julianna
Chemistry is you touching my mind and it setting my body on fire. —UnknownI was jumpy and nervous as I walked into philosophy the next morning. I still wasn’t sure what Colton was going to do.I’d woken up to a text from him.FROM COLTON: 12 hours. I hope you’re well rested, baby doll, because tonight I’m going to wear that pussy out.I hadn’t responded. I was too on edge, stressing about class. Would he sit by me, flirt with me, kiss me?Of course he’d sit by me. Aside from that little glitch after the wedding where he’d been upset, he’d always come to me and flirted and talked whenever we were in the same room. But the kissing…I didn’t know. Did he do public displays of affection with the women he saw? Not that we were technically seeing each other, as in relationship-wise, but yeah, would he even touch me?A part of me craved just that. After hearing last night how I’d rocked his world enough to make his brother-in-law notice the change, I was ready to grab his shirt, yank hi
Consolation Prize 22. Julianna
Say it before you run out of time. Say it before it’s too late. Say what you’re feeling. Waiting is miserable. —UnknownMy hands shook as I conditioned my hair and tied it up, and they continued to shake as I cleaned my face and changed into the sexiest pair of pajamas I owned.Why were they shaking? I wasn’t sure. I mean, this wasn’t the first time I thought I was in love with a guy. I’d been positive Shaun had been the one, but look how that had ended. He’d been a slime ball. So honestly, I shouldn’t trust my emotions at all.Things with Colton felt so different, though. I’d wanted to fall for Shaun; I’d fought it the entire time with Colton. Opening my heart to him seemed scary and bold and dangerous. I knew he could hurt me like no one else because I’d given him more weapons to do so…I’d freaking confided things to him. And if he wasn’t the one to hurt me, what would everyone else think about us being together? What if their scorn broke me?Maybe Theo had been right. They were
Consolation Prize 23. Julianna
By the way, I’m wearing the smile you gave me. —UnknownI woke the next morning to Colton kissing his way up my shoulder.Mumbling incoherently over the fact I was now awake and didn’t yet want to be, I rolled toward him and reached blindly until I found his chest, which was covered by the cotton material of his shirt.Yes, that made waking up better. Except, wait.My eyes came open. He hadn’t worn a shirt to bed.Finding him fully dressed, I immediately pouted. “You have clothes on.”“I know, I know.” He expelled a dramatic sigh. “You want some really fun morning nookie, I get that. I mean, hello.” He waved a hand over his chest. “Why wouldn’t you? But I’m sorry, baby doll. I’m already running late. I need to get home and shower and change. My first class starts in half an hour.”He pressed his lips to the base of my neck, kissing me noisily before he pulled away to hop off my bed. “When’s your next night off?” he asked as he tugged on his shoes.I groaned because I had a pret
Consolation Prize 24. Julianna
It’s not about about the sex. Sometimes the best type of intimacy is where you just lay back, laugh together at the stupidest things, hold each other, and enjoy each other’s company. —UnknownI was curled up on my couch on Thursday evening, home alone because my roommates were once again away with their boyfriends, and unable to do much past hold a warm cup of hot tea between my hands and stare at the clock ticking at a sloth’s pace over the quiet television when a knock came at my door.My pulse raced. Was it Colton? I hadn’t been sure if he’d show up. We’d made plans for tonight and he’d never canceled, but we hadn’t talked since Tuesday either. And after he’d strode off in his jealous huff, I had no idea where that left us, if his fine was really fine or not.If only I weren’t so freaking stubborn and hard-headed, I could’ve pushed until everything felt fine to me, and then I’d know exactly what was going on in his head right now. I wouldn’t be so self-conscious and confused and
Consolation Prize 25. Colton
They told me that to make her fall in love, I had to make her laugh. But every time she laughs, I’m the one who falls in love. —Unknown“Let’s go out,” I suggested the next night as I patted Julianna’s thigh in encouragement.It was night two of Aunt Flow’s visit and since there was no action going to go on in the apartment—except for that one little blow job I’d begged from her about two seconds after I’d arrived, but that had been nearly two hours ago—I was getting cabin fever.Even Juli’s roommates were gone. She told me they often disappeared whenever she had her period because it made her so cantankerous, though I’d yet to see her even mildly moody.Glancing up from the really boring show on the television we’d been watching about how cement was made, she blinked at me from big brown eyes.“And do what?”I shrugged. “I don’t know. Let’s get something to eat.” We hadn’t had supper, and I was always ready to eat.She blinked as if startled. “You want to go out to dinner with
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