KABANATA 180

Noon I was determined with what I want to do. It was all planned and ready but now, it looks like the tables are turned. Umuurong ang katawan ko ngayon at hindi ko alam kung bakit. I planned to find him, talked to him about Leona and see his background. Akala ko noon madali lang pero ngayong nandito na ako sa sitwasyong ganito ay mahirap pala sa aking inaakala. Ngayong about kamay ko na at nakakasama ko pa, I realized that hindi pala iyong ganoon kadali. It takes time and process. I don't even know what will my life happens after that. Ang plano ko noon ay sabihin sa kaniya at lumayo rin. I don't have plans to get back at him because we have a daughter. I just want his small time when my daughter needs to have a father. That's it. Para sa anak ko ito dahil lumalaki na rin naman siya and her whole life she never feel the love of his father than those other who is at her age who have father. Kahit na sabihin man ng anak ko na hindi niya kailangan ay alam ko na kailangan ko pa ring gawin