50-Out Of Control

Standing in the midst of total chaos, I hadn't lost this much control for a very long time. This was one of the reasons I need Elena to accept the proposal, she already had much control over me, if she dares to reject me that would be a serious problem for me. Her body always tells me a different story but in her eyes I can see it all. She is scared about something or someone but apart from that I had a bad feeling that she was going to say no again, if I was going to scare her to get the answer that I want, I would.

Micheal was looking at me across the table, I sat on the chair as floods of regret flush through me, I knew I had hurt Elena, I couldn't shake of the feeling of how scared she was ,that she though what she needed to do was to away from me.

It mentally hurt

I had just lost it, a lot of things had happened this week and I only hope she could look at me the same. I didn't mean to lash out. I was so good at controlling my self but today hearing the doubt in her lips when she